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Kevin - belated thank you. I'm _very_ happy you enjoyed them. I miss coming here to see what's happening at the Blender... I got a real (wutszat? haha) job and (ouch!) time is shrinking.

Running out the door now, but making a vow to get back over here tonight to read all the new submissions.

Hi, guys. (Kevin and deevaa)

it's just me wandering around. I think I got lost at some point. Almost forgot about this site. Been too busy to write, but I'm feeling inspired again. I'll try to get something together to post soon. I really miss it, but love still reading your submissions.

Hope you are all doing well! I'm doing better.

Guppy,
I love your poems. You should publish a collection.


-misti

misti,

sheeesh...thanks for saying that...i'm really impressed with your new subs...wow...really...and i'm not just saying that to return the compliment or anything like that...you are really good...i've not been able to come up with anything worth submitting in the past few days...i hate that...hopefully i'll snap out of the writer's block thing soon...

look forward to more subs by you

take care,
gup

I have had time to take stock of things and I did indeed
take things too personally. I owe the Blender people
an apology for my behavior. If you'll let me I'd like
to come back. I've missed you all and deeply regret any unkind remarks I made. I don't mean to make excuses with this but I suffer from endogenous depression and at the time was off my medication and saying and thinking things
I shouldn't have partly influenced by that. Nevertheless, I
won't justify making unkind remarks or causing problems here. I hope you all will know I'd really like to come back I have not really been here much or read what's been
written, so have a lot to catch up on. I hope all are well.
I need to find out what's happened to Dee since I've been away. Perhaps it's on the comment board. I'll look first.
Thanks for your comments Crystevin. I was unduly hard on you and I hope you'll forgive me. I misunderstood completely what you were saying. Thanks for still thinking about me after the way I behaved. Dee helped straighten me out on it and I have been busy while away, but also too stubborn to just say "I'm sorry". I say it now. Regards to all of you on the Blender. I'd like to come back if you don't mind. This site is unique and I miss it and the people on it.

Dear jlor,

Some of us still able, will dance in celebration at a writer come back home. Take care. Go Write! Then let us see it!............Rennie

Hello everyone---productive September! I also read Jlor's letter, and hope that he will join again. It is my habit to try and turn angst, even the romantic sort into verse, or prose. You have to do something with all that energy, Jlor! Go for it...

Jlor-No blood, no foul. Welcome Back!

-Crystevin

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!
I'm in NYC and I'm at SHADY's PLACE.... (did I say OMG!!!!)

Whooooooooohoooooooooooooo!!!!

Jlor, good to see you back, please email me, I've lost your addy since being on the road... miss you much!

We are hitting the shops tomorrow... guess who can't wait to max out her credit card???

dee

Fear not, gentle readers, the October Blender should be published tonight. Sorry for the delay.

And the 1998 stuff is safe on the new server I keep meaning to switch over to. I'll try to get to that right after this new Digest, honest.

Guppy babe, writers block = punishment for standing the deevaa babe up.

<grins, then turns on her heal and swings her butt on out the door>

I'm trying to put a collection of first kisses together and since you all here seem to be the lovable type Maybe you'd want to share yours. I was initially intrigued by this idea because whenever I asked people about their first, they sort of smiled and the memories overflowed. I will be raffling off copies but then again, who wouldn't want their first kissed to be famous.

This is a really kewl module hangout! Gotta tell all my friends to hang here...

Happy October! My yard got rolled Saturday Night! yeahhh!
I love that!!
Deevaa! Hope that you and Shady are having a great time!!!!!

Love you guys!!!

Maybe I'm a freak (well, I know that I am!) but I'm surprised that no one has ever used this forum to find a Significant Other. I will boldly go where no Blenderite has gone before and say that I am looking for a boyfriend. I just lost a really good one and am admittedly on the Rebound, but that is Okay! Life is Short!!
I live in a very small town and my weekends are tied up with work (i'm a reporter/photographer) so I don't get out much. I'm tired of meeting guys in clubs, anyway. I feel like if I met someone on this site the chances of it working out would be greater because we'd have at least one essential thing in common.
This is who I am: 26, quarter Cherokee/Irish/Scottish, black hair, blue eyes, 5"8, 145, small teeth, big gums. Dont'work out. This is so Superficial and retarded, I admit.
On a more real level, I love to read and write. I love "Twin Peaks" (all things David Lynch, really) and astrology and road trips and Las Vegas and Dash & Lilly (the ultimate couple) and taking pictures and being a free spirit. I love to dance. That's the extent of my exercise.
I'm looking for a heterosexual male between the ages of 24 and 32. Someone who isn't still in love with someone else. Someone who doesn't pick his nose. Someone who doesn't watch TV. Someone who knows who Rosebud was in "Citizen Kane." Someone who has a twisted sense of humor. Someone who does NOT play golf and smoke Cuban cigars. Someone who is into monogamy. Someone who likes to make love in a sleeping bag. That's it.
Bye.
Misti
(e-mail me if interested, damn it)

Please remove ME by cissy because it is not romance or love related.

Misti-
I have no problem with people trying their fortune on the Blender Board this way- it'd be great if something worked out. (I remember putting out a few feelers once upon a time myself.) But you should probably give your "full" e-mail address. Is it @aol.com ?

Also, please e-mail me ( blender@alienbill.com ) ASAP re: one of your works (just wanting to avoid a potential Brian issue.)

TaDa.

Toklas is AWESOME! Please publish more of her work!

Congratulations to the October Cover Pagers.

Kirk, I loved your Ramble, it was short and sweet. The ending caught me.

congrats front pagers...

welcome back jlor...

dee...um...i hate karma...:)

misti...i'll pick you up at 8 :)

i submitted 2 copies of Awakening... the first can be
deleted, because the 2nd has some grammatical and spelling
improvements. Love your webpage!

Dear Kirk,

Again, thank you for putting my work on the Digest. I felt the need to do a simple remembrance before Sept. 15th, and it became Remembering the Lost Soulmate. Thank you to the others who have congratulated each of us on the Digest. I feel that all of your works are worthy as I learn what they mean to each of you.

Toklas... your work amazes me in the depth. I crave more of your work just to see where you can lead or point a direction. Refreshing and nostalgic.

artdog... I continue to watch you stretch and reach additional emotions. I am going to enjoy watching you mature even more.

deevaa... such a delightful soul to watch. Take care and keep us posted.

To everyone on the subs, I am going back and reading again and again...still catching something I missed from each with every new reading.

I have so much on my mind. I lost a husband to a terrible accident. But, misti...., it happens, I have found a new love...on-line when I least expected it...and he keeps up with my verses ... often inspires, or is the target of them. This site and community of writers is much more than many people realize until they have been here awhile. Bravo to all of you. Go for it misti...the fairy tale does happen...............Rennie

Kirk~
I was just curious... What specifically do you look for when choosing the front page picks?

Julie-
I'm not sure if there's anything 'specific' I look for in the front page picks. I try to pick things that strike me as "good", but I know I'm not the ultimate judge of poetry- but, it is my website, and I believe a single (if imperfect) opinion can be better than pure democracy when it comes to these issues. There are definately some things that appeal to me, and somethings that are much less likely to be picked... I generally don't care for works that deal with superlatives- the bests and the worsts, the ultimates of any sort- and I do like works that have a balance between including enough details to be evocative, but not so much that a piece loses its meaning to everyone except the author and maybe one or two other people.

I do try to give some idea of what make a poem stand out to me in the comments I put by the link on the front page.

You know, I've just recently learned what it's like to be on the other side of the coin... http://www.pixeltime.com is a *terrific* site, where artists push the limits of what can be done with a 45x45 GIF in 16 colors. Every month they have a contest where people submit works based on a common theme- this month it's Halloween, last month it was summer, before that Travel, etc. And the "Pixel Master" (the electronic mascot who does the "judging") seems to be really really quirky in his picks. I got a runnerup for the "circus contest"- and sometimes I can see the logic of the ones that get picked, and sometimes I don't see it at all.

<grinning like a ... a grinning something>

Misti, you rock. Hell what more can I say?

Gupp, babe.. meet Misti <wink>
I miss talking to you more than anything (but not more than I miss my baby... I talked to him on the phone last night... and when he said 'Mumma comes back?' I just cried.)
Hang on whats my point? - oh yeah...Write me. (Its worth a shot!)

Rennie, thankyou.

Kev, heart Song, Angel... Shady = cool chick from hell.

High-fives to the front page picks... Misti, your pick was AMAZING (did I mention you rock?)

Take care of your hearts

(and email me)

deevaa [deevaa@paradise.net.nz]

Kirk,
I just sent you an e-mail regarding Brian. Hope you got it. In case you didn't, Brian has read all my stuff. I have no more secrets to hide from that boy. He knows everything he ever wanted to know about me and a whole lot more.

Guppy,
Please don't tease me. I'm feeling very vulnerable right now. My inner child is sucking her thumb. LOL!!!!

Last night sucked. I watched "Fire Walk With Me" and bawled my eyes out. I want to run away to Oregon and live in a cabin and do nothing but write and drink coffee.
DAVID LYNCH ROCKS!!!!!
Thank you, Deeva, for telling me that I rock. You rock, too.
It's the end of the world as I know it and I feel...fine.

kirk, thank you , if there was one thing i wasn't expecting to see today was my name on the front page of this months blender edition, thank you for fulfilling for me a part of my dream in this life, it really far exceeded anything i thought i could.........these simple joys, they really are the best aren't they.

that strangely elusive name..........gnomey

sarah

sarah-

the simplest pleasure in a poet's life is the sweet release of emotion folded neatly into the shape of a poem. But (a BIG one, too) being human, we all love recognition for our artistic expression, right? You ROCK too!

(as do these guys...---> <<nodding and *winking* in the general direction of Misti, the ever so coooool Shady, and that kiwi-chick chillin' in her shade...>>)

Heart-
the work Kirk put last among the monthly picks is NOT the least. We Blenderites have formed a true web community with the meaning we pour carefully - and sometimes rashly - into our words... You expressed that wonderfully.

Angel-
You TOLD me my little scribbled-on-a-wedding-cake-napkin poem would catch Kirk's eye... I bow to your omniscience! Where ARE you???

-k

Congrats to all thoes that made the front page pics, they were all well deserving of it!

-Jenna-

Can anyone think of any that has changed on the Blender since i anounced I called for people to test the new site?

There's been some new digests, the front page has changed around, and I think I've redone the Blend-O-Matic. Can anyone think of anything else?

Congrats to the front page picks. All great works and i'm always looking forward to seeing more. I really appreciate the emails i've received so those of you i haven't written back yet, thanks so much for the praise and kind words. NO, I'M NOT upset for not being a "kirk pick" so understand this... POETRY IS ABOUT EXPRESSION OF EMOTION at the most personal level. IT'S NOT a contest, it's not an ego thing, it's about the NEED to express. The fact that kirk gives me this so freely, whenever i NEED it, is all i need and i'm sooo appreciative that the blender is HERE for me, for you, for ALL. Again, thanks for the wonderful comments and appreciation of my humble prose.

-Crystevin

Kirk,

You added the New Matic Viewer. That's about all I can remember changing since I've been here, which has been well over a year. Oh and the extra pages you put in a short while back of X's and what's his names stuff. And that's about all I can think of at the moment, oh yeah, and we tried that Chatroom thing, that didn't go over too well. Now, that is about it! LOL

Angel, I'm 2nding Kevin, Where are you???

I talked to Isoldex on the yahoo pager the other night and told her that she was sorely missed here on the blender, she say's she might stop by and visit. She did great work.

Toodles!

I love your pages! I would love them even more if there were more love poems from girls, to guys.
-Kate

Yah! The October issue is out. I'd go through each and every one and tell you why they made me pause or smile, but just go read them and you'll know : ) Awesome.

ooopsie on the double resubmission - looks like if you use your back/forward button in the browser that happens? Bad mouse.

