By Uthopia
Date: 9 June 1999

Last Night

I cried myself to sleep last night
Drowning cotton pillows with each and every tear
Confusion, fear, sadness, bliss
Breaks me into pieces, leaving me in fear.

Can’t make a choice between two special people
Two loves of my life, two spaces in my heart
The loss of one may kill my entire being
The loss of the other may tear me apart.

These sendiments I keep, myself sworn to secrecy
For such sacrifice does not leave me my pride
It only overwhelms me with sorrow and misery
Awful emotions from deep within I try so hard to hide.

Torn between feelings tormenting me down to my soul
Devouring me in agony until I can no longer pretend
Loving an angel whose wings secure my safety
And living in the loyal arms of a hurting friend.

I cried myself to sleep last night
Not knowing what awaits me when I wake up
Only knowing with whatever choice I can not win
With whichever loss, there goes a part of my heart.