By Crystal
Date: 31 May 1999

This Time...

Writing used to come so easily,
Even when we weren't together
I could type many words,
each one expressing how sorry,
how much I really love you,
and how I couldn't live without you.

Now all I see is empty space,
the one thing you needed,
waiting for me to express how I"m feeling,
this time is so very different from the others.
Filled with emotion and not being able to express it,
is horrifying to me.

This time...
I'm filled with pain of losing you,
and everything that's ever mattered to me.
Yes, I'm breathing,
but I'm not living.
Hours come and go so slowly,
I barely even notice a new day.

This time ...
you're gone!
You left unbelievably fast,
and left behind are memories,
not even hopes and dreams of having you in my arms again.

This time...
It's really over!
I so want to stop the tears,
as quickly as you stopped loving me!