Trying to think of 'things that are different' at the Blender but can't think of any more than have already been mentioned - is there a new place where the "best of" went? Seems like the last I found were 1997 -

Madi

thank you kevin, it feels nice to hear that i rock.........*blushy little gnome*

i really love this page, i don't think i've ever said those words out here before, but i love being able to check this thing, and be able to read just a slice into your lives, and know that pain hurt sorrow lust, all those things that invade our lives are inerrant in all of us, and i'm glad that there is someplace to share all of this.

i wish i knew all of you a little better, but not that i am a shy person, but i am a person who hates disturbing what already seems like its meant to be, and that is all of your friendships already.

i just want to say to many of you, you are truly blessed with the capability of showing true emotion, and not the shallow surface fleshy emotions, but down to the true hard core kind, that are sometimes hard to face.

mvr, i could just read your poems for hours. they just jump off the page at me, jerking at me.

shady too, all of you , kevin guppy i know im forgetting all of you.......oh rennie, and toklas.........your poems, they hit me.

you guys are all wonderful. *big smile at all of you*

sarah

Hey Gang!!! WOW! What a FRONT PAGE!...Loved all the pics ,Kirk...<winking to Heart and Kevin>...I am not MIA, Heart...I have just been a bit preoccupied lately with other things...and very dry poetically (I think because I am in the eye of a storm LOL) Things may flow again soon...or maybe not...hehehe...I am sorta enjoying this emotion lull. But, I will take time to read and comment soon and can tell we are already off to a very good start this month. This is my 1st year anniversary on the Blender and I would like to say that it has been a wonderful year...I have met some terrific friends here, some of who will be lifelong ones and I would like to think that I have grown somewhat poetically by my exposure to so many great and diverse talents here. I would like to thank Kirk once again for providing these pages. And I would also like to thank each and every one of it's contributers for making it so pleasant and interesting. Kevin and Heart...I love you both.

As for Misti, I think you need to take a little breather first (don't be too quick to rebound, hun)...and your works are totally totally awesome.
And to all possible suiters for Misti~ She is beautiful, she is talented, she is REAL...please be REAL for her!

Dee & Shady, Hope you are having a wonderful time :-)

Welcome back, jlor.

Isolde~ would love to see you come back.

OH, AND where is little ZOE???


Angel

Dear sarah,

Congratulations on seeing your work in the Digest ... mystical and magical. Leaves the reader also with "longing" to see more of that verse. And, I like something about mea culpa that keeps drawing me back to it. It is that desire you express, one I have often felt of "...if I tried hard enough" ... It seems that was much of how I felt about life ... until I finally met a real beloved who helped me in doing and being what I had been reaching for so long. Keep those verses coming. I enjoy reading your work, sarah. Thank you for your comment...........Rennie

<taking misti's hand>
girl, walk with me.

I know where you are at, I was there about 5mths ago.
It took me all this time to finally become happy being ME alone, and you know what it is a great thing.

Just before I left NZ on this crazy trip I decided that I was ready to start dating again... ready to maybe find me someone new. Someone who WANTED to treat me like a goddess, big butt and all, someone who loved my art and understood at least some of my poetry, someone who wanted to be with me, for ME.

Then I pushed that all to the back of my mind and left NZ on this trip, I have just about flirted with every man I have meet, not cause I want a man, but cause god damn it, thats who I am! I sware, I have been getting so much attention here, its such a great band-aid to my heart. Men DO think I am attractive! I don't have to just a hot babe from hell on the net, I AM one.

My travel diary is full of phone numbers and email addy's from people along the way... I never thought that I was very pretty, not ever... and I've learnt to rely on my personality, brain and wit cause men wheren't gonna be attracted to my shell, I thought people I meet from online where going to be disappointed when they meet me - but they love me for ME.

This trip has done more for my heart than I will ever understand. I am so glad I had the balls to do it.

Oh hell, I can't remember the point of my rant, oh damn thats a lie, it is this.... Misti, be alone for abit, become happy as a person alone, then strut your wonderful 'YOU-ness' and watch the men fall for you.

Take care of your hearts.

dee

dee - hhmmmmmm..we have never comminucated but what you said grabbed my attention....
i sooooo agree with you. in this world of fakes and dishonest people who are out there for themselves its good to hear that someone sees their beauty on the inside...for the record..i went to your page to see your art..and i thought you were very pretty. female to female..=) i too struggled with my self esteem. i dated a guy who worked out 3 hours a day, drank only protein shakes..and had a great body to show for it. i on the other hand work out and work out and always stayed squishy!! four months into our realtionship i had gained 27 pounds...i couldnt belive
it..we broke up and of course i blamed it on my weight gain....i know it was because long term we wouldnt have made it but i still blamed myself. i lost the weight in an unhealthy way and am now, three months later,in a great relationship..it took me a long time to be ready to trust again and to be happy with me. i still struggle...i think what if i gained weight?? would my man leave me?? etc....he treats me like a queen and i know on my secure days that he never would...but other days i get worried. i know in my heart that i am a great person..and thats what gets me through..one day at a time...a GREAT book for both you and Misti.."Succulent Wild Woman" by SARK. I will send you my copy if you cant find it...it is sooooo eye opening and self assuring...i can give you more details if you wanna email me. people have so many quirks...and everyones ideal of sexy or attractive are different..and ill tell ya...men with great personalities get better looking to me everyday that i spend with them. i was with a guy for almost 6 years who never read one of my poems...this one begs for one daily...i lucked out...rather..i was blessed for the good in my life! have a wonderful day all!
guppy - gotta say hello to you!!! 3 more days!!!
misti - keep writing girl..it 3will help get you through....i thought joe was the one..the one i dreamed about and the one who would fullfill my desires...he wasnt...and im moved on..in time...and in time i met jeff..in the funniest place. love hits ya in the head...be ready but not searching....good luck..we should start a goddess cult or something..ha
tonya

thank you rennie!!! wow, *misty eyed* i have never had anyone say that about my work before THANK YOU......there was something you wrote a few days ago i think it was rennie? something about your husband dying, maybe it was the mood i was in, the evening, or maybe it was just one of those nights were all things align and the words become what they are, and the magic they hold was able to release it.........but rennie, it was just in that one simple sentence of yours, and i just cried. So rennie, you touched my heart you know.

sarah

Tonya...
Shady girl has that book on her self I noticed it the other day, maybe she'll lend it to me.

I think I know who you are though, and if you are this'll make sense to you, I was good friends with Whiz-dumb or merlin about a year back... your THAT tonya yeah?

I meet the Drunken Rat awhiles later, but I know the group.

<grinning> god, its been so long since I chatted...

dee

on no...gasp...cant remember and sure hope your memories are positive..ha not making the connection...but...yes waylon and i are/were buds. wait...did you send him a black feather in blue paper??? i actaully hope to hang with him this weekend when im in seattle...we had some great times and he is someone i will always adore...andy sent me to this page..i have always been a fan of his poetry and think he's wonderful and all. poor guy listens to my rants and raves about my silly men!!! and boy are they silly! yes yessssssss read that book!!!!!!!! it is a wonderful read...i have some others too that are great...id love to hear about your trip.....my icq number is 7996061...drop me a line...=)
tonya

dee -


THAT tonya.....yikes...i can only imagine! hhhmmm...=)
its not true..all if it..its not true i say!!! = )

Hello all---

Don't know if this is bad taste, or not, but I got notice last week from Poetfest that they are taking three of my pieces...and that I'm lead poet for the new collection, out on the 11th!

If it isn't tacky, I'd love it if any of you mosey over and check it out. I've always been grateful to Kirk for starting me out in Web Poetry, and giving such a sweet reception to my stuff.

Have been writing for 26 years---scarcely seems possible! Started when I was 12. Anyway, I'll be checking out the blender on a regular basis---write on, love well, or at least wisely---a heart is a terrible thing to break!

Lisa

that name.......waylon, merlin whiz.........he was my bud too.......do any of you guys talk to him anymore???????

wow, the labrynth i went through him.........

strange how he popped up here of all places, i guess some things are forever meant to haunt you.

Tricia - 'Just Curious' - I read it three times. If by chance there is a current he to give it to, I hope he 'got it'

Tonya, <grinning> ohhhhhhh I heard some STORIES girlfriend.... <evil laugh> Don't try to imagine!!!

I heard from him about 2 weeks before I left, and he said he was moving, will he still be in Seattle?

One of his stories inspired a painting but, no I never sent him anything, I was going to send him the painting but I ended up selling it, and he said he understood. LOL.
this is the painting.... http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/Square/6442/waterfall.jpg

Anyways... this is begining to sound like a girls gossip night!!

dee

POEM:As I sit here outside the cold winter underneath my feet a sense of loneliness comes over me. As I sit here my mind is rushing thinking of my past life, dreams and goals, it seems that not one at this moment matters. It seems as though the cold bitter wind has passed so quickly through my mind stealing every thought that ever ment anything to me away. In this instence I believe that my life is not only a picture but an unfinished portrait of my world yet to come in which I demand a reasonable exsplination for but knowing that it will never come. I guess this is what life is all about expecting nothing till it passes through you. By, Hope

okay question:

here it goes.........

i had three things i submitted the other day, but their gone..............any ideas where they all went??????????????????????????

sarah

oh yeah, little afterthought here..............

guppy, thank you for last night, i needed that talk.

sarah

hhmmm....very interesting....i can only imagine....i hope his stories are the same as mine....ha he is a wonderful wonderful person..ill always hold a special place in my heart..i do wanna hear some stories though...=) soill it girl...
i havent called him in a while...i planned on just calling him when im in town and try to set up a time....my weekend there is sooo crazy and i have to squeeze in visiting five people plus way....so i may not...we'll see. im flying to dc at 630 sunday morning so its iffy...i didnt wanna plan and cancel ya know? i get in trouble alllll the time for that with my other friends....too many people, too little time..
are you still in the us????
nice painting..im making the connection now..=) he has many friends who adore him....
have a great day!

hhmmm....very interesting....i can only imagine....i hope his stories are the same as mine....ha he is a wonderful wonderful person..ill always hold a special place in my heart..i do wanna hear some stories though...=) soill it girl...
i havent called him in a while...i planned on just calling him when im in town and try to set up a time....my weekend there is sooo crazy and i have to squeeze in visiting five people plus way....so i may not...we'll see. im flying to dc at 630 sunday morning so its iffy...i didnt wanna plan and cancel ya know? i get in trouble alllll the time for that with my other friends....too many people, too little time..
are you still in the us????
nice painting..im making the connection now..=) he has many friends who adore him....
have a great day!

