By T.K.
Date: 24 December 1998

Here I am still.

Here I am still.
Still trying to convince myself
that things will be okay.
Still wearing a thin smile
to put on a show for the others.

Here I am still.
Still sitting here wondering
if the pain will ever begin to subside.
Still hopelessly fantasizing
for some miracle to make things right.

Here I am still.
Still haunted by memories of her,
reminding me of how much I have lost.
Still lying through the sleepless nights
letting the tears stream down my face.

Here I am still.
Still in love with the past.
Still…alone.