By danyelle dleh57@hotmail.com
Date: 22 December 1998

you

you said you loved me
but you didnt at all
funny that i couldnt see
i cant believe i took the fall
for you
i wish there was some way i 
could get you to see
how you meant everything to me
but you want your"freedom" so 
there's nothing left to say
atleast you still want to be friends
but i cant forget the hurt you provided
at no cost to you
but i've paid a big price...
my heart...
my one irreplaceable
i gave it to you willingly
but you didnt give back
youre a scared little boy with
mans hands
hands that used to hold mine
so tightly
connected to arms
that pulled me nearer
till we seemed like just one person
but now...
my hands are empty and
the only thing holding me tight is
my misery
youknow...
i thought you were really different
that you cared more than just enough
but i was wrong(again)
when you told me it was over
i know you felt like you broke my heart
the heart of the little girl 
you used to love
but i would never lose my pride
its the only thing i had left
the one thing you would never touch
so...
i said i didnt care, i wasnt hurt
i understood
so understanding am i 
but still, i lied. i cant understand this
this pain that keeps on growing
but to tell you this
would mean losing you completly
would mean losing me completly
and i cant handle that...
so last night when i saw you
my heart pounded
my blood rushed
but i sat in the truck
singing to my jilted lyrics
we started talking and
it felt like old times
but it wasnt
i wanted you to hold me soo bad
but i didnt dare  ask
you didnt want in the situation the first time
why would you go back in?
i have so many questions
with answers i dont want to know
but its killing me, cant you see
i cry alone, dying, remembering
the way we were