guppster - im telling you....weird i say. its a divine connection..a celestine phrophesy kinda thing ya know???? ha....i just cant get enough of you..ha i emailed him the other day....called him a while ago...but not as much as we used to talk...what about pat? did you get that email? and dave said to tell you hi the other day.....online days of our lives..*wink*
i hope you had a great night...i got into trouble for staying so late....1 more working day!! whoohoo
its like he's a fix..a quick fix..a week of sucking it up..then time apart....how can i break my long distance yuppy guy habit anyway? i meet them in crazy places and then date em and commute by plane once as month forever...sheesh! i called joe today...he wants to do lunch while im in dc...NO WAY...not on your life..im not into s&m of my heart...forget about it. i just might go knowing me...sheesh. be strong i say!
have a super day!
kisses
tonya

guppster - im telling you....weird i say. its a divine connection..a celestine phrophesy kinda thing ya know???? ha....i just cant get enough of you..ha i emailed him the other day....called him a while ago...but not as much as we used to talk...what about pat? did you get that email? and dave said to tell you hi the other day.....online days of our lives..*wink*
i hope you had a great night...i got into trouble for staying so late....1 more working day!! whoohoo
its like he's a fix..a quick fix..a week of sucking it up..then time apart....how can i break my long distance yuppy guy habit anyway? i meet them in crazy places and then date em and commute by plane once as month forever...sheesh! i called joe today...he wants to do lunch while im in dc...NO WAY...not on your life..im not into s&m of my heart...forget about it. i just might go knowing me...sheesh. be strong i say!
have a super day!
kisses
tonya

dee and gup -
those were from me.....forgot to sign my name! xxoo

dee and gup -
those were from me.....forgot to sign my name! xxoo

Greetings & Salutations, Sports Fans.
I got "Greetings & Salutations" from Christian Slater in "Heathers" and "Sports Fans" from one of the counselors I encountered in rehab when I was 17 and never been kissed. She always greeted us as "Sports Fans" for some reason. Part of our therapy was listening to Pink Floyd's "The Wall." I was so TURNED ON. I had led a very sheltered life. I had a summer long crush on Ringo Starr the previous summer.
Yesterday when I got off work I drove to Lewisville to see my sister. I indulged myself in a post-breakup shopping splurge at the Half-Price Books store. I bought two books on "The Real World" (I admit it! I'm a huge fan! I love Neil!)and "The Fisher King"(one of my all-time favorite movies)and four tapes by Wham!, Alanis Morrissette, Michael Jackson and Erasure. [Today I danced to "I'm Your Man" and "Lay All Your Love On Me"...healing stuff, let me tell ya]Then we ate at the Olive Garden. I had manicotti. It was great. We shared our favorite dessert, the oh so decadent White Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake.
I'm going to scrap up some money and go to this recording studio in a neighboring town and lay down some tracks. Nothing original, just standards. Maybe some Babes in Toyland, Hole, Billie Holiday and Patsy Cline. This lady I work with wants me to sing with her husband's band. I'm psyched, but I don't think Wise County is ready for the likes of me.
Tonya, do you live in Oregon? I'll send you an e-mail later. That wild woman book sounds mighty interesting. Yes, let's start a cult, and soon! I'm going to devise a list of qualities the next man I will worship must possess. First quality: he must worship ME!!!! Ha!
Angel and Deevaa, you are both RIGHT. I don't need a mate right now. I don't need to find ANOTHER man to nurture and feed and build up. I need to nurture and feed and build up myself.

Peace, Ya'll.
Misti

I Love this. Love is sweet and tender isnt it?

why did it post all three twice? tonya

ZoE- "Smoking Cigarettes with Trees" Great...

-Jenna-

i need help i feel like i want to die

to "i need help"

http://suicidehotlines.com/

 National Runaway and Suicide Hotline: 1-800-621-4000
 Town National Crisis Hotline: 1-800-448-3000 (TDD: 1-800-448-1833)

http://www.angelfire.com/or/aboutsuicide/1.html

If these aren't helpful, I'll look for more links. Call someone, anyone, immediately. Now.

tonya...have a great trip...i wish nothing but the best for you guys

dee...*sigh*...life...hope your trip continues to be awesome...i'm sorry...you know...for being bumski

misti...i know all about the vulnerable feelings...sorry if i upset you...i don't think i really did, but i want to make sure...me=a schmuck sometimes...happy to see you're feeling better...you can sing billie holiday tunes???...*sigh*...on second thought, the date stands...i'm picking you up at 8 :)

sarah...it was nice talking to you too...sorry for being retarded and all...just me...

sheeesh....me=realizing that i just apologized to three people at once...i probably owe tonya one too...man...that's not good...

blenderites...you guys do rock...to borrow an overused phrase...and most of you are far better writers than i am...i'm grateful to be able to submit here, and i'm glad that some of my more obscure works have not been ripped apart by you guys...ha...

kevin, angel, heartsong, isolde, sin and cos (is that math???), shadyladygirlwadinginfadinggladesofshade, crys, rennie, jlor (welcome back btw), and everyone else that contributes, but was not yet mentioned, (not forgotten, but not rememebered at this time :)), and of course kirk...great work...if you guys didn't write it would be a sin

take care people,
gup

hey guys... BIG CONGRATS to all frontpagers, kirk, you don't know how much I enjoyed all your picks for this month. you did a great job! sarah, kev, guppy, rennie, misti, heart, toklas, shady.... thanks for the HITS!

GUYS, youre not gonna believe this (well, me too, ive been running around like crazy, smiling to almost everyone...you know that guys???)

sinneD and I have been *away* lately. been TOO busy attending to my documents for my working permit to USA. after months of reviewing and polishing my technical skills, the consulting firm finally said YES last monday. that was the HAPPIEST YES ive ever heard!!! add to that---sinneD and I have been talking abt wedding plans... and we'll live there!!! WE know the wedding is all too soon (we've just been together for 5 months) but i dont want to be separated from him by such distance and time difference (BTW, the company's headquarters is at Altanta, Georgia)

ANYWAY, i really dont want to break the news this soon, for i fear this may be cancelled, technology really moves fast and my skills may be TOO obsolete after 3 months time ( that's why i regret NOT taking English, I just always HAVE to keep up with Bill Gates and his enemies), but i want to share my happiness... (i know you're all smiling infront of your SCREENS).... i know we havent contributed really creative pieces these past months, we are really SORRY, because its all difficult to shift thought processes sometimes.......Gup, i read you say it's a SIN not to write (BUT WE DO READ! hehe), but we PROMISE to write like way back then... we are just awfully busy right now (oh im taking too much space, i know this is not at all ROMANCE related, Kirk, pls pardon me). by the time we get there (sometime 1st or 2nd quarter next year), we will all be loaded with inspiration..............we're not promising FRONTPAGERS here, i bet no one here really writes to be FRONTPAGERS right???

again blenderites, thanks to all of you for sharing ur experiences.... and yeah, we'll try to write from time to time...

Cos

ps. oh please, do HOPE and pray that all goes well abt all this... thanks a LOT

....BTW...... i have to add
WELCOME BACK JLOR!
keep writing you're really talented!


Cos

Dear Misti-
I wholeheartedly agree with Deeva and the rest of the group that you are waaaaay too special of a person to give yourself to "just anyone." I feel like I know each and every one of you through your work. It's just so amazing.
Your work shows such a vulnerability combined with a strength that comes from somewhere very deep inside you. Not every man deserves this, or is worthy of it. He will come... and he will appreciate it. I was single with 2 kids for many years, unwilling to settle for "Mr. better than nothing." Today I'm blessed with "Mr. Pretty darn close to perfect", 6' tall, black hair, blue eyes, Vince Gill eyelashes, passionate, and loves my kids.(He can't dance, otherwise he'd be Mr. Perfect *smile*). But in the meantime, I found comfort in my friends, and got to know myself. A woman is not a "half" without a man unless she believes she is. Hang tough!
Tricia

P.S. You guys are the best!

heya heya guys.

I'm back off to Japan tomorrow, and I'll be in NZ by Wednesday of next week, so I'm in transit again.

Cosette.. please email me, I want ALL the details girl... sounds good from here though!
((((cosette&sinneD))))

Shady took me to see Rent on broadway last night, all I can say is... OMGWOW!

Take care of your hearts.

dee

Thanks, Kirk!

I was just curious. It's not like I think you make poor choices for the front page picks. In fact, many times, I find my favorites there. Like I said, I was just wondering.

julie

To "i need help"

feel free to email me "martinju@phscare.org"
I might have something that could help you.
I've felt that way myself before and I'm not just saying that. Thank God for my baby girl who was one of my reasons to keep on keepin' on. Anyway, seriously, email me if you want to talk. We can keep it confidential

Madi~ good advice! you're cool...

julie

When You Held Me
When you held me in your eyes,
I felt joy.
When you held me in your thoughts,
I felt worthy.
When you held me in your arms,
I felt safe; and
When you held me in your heart,
I felt love.
Written for: Jake

Back from Minnesota- I'll try to figure out exactly what works are missing from the new index. This is related to the submissions breaking. (during some submission, the page didn't write properly, getting cut off. So the next submissions didn't work, because the script couldn't find the marker at the end that tells it where to add the next submission. The submission files themselves are still on my server, but with no links.)

Mary Beth, I am thrilled to see you on this site. I have always loved to see your verses. You write some of the most honest verses of anyone I know ... thanks for sharing your work here.

Toklas and artdog, my buddies ... awesome works, just awesome, knowing some of your backgrounds. I love seeing you stretch here. I am so glad to see you join this great community. Thanks to both of you for coming.

Keep at it, sarah ... I am watching you even more now, you wordsmythe, you. You give me images for my mind that I enjoy or like to contemplate. Individual lines jump out from your works and help inspire me. See what we do for each other here at the Blender?

jlor, I am glad to see you did come back ... I believe that we all are glad to see your works appearing here. Thanks for caring enough to want to be back ... that is your compliment to us.

Take care on your travels, deevaa. We all care about you.

Too true, Tricia ... great advice. I am also happy to see your life blessed.

Oh thanks, Cosette ... for the Big Congrats. I wish the best (I know we all do) for you on your wedding plans. Continued happiness for you. And, keep those verses coming here, please. You are always a great read.

Always enjoying your work, Guppy ... you "rock" for sure! ... :)

Madison, it is wonderful to see those who truly care here ... bless you ... for making the effort to help someone needful. I sincerely hope this person realizes that he/she is cared for in this world, even anonymously.

misti, we have cared for you as we watch you here -- and have always admired you! Hope that also helps.

What a wonderful community we have here. Take care, all. Go Write! .............Rennie

Jlor~ "Peppermint Candy", Ahhhhhhhh, this one is soooooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeet :-)))

Angel

Kirk~ "Then We Lost", nice 'hit'...and something all of us need to remember when drowning in the sorrow of a lost love.

Angel

Kevin~"Thread", was very well written...the mind vs heart has always been my favorite subject matter :-)

Angel

Guppy~"Wish"...nice reflection on your past loves *wink*

Angel

As you can see I am READING, if not writing :-) Maybe all this reading will SPARK something in me.
Sorry about the numerous remarks instead of one combined one. Brandi took off with my pen and my memory is not well enough to retain too much at once in order to type it all in and I am too lazy/tired to get up and hunt another pen...lol

Angel

Marybeth~ Welcome...and I really enjoyed your poem, "Once Upon a Time"...It had a dreamy feel to it... and we all 'dream' of love. :-)

Angel

Kevin~ "October-this year", '...as blue as the sky at the razor's edge of the sunset...' lovely line :-)

Angel

Sarah~ "blue skies"...WOW! Great imagery...POWERFUL ending *Big smile*

Angel

The Vampire~ "My Friend", ...i did enjoy it :-)

Angel

Letisha~"Divine" and "just like before"...both great works...the latter was powerfully intuned.

Angel

OH!!! and CONGRATULATIONS to SinneD and Cosette :-)

I am all caught up now and have millions of poetic thoughts running around my head...too bad the flow from head to hand seems dammed/damned...lol
Goodnight HeartSong, Kevin, Dee, Shady, Cyrstevin, Misti, jlor, Rennie, Guppy, Jenna, Zoe, Cosette, SinneD, Isolde (wherever you are)...goodnight, Johnboy...

Angel

Guppy, "engarde" really painted the moment. I like it, I like it a lot.

Madison

Artdog- (or should i say Art dong) lol just trying to put a smile on *someones* face. Anyway... "regaining stoic" loved it. I just finished reading one of Hemmingways books, go figure!

Sarah- "after you" how well do i compare to that.

Keep Writing everyone!
-Jenna-

My dearest, my love, you will always be
Within my heart, inside of me.
You're in me and I'm in you.
One we have become from two.
Though we have to be apart
I carry you inside my heart.
I love you more than words can say,
And in my heart you'll always stay.

With you I want to share my life.
I want someday to be your wife.
For now, remember that I love you,
And I'll remember you love me too.


