By Crystal cwilkinson_85@hotmail.com
Date: 9 April 1999

Decisions

When I'm alone,
I think of all the reasons I love you,
although lately,
I can't seem to get all the things you put me through
out of my head.
I'm filled with emotions that I'm not used to.
I don't understand.  I love you more than life itself,
yet, I don't know why anymore.

The roughness in your voice takes me by surprise.
The sound of my own heart beat scares me.
I never want to leave you,
but I can't live completely and happily,
when you never take up for me,
and stand by in silence while he puts me down.

You have to make a decision,
what and who is more important to you.
I feel as is I'm in an attenition battle,
with someone you don't care at all about,
you just don't want to hurt his feelings.
What about mine?

Once I'm gone it will be too late,
to make this decision, 
you've been ignoring, and putting off.
The decision will have already been made.

Our relationship is not so perfect,
I'm tired of fighting over stupid issues,
that should have already been closed.