By Jenna Holland (poetic_angel@gurlmail.com)
Date: 5 April 1999

The Everythings

After you left I put aside
          Fantasy.
I was unable to 
     forget
The heavenly
     face
Of the perfect
     mind
Of the non-existent man 
That I loved.

I became obsessed with 
The world I couldn't
          Have,
And the reality that wasn't
          Mine.

I wanted you back,
  And along with you,
I wanted
     everything.
  The everythings I took for granted.

The everythings that made me feel
          Invincible...
The everythings, that weren't me.