Tih is for my husband to be

Guppy,
I was joking. Yes, pick me up at eight. I'll wear a white gardenia in my hair and I'll sing, "If I go to church on Sunday then caberet all day Monday...aint nobody's bizness if I do." [Billie Holiday]
Tricia,
Thank you for your encouragement. I agree that it's self-defeating and sexist for women to settle for any man and to sell out to the belief that it takes a man to make a woman whole. I've just never had many girlfriends, just my sister and her friends. I've moved around a lot and most of my friends have been guys. The thing is, it never works out on a platonic level. I wish it did.
I've made a list of 22 qualities I'm looking for in an ideal mate. Until he finds me, I'll focus on my job and my art and the people in my life.
Congratulations on finding a good man. I saw Vince Gill in concert at Caesar's Palace back in '94.

Misti-
Stong Blood- remember, you're a Rainwater!
You've been to Hell and Georgia based on your old poems (yes, I went back over the past year and read them, and walked with your soul through a lot of heartaches)
You've been through harder things than the loss of a few bad men!
I'm a wedding consultant, and I've found the girls who wait the longest always get the best prize. (Right, Cossette?)
(and by the way, you have lots of girlfriends, right here on the blender!)
Tricia

I'm not getting much e-mail, people. Come on, throw me a frickin' bone. Send your life stories, love advice, horoscope readings and musings to me at my e-mail address. I will e-mail you back. You will be stunned by my insights and verbal judo.
I live in Texas. I'm bored. I can only entertain myself for so long. Right now I'm working on two novels simultaneously. I've been buying nail polish on sale at Wal-Mart. I mostly buy shades of blue. Right now my fingernails are the color of blue carnival cotton candy. Lovely, lovely.
So come on, Blenderites past present and future! Let's bond, let's connect!

Love and Candy,
Misti

Misti

*laughing hysterically*

i must comment, after working the third shift this past evening and getting home just now.......your last post hit me as completely fricken hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and you don't want to know how long it just took me to write that last sentence...........heres some advice people, i fyou are about to work a 9 hr shift, overnight, when you normally don't..........sleep before hand, its a helpful thing........*zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*

guppy..........YOU ROCK THE DAMN FREAKIN CASBAH MAN...........ben harper, i will marry that man one day, i swear to my holy pooh bear.

ben harper is a a god.......he gave me my motto!

"so be kind to strangers, cause you never know it just might an angel, come knocking at your door.....come knocking at your door"

him and joni mitchell.........

"remember the time you told me yourself, love is touching souls, surely you touched mine, because part of you pours out of me in these lines from time to time"

those lines are magic my friends, pure unadulaterated magic!!! and i am having a craving for red beans and rice, and am about to go attempt to make some, and if anyone could recomend a good read for me, in i'm desperate need of a good book lately, and i don't have time to really look around, after i am done working, so if anyone could help me out here with this dilemna.......i would be greatly appreciative........hmmm.........notice you talk alot when you are really tired............
forget the beans and rice, i must go make a little love to my pillow, for it is feeling neglected at the moment.........

farewell my fellow blenderites..........keep the faith.

s

Sarah,
I "highly" recommend Execution, Texas: 1987. It's a novel about a bisexual guy and his friends. They go to Deep Ellum in Dallas and take X and talk about Andy Warhol and Edie Sedgwick. As a former theater arts major, I have a deep appreciation for pretension.
I've never been to a rave, for the record, and I have never done X or any other drug besides marijuana and white cross. I find the drug culture fascinating. Another book I recommend is Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson. It is infinitely better than the movie, which is pretty good.
Right now I'm reading Snow, a novel about a woman whose cat is in love with her. Kind of odd, but interesting. One more reason I will never have pets.
Nothing comforts me more than reading fairy tales and eating Granny Smith apples. I love Rapunzel the best.
I'm on the clock, gotta run.

Absorb the Sunshine, It's Good For You,
misti

Hey julie
I loved "i saw you in my dream"
Sometimes I wonder why I dream the things I dream.
I can relate.

hey sarah

"Imprint" is kind of how I see the work sometimes.
I really liked your poem.
Don't stop trying at love,though, because it always
hits you when you least expect it, just when you give up and forget about it.

hey sarah

"Imprint" is kind of how I see the world sometimes.
I really liked your poem.
Don't stop trying at love,though, because it always
hits you when you least expect it, just when you give up and forget about it.

Hey all, *yawn* the day is fading...yet I know there are many many hours ahead...tonight, tomorrow. What am I talking about? Who knows...I miss you all, and I'll be submitting soon.

sheeeesh...so many tired people with so much insight...think maybe i should get less sleep...

woke up this morning and thought for a brief moment that i was lon chaney...i hate that...then i re-realized that i am currently out of stock of the gel lubricating substance which eases the transition from wolfman to manwolf...so...fuzzy i am...shaving stories...can't beat em

other than that, i changed religions about 4 times today...i'm stuck somewhere between scientology and a new one i made up...focusses on abbreviating everything to the point of losing all meaning...called my mom to tell her i am the equivalent of the pope...i could actually feel her slapping me over the phone...bad me...bad mom...i excommunicated her

dad was cool about it though...he just called me an idiot...which is what more people should do more often...i excommunicated him too...not because he was bad...just because he was a little to honest for my liking...abbreviation and lies...the foundation for salvation...

anyway,
gup

sarah~

I love "imprint". Wow!! is about all I can say. I am one of those with a "good heart", I feel, and I often wonder why I am the one getting beaten down and why those who take advantage and walk all over people seem to get places. Well, I guess it's all part of life. We have to make the best of it. We will get out of each part of life, including relationships, what we put into them and we can use the "being walked on" to make ourselves stronger. Believe me, I'm learning the hard way, it seems! Loved it. Thanks!!

Marcy~ Thanks for the comment on "I saw you in my dream." I'm glad to hear you can relate and I appreciate your words.

julie

hey Guppy I have a pillow just like that went to Calif. to get it
it still has his faint scent on it
like you I use for all things so may be she has one of yours too!!!!!
PILLOW IS ALLMOST A FIX ALL FOR ME just wish it could kiss back~smile~ and touch too would be nice.
oh heck see where I went now its pillow time !!!!!!
have a good one

Guppy - you're silly ;-P

Isolde-

I almost cried to read your new submission...
I hope and pray that this portends well for your relationship with your poetic muse. VERY well done.

-k

GUPPY
i can get a tape of 'snoring' if you really want it, I personally have to much of it in my life. i can bet a pretty penny that the girl thinks of you as much as you think of her. I miss quite a few lost lovers in my life,and i know out there somewhere, they are missing me. I am unspoken to them, just as they are to me, but we still live in unison.
i liked your poem.

i had a thought today.

thats it.

so, there i was...coffee in hand...standing in line at the local mini-mart...wondering about something (i wonder alot...not sure what it was at the time)...and suddenly, the display of "payday" candybars which i was standing in front of just started spewing forth candybars onto the floor at my feet...wow, was that weird...i jumped...spilled my coffee on my jeans...and laughed at the resemblence of it all to a slot machine paying out...too weird...payday...and of course everybody looked at me like i was the devil or something...nothing unusual...i told them that i finally learned telekinesis...they just looked at me weird (people around here don't use ANY words with 5 syllables)...

i figured that was an omen or something...nothing too good has happened today though...besides that entertaining situation...guess the payoff is in the experience...as life is usually

just thought i'd share a little of my day

take care everybody,
gup

Lennie, you know how difficult it was for me, and how long it has taken me to submit any of my writings,, so thanks for your encouragement and for not giving up on me :)...

Angel, thanks, I do believe I was dreaming when I wrote, "Once Upon A Time"

Toklas and Artdog.. It was great to read your work. You know I think the world of you and knowing you came here and shared your work encouraged me, thank you!!

For everyone else, I'm new here so this is pretty interesting.. I'm enjoying reading all the great poetry. I know that the loveblender is of course, writings about love. I do have a webpage that has some of my other poems if you care to wander over that way...
http://home.talkcity.com/ParadiseDr/marbeth_

:o)
{I hope that wasn't breaking any rules or nuthin}

mEg, your letter leaves me speechless. Reading it felt as though you'd stood over my shoulder and read my own. Thanks for the courageous share -

Dee - I just now saw that u told Kev, Angel, heart and so on that I am a chick from hell...LOL...and for the life of me, I can't think of anything l'il ol' me did to give you that idea! For the record, it was DEE who was wild, and cwazy :-) Heehee...girl, rn't u home YET?

i want to go to a pumpkin farm, but of course, as luck goes, on my ONE DAY off..........its raining, and of course as luck has it once again.............it was gorgeous the two days before. But thats alright, i love autumn in and of itself, i like its moods of brazen gray days with its winds, and i like those bright blue skies accentuated by the array of leaves and stuff that just make you want to roll around in them. so anyway..............a pumpkin farm, i wanna go to a pumpkin farm, and i want to dress up for halloween, someone have a costume party and invite me.......hehehe...........

hey GUP man, you live like less then two hours away.......know any good pumpkin farms??????????????

the good ship sarah

Madison - "Angel Man" - 'I tie my thoughts to paper kites' what a deliciously youthful line

Guppy - "tailwind" - almost made me cry, "a wish" - that entire first stanza...WOW!, "water" - this is a classic example of the way ur work makes me feel, its as if you take your serious emotion and lighten it to the point of chuckling to yourself, and then leave me feeling guilty for laughing at your hurt. Heehee...I'm confused as hell, but I love it. LOL..."engarde", "parascope", "something I learned in a car lot" - love the line 'somebody dressed up just like their best friend but with better lips or hips', "my last prayer", "snoring" - Damn!, "malaise" I love your work.

Linda - "Flower" - very sexy

ZoE - "Smoking Cigarettes with Trees" - oh, I've missed your poetry! And you! How are u girl?

Kev - "Permanent Ink" - 'the color of your smile' :) love that line..., "storybook" - ah, aren't we all...isn't that why most of us are here? ;-)

Jenna - I really liked "trophy"

Julie - "whatever happened" - clever

Art Dog - "regaining stoic" another WOW! What a great work!

Wow, what great work everyone, I haven't gotten to really read all of them yet...but I thoroughly enjoyed what I've read so far! I miss you all! Hope everything is well...

sorry for not calling Angel, be sure to yell at Dee too...:-)

Kev - I miss our morning chats, where have you been hun?

Life is same ol' same ol'...3 jobs and school (which I played hookie from today for the sake of a cheesy romance novel I could not put down...pathetic), and some how I am still broke *winks at Dee, who has seen me in 'shopping' mode* my heart is as barren as ever, (LOL, please no pity...;-) with the exception of a few little crushes here and there, fantasies for the sake of cold nights and rekindling my dormant imagination. (Anyone have a match?)

2/3 of a pun...

Ugh...;o}

Another good book is How To Save Your Own Life by Erica Jong. It's the sequel to Fear of Flying.
I just submitted a bunch of BFC inspired poetry. Enjoy.

Luv,
Misti

Just an odd musing:
I never spent a lot of time on the Usenet poetry groups, but one of things I picked up was that there were far more writers than readers- or at least people giving feedback. I think one odd advantage of what the Blender evolved into was a seperation of submissions from the message board. I think it brings a kind of a healthy formalism that you don't have when the comments are made in the exact same forum as the poetry itself.

Of course, I never charted out a course for the Blender Board. At first it was just a way for me to repost comments people e-mailed to me, good and bad. Then I made it into a form, and over time it evolved into the community you have today. (One decision I *did* make was to stop writing "editor respnse" type comments in italics, and just use the form like everyone else. Which is a double win, since it's easier to use the form, and I don't want to seem like "the editor from on high")

<shaking her head> Shady, Shady, Shady... I'm home, and at work now, (gotta love my bad habits!) I'm as jet lagged as hell... can't remember which day of the week it is mostly.

I do have some poetic stuff in my head at the moment but gotta let it be for abit and allow it to flow when its good and ready. (Too sleepy to give anything justise at the moment).

TK is great, he wanted to sleep on the floor since we've been back from Japan... (he slept on a futon there).

I have a heap of photos which I will scan when I get the chance.

