By jovita  jovlad@yahoo.com
Date: 7 December 1998

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i hate struggling
i hate waiting and waiting for something to happen
i hate the mockery in loneliness' laugh
it is degrading
and i hate you.
you with your crooked smile
and your syrupy lies
and your cocky walk.
i hate the way you think you can just storm in here
and demand my love
because you know i'll give it.
you think you're bad, don't you?
think you're a king.
think it'll always be this way, 
that the girls will just keep fallin' for you
that you'll always be so hot.
that i'll always be right here waiting
for you to come back again.
i just want to hit you, 
to scratch you,
to call you the meanest names,
and it DRIVES ME CRAZY
and i hate you,
because i know you wouldn't even care if i did
because you would know i didn't mean it.
because you know that i love you.