By The Guppy
Date: 20 June 1999

peace offering to the devil

i didn't mind that you spent most of the time laughing at me
i didn't mind that you so consistently cracked me up
i didn't mind that we shared so much
i didn't mind that our similarities overwhelmed me
i didn't mind the times you made me upset
i didn't mind the times when i did the same to you
i didn't mind the pillow talk
i didn't mind the flirting
i didn't mind acting the flirting out
i didn't mind the praise
i didn't mind all the attention
i didn't mind the most passion i've ever felt
i didn't mind taking the uppercuts when you chose to give them
i didn't mind throwing a few myself
i didn't mind taking some of the blame
i didn't mind blaming a twist of fate
i didn't mind crying
i didn't mind trying
i didn't mind my manners
i didn't mind loving you
i didn't mind being the forever
and yeah, i meant every word i said...
socrates taught me to never relinquish what i know in my heart
i love complete...and i love forever...and i'll be faced with watching the girls i love wear somebody else's ring...
and i already plan on not being able to take that well...
and the dumbass formerly known as me will probably end up acting out that creepy church scene from "the graduate"
hopefully i'll learn after the first time...ha
and i wonder at times why exactly i'm not entirely hopeless
i wonder why i can laugh at all
i'm glad i can
i'm convinced that the guy who said the whole "better to have loved and lost than blah blah blah..." had no clue what he was talking about...
probably a politician
or a talking monkey
same thing i guess
hmmmm...i say...hmmmm...this started out as a poem...kinda...i thought...
oh well, what are ya gonna do?