Take care of your hearts

dee

The Guppy!

===
you give to get
and i try my best to give to get better at giving
===

Oh man, does that say it all? (well maybe not all, I'm sure you have much more to say hehe but hey, great words) I could hardly wait to get to the comment board to tell you what an impact that line has. <ZING!>

by the way, guys, remind me not to send poetry till it's cooked? haha I tend to get excited and send a new one, only to find three days later it looks totally different than when I clicked "send" - have a bad habit of sending skelton frames of words off into space.

Guppy, again - that line was way insightful -

:)

Hello ive been reading your web page and i think you need to get some romance peoms that rhyme.the poems that your have bite the big other then that it's a pretty good web page

Hello ive been reading your web page and i think you need to get some romance peoms that rhyme.the poems that your have bite the big one! other then that it's a pretty good web page

Holding my girl is holding everything

-Roshan Sharma

Just a word of warning: over the next few days the DNS should be switching over from the old webhost to the new.

This will mean that you will come to loveblender.com and all the new submissions and comments will be gone! Never fear, once I'm pretty sure everyone is coming to the "new" site, I'll transfer over all the submissions and comments.

Kevin,
I loved the e-mail you sent. I'll e-mail you back later when I get the chance. I'm at the library right now and e-mail is frowned upon.
Shadygirl,
I'll e-mail you later, too.
And Tonya-
You're also on my e-mail list.
I love e-mail! I love the community I have found here. I can't believe I've been hanging out on the Blender for the past two years. I have been so blessed. Hanging out here has been the best damn therapy in the world.
I just submitted some more poems. I can't believe the effect Brian had on me. I guess I really loved him. Oh, hell. I still do. But at least I'm not getting drunk and chainsmoking. The New and Improved Misti doesn't punish herself for being lonely and rejected.
I keep myself busy reading books and magazines and writing poems and working on novels and cleaning my apartment.
Confession: Last night I created one of my kooky little "Love Spells." I used a black cherry candle. I only create "spells" (they aren't magic or Wicca in the traditional sense)once in a blue moon, and let me tell ya, I have seen results.
Come to think of it, maybe I should find a nice little Baptist church...

Hello everyone...I've been one busyyyyyyyyyyy gal...got a NEW web site...errr...umm actually for my 'TWIN', ANGEL LOVE...some of you have met her and her biting jibe on "Poetic Friends" already...well, she has ventured out on her own now...and is inviting everyone here to come meet her at http://www.angelfire.com/ga2/angellove.index.html

"Poetic Friends" will continue to run and I will add a link to it from "ANGEL LOVE"...the "Blender" is linked there as is "Dee's Art online"...hope to see ya'll there.
PS: I am very new to web design and this page is in its infancy but come take a looksee anyway...
TIPS ARE VERY WELCOME...if they are in a language I can understand.lol
I can see you ALL HAVE BEEN WRITING....woW...can't wait to get the time to relax and read....

Angel

You want poems that rhyme
WRITE YOUR OWN

MVR- You have always been powerful with your words but your most recent submissions have really hit me hard especially "Nose Picker/Finger Sucker"
*thinking aloud* God... how many times have I been so thankful for thoes two nasty habits that allowed me to overcome.

Keep Writing!

-Jenna-

or...http://www.angelfire.com/ga2/angellove/index.html

*smile*
Angel

shadygirl--- :) thanks so much for the compliments...you're kinda right, i do lighten stuff up a bit, and sometimes end up cracking myself up because of it...no need to ever feel bad for laughing at something i write...sheesh...no way...i love hearing what people get out of my stuff...i'm also a big fan of your work...very honest...efficient at painting emotional pictures

marcy & yourthigh---gracias for the comments on that snoring one...the best poems are the ones people can relate to...it was great to hear your comments about that one...thanks

dragonfleyes---do i know of a pumpkin farm???...hell yes...i dated one once...:) ...er...don't ask what that means...i assure you i have no idea...pumpkins, yes, orange, big, semi-spherical...i'll keep my eyes peeled

madi---too cool of you to say that about that line...i was hoping somebody would catch that one actually...just one of those that "felt right" or something...wish that would happen more often

special requested rhyming poem:

roses are red
and violets are violet
my love flew away
with a jumbo jet pilot

good god...i must end

take care all,
gup

ASHLEY'S FIRST LOVE POEM!
Me she cannot decive, or even speak a word.
She suffers of a deep pain,
She listens and cries, inside of those warm passionet moments of memories.

I know there is still a strong bond of love, even thow I feel she should move on.

But I cannot say a word because deep down inside I too am still in love.

Love may hurt a soul ,
souless of pain to make one go insane, to hurt so much deep deep down inside to the depths of your heart.

I can see it in her eyes that she believes in so much more.
I know she does. please move on.

please don't be in pain , because you know how that saying goes about the fish in the sea,
You'll find the perfect match someday, but it will never be quite the same, for the simple little reason,
deep down you'll always remember your first love.

Ashley zarogoza
I want this to be on your internet site PLEASE

ASHLEY'S FIRST LOVE POEM!
Me she cannot decive, or even speak a word.
She suffers of a deep pain,
She listens and cries, inside of those warm passionet moments of memories.

I know there is still a strong bond of love, even thow I feel she should move on.

But I cannot say a word because deep down inside I too am still in love.

Love may hurt a soul ,
souless of pain to make one go insane, to hurt so much deep deep down inside to the depths of your heart.

I can see it in her eyes that she believes in so much more.
I know she does. please move on.

please don't be in pain , because you know how that saying goes about the fish in the sea,
You'll find the perfect match someday, but it will never be quite the same, for the simple little reason,
deep down you'll always remember your first love.

Ashley zarogoza
I want this to be on your internet site PLEASE

Jenna,
Thank you. Yes, those two nasty habits of Brian's have helped me tremendously in the "letting go" process. If I couldn't turn my pain into poetry I don't know what I'd do!

Kevin,
I just sent you a letter the old-fashioned way. I haven't been able to check my e-mail lately. I also sent you some of my better clippings from the paper.

Tonya,
I'll go ahead and respond to the e-mail you sent me here 'cause I don't know when I'll get the chance to send e-mail again. This weekend is Family Weekend- my grandmother and my sister are celebrating their birthdays together so the fun will be nonstop. UGGHHH!!!!!
Josh is in the army. He's in Bosnia, last I heard. Our friendship was rather brief but he inspired MUCH poetry in me and he made me want to move to Oregon. Then Brian turned me onto "Twin Peaks" which I think was filmed in Oregon. I love the opening sequence when that haunting theme song plays and you see the little bird and the waterfall. I'm saving up loose change in my elephant piggy bank. I want to move to Corvallis within a year.
I'm 26. I'm a college drop-out. I only have about 60 hours and I changed my major about 5 times. I'm kind of restless. I want to be a photographer/novelist/poet/film maker/mom/housewife/cabaret singer when I grow up. I want to be decadent in Europe and then spartan in Africa. I want to live in a treehouse and eat nothing but bananas.
I'm sorry, it's hard for me to be linear and matter of fact. I think that was what killed it for me and Brian. He's very deadpan and serious. I'm a space cadet. I laugh much more than the average person.
Did you say your muse lives in New Jersey? I would love to hear more. Sounds very intriguing. I've gotta run. I'm on the clock. Take care!

****Shadygirl,
I will send you a letter the old-fashioned way tomorrow. With clippings and stuff!!

Love,
Misti

So many kick ass new submissions!!! These are my faves:
*LaundroMAT and Backward Glance by Shadygirl*
*Smoking Cigarettes With Trees by zoE*
*Permanent Ink by Kevin*
*Make Believe by Julie*
*UGH! by JustL*
*a wish, misslaid, something i learned in a car lot and snoring by Guppy*
Kirk,
Have you ever thought about publishing a Blender anthology? I know it would sell!
* You all have my props and admiration. *
Keep Writing!!!!!

Jenna,Misti,and Shady> Thanks for the compliments on my poem.
I miss you AnGeL! I am so so busy with work and Dez that I have hardly had time to be online. I need to start reading all the new submissions I have missed to slowly catch up! *hugs*
-ZoE

Jenna- I loved "Turn Away" you have a great style. Keep it up.
Star69-I read one of your pieces and just kept reading. I think you have a voice that most poets are scared to use, because you tell it like it is. I love your poems.
-ZoE

To all the little blender people.... God, I really love ALL
of the work that goes on in here. Everyone of you are soooo
talented!!!!

Just thought I would share that with you.

. . . . "the fresh air in my lungs" -- yes, refreshing way to describe a great lover. Like breathing new life into you. Thanks for the thought! It lingered, so I came back to write ya. Do more of this stuff that makes me think long about it, TheVampire.

Maggie Mink

The ring -- good one, very good one, TheVampire. Do it again.

Maggie Mink

I am still alive... I've been reading.. started on the new subs, I'll write comments when I'm done.. I started with the guppy, kev and shady's as usual... I wasn't disappointed at all.. Misti you have so much new stuff.. you really rock.

My iMac is visiting the iMac doctor at the moment so I'm stealing moments I don't have from work... too much STUFF going on in my body right now...

email me.

dee

let me be the first (here, at any rate) to wish my wonderful friend Deevaa a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Guppy,
I just happened to read your last 2 subs before bed, ME and Conversation. Whoah! Heartbreakers, both of them. Please tell me that this is fictitious, and not really a slice of your life. (they're really awesome, funny, serious, insightful, and well done.)
We're here for you if you need us.(misery loves company, right?)
Tricia

tricia,

hi...thanks for the kindness...those are slices of my life...probably the major portion of my life...jeez...i wrote those and thought to myself "whine, whine, whine"...i'm not trying to do that...i might be pathetic at times, but i'm not really trying...ha...is that funny?...

thanks for reading me,
gup

hey blender.
thanks to all those who gave their wonderful wishes to us!
i dropped by to greet our lovely, cheerful Deevaa a HAPPY BIRTHDAY...(((DEEVAA))) from sinneD and I (thanks kev for the info, we dont know that one... Dee, that's not on YOUR ICQ info as i recall... )
i havent checked out the new subs, but i promise to click on heart-on-sleeve shortly.
keep love on the air you breathe.

z0e-
thanks for the praise ... much appreciated since
i've been having a spell of writers block lately.
i'm keeping my eyes open for new subs from you.
star69

z0E -
oh but wait - i meant to comment on cocoon ; i think it's just great. i dig your style.
misti-
is there a place where all your poems are together in one spot? when are you going to put together a collection (or have you already)? i just can't get my fill ...

star69

liz...thanks for the words, thoughts, and clarity contained therein...oh yeah...and for the hugs :)

gupperooni............

i wrote "ramble of an insomniac" for you...........

well not "FOR" you persay.......but you were weighing heavily on my mind, upon the time it was flowing forth onto this website...........

the gnomey

I noticed when I was looking through my Las Vegas desk
calendar that Brian dumped me a month ago today. My heart
is broken and my stomach is growling. Gotta run.

DEE hey girl happy birthday welcome back
and ~I'm not begging ~smile!! you go girl
have we aall told we missed you
huggs to TK


JUST~ME

mEg

ROCK ON SOUL SISTER!!!!!
how often i have felt that man, whew hew, yeah, that was a breath of fresh air to read that.

sarah

I think I left a piece of me in the USA.. I'm not sure which soul I've left it with, or if I can ever get it back, but I've been taking comfort in the words of my friends here at the blender.

I'm not quiet through with catching up on the new subs.... but before I run out of room in my diary to list more... here goes...

Artdog-
'regaining stoic' and 'Late night nap' .. I love the imagery in your work... and they way you throw an image in that seems so out of place, but fits so perfectly. (god does that make any sense?)

Guppy-
Ben Harper... I still have the quote you sent me once of his... love it.
Everyone has said all I want to say about each of your pieces... but 'conversation' was my fav.

Isolde-
'cyberlovers'

Shadygirl-
'backward glance' I LOVED the lines "you strolled into my bedroom, like fluid, with grace.." wow!

Misti-
you've just had so many new poems this month.. I'm glad your back...
'an open letter to...', 'Checklist', 'Brownie points', and 'In love again'... I've got stuff like that one too and no opps girl.. its your heart talking...

Michelle Parnell-
'untitled' ... "my boundaries lie before you" I love that line...

Sarah (gnomey)-
'blue velvet' ... I liked the style and flow of this one.

Julie
'I'm taken'

and last but not least at all... 'Cacoon' by Zoe.

Kev-
Just YOU my friend, and thankyou for the birthday wishes... ditto to you Cosette... my birthday this year marks a year of my being a 'blender' regular... (Shady.. please wish Karl a happy birthday for me also... )

Take care of your hearts.

dee

PS... Gupster, I think I owe you something... <kicks guppy in the shin> you told me to do that if you forgot to wish me a happy birthday... hehe... you're just more and more a bumski with each passing minute.

I'm back guys.
It's been ages and I've been having the time of my life but nothing stays perfect forever now does it. Ah well you know what they say about the best laid plans of mice and men. I guess you'll be hearing some new submissions from me soon.
Dee hope you enjoyed your trip.

heya heya all... I've just finished fixing my damn home computer.. I've lost everything from my email application - all of my saved mail, all of my addresses everything.

(but narrowed the bug down to corrupt software... which is good yeah?)

Soooo... could everyone email me (address above) so I can save your addresses again? please??

(Riggs welcome back.. I was thinking of you just yesterday!)

dee

Thanks, Deevaa. I hope no one thinks I overdid the journal
thing. The idea just occurred to me that some people might
enjoy seeing where my poetry ideas come from. They all come
from living life vicariously and recording the madness in
my journals.
****Today is beautiful! The sky is blue and it's so nice
to be wearing a sweater and not sweating.*******

Sarah

I really appreciate that.... yup...

sometimes ya just gotta live life ya know?

:) meg

Let's just forget that little attempt at html here <embarrassed look> *SMILE*

Angel

misti...
i love all your new stuff, esp. 'depraved to craved' and that old poem about your favourite things!

~erin

Just posted here for the first time - what a great site.

Rennie, thanks for telling me about Love Blender - I finally made it!

Artdog, it's good to read some more of your stuff. You know I love Porch Light, and I also like your submissions this month - regaining stoic (Hemingway WOULD be proud) and late night nap (brrr).

Hi to ArchAngel - I guess you're not so lost after all - you're everywhere.

Also wanted to say how much I enjoyed Kevin Urenda's october - this year, Isolde's Cyberlovers, and Lynn Hamilton Rutherford's The Tree by the Road. Also love Misti's and Guppy's stuff, but couldn't just pick one!

Ms_Demeanour

Thanks_ DeE
and
*smiles* StAr 69
-ZoE

Hello everyone...more good news...ANGEL LOVE has her own domain...askangellove.com is hers and is functional...she is very happy...the other address works as well...I have read some FANTASTIC works tonight! WIll comment soon...or maybe this year *smile*...Misti, give me a call if you care to talk...Heart, great talking to you tonight...

Angel

sarah aka gnomey...gracias for the weightful thoughts...liked the ramble mucho...

guppy - thanks for last night. you are the best at bein a bud. i needed the extra kick to move forward...in writing and men. trust is such a big issue, but mistrust is even bigger. hope you have a great day....nice new poem. me and my loopy moods. silliness i say.
later tater.
tonya

ooops, I mispelled rhythym in "Appetite", sorry.

where did you all go?????....

Gup-

Remember Kirk said he was moving stuff over to the new server...

-k

I'm LOST!

kev...oh yeah...*whew*...thanks for the reminder

My friend was on and she told me that someone was looking for me. I wrote the poem I thought. It talked about how I thought I was doing everything right for this guy for him to love me back and at the end Im leaving him.

If anybody has a copy of that can you please send me a copy of it. Thanks

Guppy- I had the *exact* same reaction! I assumed my script broke again. I'll move comments over nowish and new works a little bit later.

Welcome to the new Blender! (Not that it's any different from the old ;-)

testing

this site rocks. nice job on it!

Nothing pleases me more than when someone heads a direction I have pointed. I am so happy to have you talented folks make it to the Blender. I am proud of you ... artdog, Toklas, marbeth, and Ms_Demeanour. Don't slow down now ... go write more, keep me reading and smiling 'cause I knew you could do it. Bravo! ...........Rennie

I like all of you Blenderites. I get to watch all of you stretch, grow, shine.

aaaaawwwwwwww mumsleigh who let you have the crayolas again!

erin~
You will be pleased to know that you and your new
boyfriend are uncommonly compatible! I'm talkin' long-term,
I'm talkin' marriage, I'm talkin' Valentine's Day atop the
Empire State Building..."Forget it, Ming- Dale's with me!"...Meg Ryan and Alec Baldwin in "Prelude to a Kiss," Deborah Kerr and Cary Grant in "An Affair to Remember," Prince and Appollonia in "Purple Rain," John Travolta and
Debra Winger in "Urban Cowboy." It's the Real Thing, in short.
First and foremost, your suns are trine. Major plus. Second, your sun is sextile to his moon, which is another plus. There are a few squares in your synastry, which indicates challenge, but squares ALSO indicate mucho sexual tension/chemistry. I just got out of a "square" relationship and all I'll say 'bout THAT is read my poems. They more than tell the story!!!!
There are also a lot of trines in your charts, which are like good luck charms. I'll e-mail you the details when i have more time, I just wanted to let you know that all signs point to YES!!! Lucky girl.
If anybody else wants me to do their charts, let me know.
I'm here to serve.

:)Misti

erin~
Just read October 6th. Wow. I've felt that way before.
It's hard to describe the senseless ecstasy but you did
a good job.

Guppy,
I just read your most recent submissions. I especially
like the last one. I'll pick YOU up at 8:00.

:)misti

I moved all the new works from the old site to the new one. let me know if you see anything that's missing, but I think I was pretty thorough.

S'funny, I feel just slightly melancholy over "closing up shop" at the old webhost. That was the Blender's first home outside of being a part of alienbill - http://alienbill.com/romance/ - and alienbill was on the same physical server, so in another sense it was its home since 1996, when I moved it from http://www.cs.tufts.edu/~kisrael/romance ...

(((hugs for Kirk))) the new home will be as comfy as the last in no time sweetie!

You do good.

dee

zOe,
I just now noticed that you submitted REM's "Crush With
Eyeliner." I was thinking of that song today, for some
reason. That has always been my favorite REM song. My ex
is a huge REM fan. I hope he listens to that song and
thinks of me.
A few years ago I read in one of Courtney Love's interviews that Michael Stipe wrote that song for her.
Anyway, it's a great song.
*misti*

star69,
I just now found your comment. Wow, thanks so much!!!
No, I'm not published yet. I think Kirk should publish
a Blender anthology. I'd buy it.
Have a great day!!!!
*******misti************

thanks, october 6th was in my diary from....well, the 6th. its about that boy you say i'm gonna marry. thats good b/c i was planning on marrying him anyways....i don't think he knows that tho! i love your new stuff. thanks for the astrology stuff too!

~erin

misti -
hmm..do i dare find the answer? ha how about....he's a libra 9oct 15) and im a cancer (july 18) i know we both have a lot of the same characteristics...dont know how compatible we are though. let me know..=)

guppy - nice new ones. issue not resolved and grows daily. its scary. im a prisoner of my own mind and doubt. poof guy doesnt have a chance. gut feelings though...gotta follow em. what to do, what to do.
tonya

The poem from depraved to CRAVED_ By Misti V. Rainwater , was the best piece of writing that i have read in a while, if misty can see this and has more submissions, i would love to read them, please email me at:
dwashin0@manxtpittpo1.midatl.mccaw.com

tonya...ha...poof guy????...those guys never have a chance..ha

poor guy...things seem normal..but you know those normal things and how they are never normal. i wonder...am i having these issues because i date guys with no passion? i always swore off poets cuz they get too deep and i want there to be at least one sane person in the partnership..ha met one in nyc this week...forget..no more long distance! ha
later
tonya
misti- you have a fan...

tonya-

Misti has MANY fans...

Misti-

Loved the letter and the press clippings...
Hon, THAT COUNTS as "being published." Hell, front page picks here at the Blender count... Am working on a letter in response. Coming soon to a mailbox near you.

Dee-

<<hugs>>
you're next...

-k

oh misti, now that you've offered, i've got to know.
i'm aries, april 11, and he's august 2 (is that leo?).
show me the stars, oh wise one.
star69
(you can email me too - anastasa@carleton.edu)

Tonya,
Is your hombre's b-day October 9 (John Lennon and Sean's b-day, by the way) or October 15? That makes all the difference in the world. Let me know and I'll let you know what I find out. Right off I can tell you that it's a Square thing. My thing with Brian was a Square thing. It didn't work for us, but it worked for Jim Morrison and Patricia Kennealy (kind of). Didn't work for Sonny and Cher.
***Donelle,
Thanks for the compliment. Have you read my journal entries? I'll e-mail you as soon as I leave the Blender.
***Kevin,
Thank you for giving me a reason to check my mailbox!!! I've been avoiding it like the plague here lately. If I get one more letter from financial aid I'm going to leave the continent. I'm thinkin' Greece.
I wish everyone a most excellent, inspiring weekend.
misti

I love **Moonville**. I wish I had my own computer so that I
had more time to read every single submission and print
out my favorites. Once again, Kirk- Blender Anthology!!!
This must happen!!!

star69,
I will research your synastry this weekend. Yes, your man is a Leo, which means your suns are trine. That helps. Oh, I just realized...I have to know the year you were born in
order to find out all your planets!!
tonya,
you, too. Have to know the years.
I'm an Aquarian-Libra on the cusp of Pisces with a Virgo
moon and ascendant and Mars and Jupiter in Capricorn and
Saturn in Gemini and Neptune in Sagittarius and Venus in
Aquarius and Mercury in Pisces. I was born in the Year of
the Ox.
Translation: I may achieve fortune and fame, I may sail
the 7 Seas, I may love many a sailor, I may hear the
"mermaids singing each to each," I may eat a LOT of
peaches, but I will never find True Love. I am okay with
this. I was born under impossible stars. Can't be helped.
****misti*****

misti -
he was born october 15, 1966
me, i was born july 18, 1973
gasp..hes old? ha =)
let me know...we are the best of friends but i dont think relationship wise we will work....we are just buds and we'll see what happens..i push him away and he goes crazy...bring him closer and he goes crazy in another way..sheesh wheres the middle where all is happy???
men!!
tonya

Deevaa, I kindof thought I'd go unnoticed and kindof hoped I would but It was nice to have been seen. Thank you for the comment, perhaps I won't be so hesitant in the future.

Mischka aka Michelle Parnell

P.S. I happened upon this sight while looking for poems of love to inspire me in my sadness, at that time and have been reading and watching since. I found what I was looking for and you all are very good.
Thank you!

You're good Misti, I just read that where's the map piece you did. It's cool. I love disjointed poetry, (a fact a few blender readers will prbably attest to) Anyway, just letting you know that I appreciated it. There's a stack of new authors here since last time I came around. That's what I get for staying away so long I guess. Dee I'll email you and tell you what's been going on.

I love all the Stories, but I have one that can top it off. Maybe one day I'll share it with y'all.

Misti-
Crush with eyeliner is my favorite REM song too. I just wanted people to read it and apreciate the lyrics as much as I do. I think it's a sweet song.
-ZoE

Riggs,
Thanks for the compliment. Yeah, most of my poems tend to
be disjointed. Most of my poetry reads like a nervous breakdown. Do you sing in a band? I'd love to hear more about it. I've never been a groupie (not counting one night at the Inn of the Hills in Kerrville) but I guess now's as good a time as any to become one. Ha! Really, though, I'd like to learn more about you.
Tonya,
I'll research your charts tonight. I'll let you know what I find out on Monday.
Guppy,
I miss your e-mail!!!!

Yeah we're a band of sorts. Sort of Ben Fold's Five wannabes in truth. (And I'm not even a huge BFF fan) We're getting there. I play the piano and sing, kinda.

Don't you hate when you get a great idea for a song or poem or something and then realise that it's already been done by someone more famous than yourself.

misti
oh yes yes.
him = 1977
me = 1978
we're just youngins

ZOe
i love john in the right clothes.
and i love your poem so entitled. ;)

Star 69,
Thanks for the compliments. You are a great poet so your comments on my work are greatly appreciated.
-ZoE

My heart weeps for a lost soul
the soul of the love taken from my embrace
a tenderness has left me
will it ever be replaced?

My weeping heart
crying blood for lost love
my dying heart
crying out for a lost life

Another love has entered my life
she has a soul like no other
but the lost love still requires my thoughts
of that I cannot deny her
bitterness has left me
but my heart still weeps

My weeping heart
crying for my lost love
my mending heart
but is this new love, true love?

Confusion has its grip on me
Is love a one shot deal?
can the dear of heart ever be replaced
in full or just in part

Sadness has its grip on me
but a joy has entered my heart
should it be embraced
or driven from my life
I believe in the spirit everlasting
but the shell is never the same

My weeping heart
my newborn heart
my burdend soul
tears of joy, tears of sorrow
which do I weep
for the new love and the old?

Dear "Me ........"

Thank you for your honesty in this ramble. Please go write for The Blender again..........Rennie

Dear Toklas,

Rock Sculpture .... awesome!.......Rennie

It's Hard to let go

I love your smile it makes me feel warm
My feelings swarm the air and brighten the days
Every night I see you in my dreams, and just can't wait until morning
I need your loving enbrace I want to keep your love for life

I just know it's to good to be true. soorner or later it would happen. It'll get the best it's ever been, then
"CLICK",it's like a switch that has been turned off.
Every walking minute of my life I would ask why, why didnt i see it coming.

I need to know what happend, maybe it's my looks,touch, or kiss or is it just someone else. You're killing me softly, yet it feels like a scar wounded upon my heart. Why can't you be the one that's forever. I had wished and prayed you were sun, the stars, and the moon, that gives me warmth when I'm lonely, grace when I need it most and light to guide me when I need it most, in the darkest time in my life.

One more time I'll say, I love you, I'll miss you and good bye. Then take it and put it in the deepest part of my heart and lock it off with all the memories I hold so tightly. But still not forget, yet you were my first LOVE.

It's Hard to let go

I love your smile it makes me feel warm
My feelings swarm the air and brighten the days
Every night I see you in my dreams, and just can't wait until morning
I need your loving enbrace I want to keep your love for life

I just know it's to good to be true. soorner or later it would happen. It'll get the best it's ever been, then
"CLICK",it's like a switch that has been turned off.
Every walking minute of my life I would ask why, why didnt i see it coming.

I need to know what happend, maybe it's my looks,touch, or kiss or is it just someone else. You're killing me softly, yet it feels like a scar wounded upon my heart. Why can't you be the one that's forever. I had wished and prayed you were sun, the stars, and the moon, that gives me warmth when I'm lonely, grace when I need it most and light to guide me when I need it most, in the darkest time in my life.

One more time I'll say, I love you, I'll miss you and good bye. Then take it and put it in the deepest part of my heart and lock it off with all the memories I hold so tightly. But still not forget, yet you were my first LOVE.

CRYSTAL TURK

Great insight, Guppy ... fare thee well.

I wish you well ... and you are so right ... there will be someone who will love your flowers and want to share and care for them with you ... and that person will prove it with true words and real affection ... and you will know that it is real because you will finally not feel doubt or disharmony in your life ... there is a feeling of comfort in real love even when nothing is truly perfect with it.........Rennie

Why not have love traditions, e.g. a pic or so with a love meaning behind it, (a symbol of love)what the pic means and why??????

Riggs,
The only BFF song I know is "Brick," which I like.
Star69,
Thanks for the info, I'll let you know ASAP!
Tonya,
Quite frankly, the synastry between you and your friend is more than friendly. I studied the aspects in your charts and I found eight trines, which is amazing, seven sextiles, which is muy bueno, five squares (challenging), six oppositions (also challenging)and four conjunctions, which is excellent. So basically, you two are on the same wavelength, you have chemistry, and you understand each other in an unspoken, intuitive kinda way. You share a powerful telepathic bond and a magnetic attraction. On the downside, overstimulation is a possibility. You arouse both positive and negative emotions in each other, to the extreme, at times. Sometimes your temperaments clash like polka dots with plaid. But overall, your aspects indicate a mutually satisfying union, one that will never be forgotten.

Guppy,
I just read your **drenched** poem and I am freaking out because the poem I just submitted contains the word "drenched" and it also talks about bleeding! Too weird.
I'm still looking for my pillow poem. I'll let you know when I find it.
I also read that Bob Dylan song about Woody Guthrie and I was impressed. Tried to print it out but the printer isn't working.
Later!
:)misti

misti -
thanks so much. there is this almost addiction between us. somedays i swear he hung the moon..others he drives me batty. he doesnt know this of course. i try and keep an even keel so that he doesnt see my doubts. we live 2600 miles away and talk and chat everyday..like 3 times a day. we had instant chemistry, physical and emotional...his roomate told me last night that he thought we were going to elope when i got there...ha we met in the airport while waiting for flights. we just had this week of intense time together. its hard adjusting back to my norm. true love? who knows. we are both so chicken of love and the hurt it may bring. i just faxed that info to him and he reply HUH?? sooo..if you get a chance..please email me more details. i would love to research it further. sorry i havent emailed back. life had been nuts this week. thanks again!
tonya

as far as is it love goes....
my opinion on it is...love is when you no longer think of yourself first...and any doubts have disappeared. you couldnt think of a tomorrow without that person.

oh boy... I gotta keep up!

I will write soon, I will... I will....

Riggs, I'm waiting for that email... I miss you, how odd is that?

Miscka, its hard not to notice new talent... I'm looking forward to seeing more.
<smile> Welcome.

Misti, 'Unsent' your life? hehe, I thought it was mine... maybe its every woman's story. I have a Lou, and a Matthew....Terrance? I'd like to think... no never mind, no comment.
(btw now I have to dig out my TMBG tape... you made me miss them!! LOL)

Toklas, I'm with Rennie on 'Rock sculptures...' we have a beach here in NZ that they do the same at, my guess is we stole the idea. One guy became famous for his rock piles, and our new National Museum has one of his works in it..

Guppy, I want so bad to hassle you, but I know I promised... DAMN.
'Fare thee well' <deep breath> beautiful... sad... but... <grin> you are my Greek God of flowers.

Kev... 'see' you soon????

Take care of your hearts.

dee

Thank you Renni (sorry if your name is misspelled, it's not one of my strong suites)..thank you very much, I am going to write again.

Misti, seeing your submissions from years ago has got me going through some of my old stuff. I'm glad though cos, I found some stuff I'd forgotten about.
Dee I'll write soon. I promise.

almost through being a sponge...
soaked up some poetry
wrote a few even
ready for purge mode...

k

Guppy - dear god boy, you have me crying at my desk...loved moonville, and me....haven't been able to get much farther.

Keep up the incredible work.

Oops- "Woodie," that is. Not "Woody."
How is everyone going to celebrate Halloween? I'm going to wear this skimpy little pink with black paisley designs lingerie piece I snagged at Wal-Mart for seven bucks with black tights and angel wings and glitter makeup...voila, a decadent butterfly. I'm going back to Polly Esther's (the scene of the crime- that's where I met my ex back in April)in Austin with my sister and a couple of friends.
Did anyone notice the moon last night? It was gorgeous, especially when it was low and orange and obscured by purple clouds.
Later, gators.

:)Misti Velvet

Rennie and Deeva, thank you for responding to "Rock Sculpture."

Many great poems here this month and I am trying to catch up! Welcome Marybeth! in "Once upon a Time," I liked the notion of revealing, "piece by piece, line by line."
Artdog, I liked all your submissions this month. I liked "regaining stoic" best of the three.

star69, I enjoyed "In dire straits" - liked its witty tone ... I can relate!
Isolde: "Cyberlovers" caught my eye, enjoyed it!
Tricia: in "Letting go" I liked how you handled the imagery!
Calypso: I liked the line "meteoric light surrounds us like a circle in a room of shattered glass."
Misti: Of your subs this month (I have almost read them all) I liked "blue moon girl" best.
Guppy: I am enjoying your poems. They feel so free!

Rennie, "Tea Ceremony" really touched me! And thanks for sending me back in the direction of writing about the sea!
It got me going again!

Gup - 'Beautiful'
Riggs - 'Broken Rose'
Jill - '200 miles'

Just one thing to say WOW!

dee

thanks deeva for your kind words! i am not wallowing so deep in my slump that i can't come say "wow!" back... i do love your work. i hope you are enjoying your trip (if you are still on it.)
... and a nice, foliage-filled, breezy, crip fall hello to everyone.

hey blenderites--

i've been what you might call a closet blenderite for a long time, i guess--but i finally wanted to say hello and that i love coming to the blender and reading all the poems (and all the comments on the board!) i even occasionally submit one or two of my own, but i mostly like to read everyone else's. :)

misti, i'm totally intrigued by this "reading" stuff you're doing, and i would love it if you could do one for me. i don't want to have to post it all on the board though--so if i could e-mail you that would be great. i swear you had posted your address at some point but i haven't been able to find it in my going back.

anyways, to everyone who loves this place, keep living, keep loving, and keep writing. :) and i'll do the same! catch you all later...mj.

Misti,
I saw in one of your poems something about Mt. Scott.... is that Mt Scott near Lawton Oklahoma? I was down there at Fort Sill from October of last year thru April of this year... Too bad I didn't know you were from around there, could have met up and exchanged works! (though I dont have many).

Donovan
Ames, Iowa

Imported Memory

A fading memory
A forgeton place
A picture u rember
An expression on a face
A very small moment
That's captured in time
It stats with your heart
But fades in your mind
An emotion you felt
A story recalled,
A moment of happiness
A person u saw
They'll stay with u now
They stayed with u then
You'll never forget
How,Where or When

Water drops

Water drops fall
The river is deep
The hill is curved
Yet very steep

From many
Each drop does fall
From a place where many
wait.
Until they feel their call.

A stream is filled
When water drops build
It all came out
As if they were spilled

The hurt is so deep
They water must flow
down the curve of my cheek
For how long?I don't know.

hello all.
i just read scared's piece and it definetly struck a nerve. they didn't leave an email, so i am asking them here- tell me about that story? it's true, i am guessing, so whatever happened? did the person ever see what you wrote?

Jill,
Man, that was such a ramble!! What did you think of it though?

Ok, here's the story, as short as I can make it. This is gonna be long though, so I appologize to anyone about hogging bandwidth...

How we met:
Things started out innocently enough. She was the friend of my best friend's friend. My best friend had invited his friend to come and visit him at college so she was coming along. I wasn't even supposed to be the one to meet her, but fate played its hand and my other friend (yet another) had some last minute business that evening so I ended up going out with my best friend, her, and her friend. We went to dinner and went dancing and on the way back to the dorm we ended up sitting very close to each other, holding hands, etc.

The relationship:
We were hooked. We started seeing each other, but it was long distance and I will admit she wasn't always the closest thing to my mind. We got to see each other a few times a year for the next almost four years. She gave herself to me for her first time, it wasnt mine, but I had only had sex with one other person, in a long term relationship. Im pretty serious about sex being with someone you really love. As time grew closer to the end which I knew not was coming, her feelings started to grow deeper. She sent me a card that she said she hoped was not too forward, but that she had been saving for just the right person for four years. I got scared. I was having the busiest semester of my life! 15 credit hours, three jobs, national guard, and ROTC. I told her that I couldn't do more than we had right now. I know it hurt her. I could hear it in her voice over the phone. I thought about that for the next couple of weeks and decided that she was more important than allthat other stuff, so now I made my play... Her life was now beginning to get busy as she was graduating at the end of the semester and now she didn't have time. Things grew more and more distant after that. I was supposed to go see her during Thanksgiving break, but it never happened. We started growing apart and i a few desparate last grasps over the next couple months I sent her flowers and letters and cards, you know, the usual stuff you do when you are trying to both hang on to a dying romance and make up for all the times you should have done this stuff while times were good, at the same time.

The aftermath:
I never knew what happened to us. She called and left a message on my answering machine one day and that was it. I asked her to let me talk to her in person and tell her how I felt, but was never given the chance. Time passed. I was in her town one day for an autocross (a kind of amature racing) and I asked her to come watch, which she did, and very patiently. I could tell she was bored out of her skull, but try as I might she would never ride with me. (its just a cone obstacle course set up in a parking lot, one car at a time, racing against the clock) She stayed the entire day, but when it came time for us to go get some dinner as planned she declined. She had to work late that evening and wanted to go get a few things done before work.

That was the last, and only itme I saw her in about two year's time. I went off to the military for a while and before I came home she wrote me an e-mail asking me to stop by to hang out on my return trip. I told her that I wouldnt be driving through her town until very late at night which wouldnt give us much time to hang out, but that I would make a special trip to see her at another time. I didnt hear from her for a while longer until a couple weeks ago. She wrote me an e-mail saying that she could come and visit for my birthday if I was having a party. Well, the party was immediately planned and she was on her way. She arrived and man, I was awestruck. She was so much the same, but so much had changed too. New hairstyle, new perfume, definitely still her though. In a second all those old feelings flashed back to life and I did my best to hold them back. We talked a bit. It seemed strange though, and I felt liek I had to be so careful not to say the wrong thing. I didn't know if she had any "alterior" motives for coming up, but I could only assume it was as a friend. We had the party and she was careful to keep her distance. Friends would later remark that it seemed like she was ignoring me. We went to the bar later that evening with a few friends, and agreed that the next night we were just gonna get sloshed... go beer for beer and see who wins. Not my favorite thing to do, but it was her idea and I was game. Well, the next night came along and things seemed to be going well. Went for dinner, and went to the bar. Once again she was keeping her distance, talking to my sister and her friends, the whole group just kinda staying away from "the guys." Switched bars and the group was now together, but she stayed on the opposite side. The guys started playing pool and the women went to go dnace. THat was pretty much the last I saw of her till closing time. My friends were telling me that she wanted me to just get stupid drunk, and they were pushing me to get sloshed and go make a move on her. I didnt think that is what she wanted, so it put me in a bad mood. Then when I actually decided to go over to the dance floor I saw that some other guy had moved in, great! That made the mood a little worse, so me and my other non-dancing friend just stood around and talked. At closing time I tried to ignore her on the way to the car. I know, not the right thing to do, but I was mad dangit!! We started totalk a little on the way home, but as soon as we got home she changed into her PJ's and laid down on the couch. (that is where she decided to sleep the entire weekend... I offered to give her my bed and take the couch myself, but she didnt want to) My roomie was watching a movie so we stayed up for a while, she dozed off so my roomie and I went to bed. When she left the next day she said how much fun she had and stuff. You know, the usual "we will have to do it again..." That stuff. She caught me though. I didnt think she heard it in my voice. I started to say "Yeah, it was..." my voice trailed off and when I looked at her she was looking right at me. Here was the moment. I wanted to just lay it out there and tell her so bad, but I kept it inside and she drove off. That was that. I wrote her an e-mail telling her how my friends were pressuring me and sorry for being a jerk about it. She was gonna stop at her parents house (she doesnt have a computer)on the way home and send me an e-mail so I figured I would have it waiting for her. I never heard from her. She started a new job this week, so I sent her an e-card the other day saying that I hoped it was goin well and all. I will be in her town this weekend for a road rally. I wanted to ask he if she would like to join me, but I dont want to sound too anxious. Of course I would like to get back together with her, but I would really like to just start spending more time together and see what develops tht way, ya know? So that is why I am scared. I dont wanna puch her away, but I dont think I can stay friends if I dont tell her. I wonder if she feels the same way and is just scared too... so much to thik about!!

Well, there it is, sorry it is so lengthy. Hope I didnt lock anyone's computer up.

scared

scared-

not advice...
just an observation.

It's okay to be scared. After almost nineteen years in a relationship I STILL get scared that I might lose "it," something, her... I suppose that is what makes it more real, at least more passionate. Sure there is more to the story, but the short of it is that I have found you just have to be "real" - open and honest. Trust yourself. The rest takes care of itself.

and now for something completely different...

Sarah (gnomey)-
I adored “fence.” Part of what love IS involves seeing if your heart has any borders…

Tricia-
The imagery of “Letting go” was befitting of the title… Nicely done.

Guppy-
The tone of “mislaid” spoke to me. The shift of that tone in the last line of the poem “that’s not why you’re here” gave a different sense of closure to the overall tone, but still worked well.
The sense of awkward wonder you capture in “beautiful” is something that should be bottled up and sold to keep people devoted to one another. I know I still experience that feeling when I wonder why my sweetie sees such things in me…

Julie-
Thank you for the inspiration of “Scribble.” I cherish those poems most that inspire my own writing, because they touch me to the core of who I am. I have OFTEN wished to receive expressions similar in some way to what I give to her…

erin-
<Sigh> Ah, the giddy feelings of being “Confused.” Thank you for that…

Ms_Demeanour-
“Need” hit me a little TOO close to home. I have that need in some ways, but I have more of a need to know that she isn’t going anywhere. I am very lucky in that respect.
The tone of “Raw” also touched me deeply. The hardest thing about loving anyone is KNOWING you are going to be hurt, and yet being completely vulnerable anyway…

MVR-
What can I say? You have lived your life here in front of everyone (it’s all there in your own words, hon)… wow, you are an inspired and inspiring woman… What else can I say? How about this…

“brownie points” is beautiful in its boldness, much as its author, the “Queen of Everything.”
There is a raw poignancy in “perception of a luckless bad girl” that actually stopped my breath. It truly is a scornful lover who is articulate in all but matters of the heart, and does not seek to discover love through expressions OF love…
I loved the metaphors of smoke signals from the heart in “Heart Trouble,” and of dressing yourself in your daily defenses in “Dream Discussions.” I ALWAYS feel closest to my sweetheart in the mornings when we talk in the dark before the dawn…
Having been attracted to more than a few “loud cartoons” in my life, the “union of the FAKE” struck a chord with me. If a man does NOT catch the subtlety of your mystery, he will be blind to most everything else… As one who loves solving such mysteries, I am always looking for that subtlety. Finding it again and again in my lover is what has kept me so deeply in love for this long…

Kevin,
Thanks for the comments and astute observations. You got what I was trying to convey in those poems, which is cool. I am still anxiously awaiting my letter!
***To the guy who is scared of expressing his true feelings-
Don't be scared. Life is far too short to live like that. I have more than lived the advice I be preachin' so take it! If I meet one more man who is cautious and reserved I am going to SCREAM!~!~Don't preserve anything, especially pride. Pride is worthless. It only works for football fans. I'm sorry to hear that you are in the military. That can really hinder a man in his pursuit of truth, liberty and happiness.
Nevermind me. I've fallen for far too many army guys. My bitterness is starting to show, and for that I am sorry.

Peace,
Misti

Guppy,
You are the most Beautiful person I've never met. I just read *suckled* (LOVED "your perfumed pounce")and *beautiful*. There should be more Guppies in this world. Maybe there would be less lesbians.
Sorry. How politically incorrect of me.

In my endless pursuit of self-improvement, I discovered something the other day that I thought I would pass on. I cuss a lot. I get frustrated and pissed off quite often. So for every negative word I utter, I try to think of at least two positive words to say aloud. So I'll say my usual litany of "You stupid @@##!!!!" (whatever)(usually directed at truck drivers in traffic) and then I'll say,"Daisies. Rainbows. Stars. Full moon."
I am now going to make up for the negative stuff I posted a few minutes ago. I love Sublime!!! I love Pee-Wee Herman in "Pee-Wee's Big Adventure" and "Pee-Wee's Playhouse"! I love Las Vegas! I love Long Island Ice Tea! I love Mark Wahlberg! I love Marlon Brando! I love plastic leis and grass skirts! I love Gilligan! I love figuring out people's planets! I love candlelit bubblebaths! I love people who read lotsa books! I love drag queens! I love Scary Kisses by Brad Gooch! I love Chinese food! With lotsa soy sauce!!!
Bye.
Love,
Misti

Kirk,
I just visited your Alien Bill website. I read Love Letters from Strangers and was WOWED by #6 (Road Trip).
I took a road trip to Las Vegas once. November of '95. Got married at a drive-up window, it's true. But the marriage was not binding, according to an attorney. You can only have one spouse at a time in Texas. Still, even though it was the strangest, most destructive relationship of my life, I loved that road trip. There's nothing better than not knowing where you'll be tomorrow. Our soundtrack was Billy Joel's and Michael Bolton's greatest hits and "Nevermind" and the Sex Pistols and Babes in Toyland. I remember eating at a Mexican food restaurant somewhere in Colorado and then going to Baskin Robbin's for dessert.
If you have never spent Thanksgiving in a casino, I highly recommend it.
***misti***

MJ,
I just now found your comment! Yes, please e-mail me and I will give you a reading. I need to know the exact date and time of birth.
****I will help out anyone who is curious about astrology. It's my passion. I recommend anything by Linda Goodman...especially *Love Signs* and *Gooberz*, a book of her poetry. *Venus Trines at Midnight* is also quite good.
**Donovan,
Yes, Mount Scott is in Lawton! That's where Brian lives! He's a lieutenant at Fort Sill. Are you in the army? If you are, you can e-mail me, anyway. I LOVE e-mail.
E-mail me, anybody and everybody!!!!!
:)Misti Velvet

mistie, funny you posted the lyrics to "unsent". she called me Terrance...

the comment page seems to be getting WAY off the path of comments on poetry
astrology and disclosures of personal problems is not what i come here for
psychological help can be found under mental health

to "a reader"-

Your concern is noted, as well as the tone in which it was offered. Please note the guidelines for comments:

"The Blender of Love welcomes comments, writer's talk, and romance-related conversation as well as creative work."

that which you decry does seem to fall into these broad guidelines. If a person reaches some measure of catharsis through THIS forum as opposed to confining it to poetry, why should it matter? It does not to THIS reader.

c.B.

I too feel that everything that I have read here in the past does fall under the guidelines. I guess in the end it it up to the moderator of the board what stays, and if it is here, it is ok. Just my $0.02.

Donovan

One of my many pet peeves is people who post stuff anonymously. Another one of my pet peeves is anal retention. L-I-G-T-E-N U-P!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oops, forgot the "H". LIGHTEN UP, that is.
And while you're at it, leave the night light on inside the birdhouse in your soul...

Guppy,
You are brilliant. I just read *detergent*. My favorite line="how can i get what i pay for when i get it for free?"
I understand the dilemma.

a take: if you don't want to read something, dont...if you want to discuss something, submit a comment...if people want to talk about what is submitted, they will...i just think it's kinda ridiculous to complain about what people submit on the board...nobody here is getting paid to entertain or anything like that...honestly, i think the board is a good place to get to know the authors outside of what their work tells us about them...the comments are often things that are reflected in the submissions...actually adds to the understanding of the author's works...it's funny to me that someone actually complained about people discussing his/her personal life on the board...what, it's ok to talk about your personal life when it's dressed up and framed in a poem, but not if it's free conversation???...as if most poems aren't inspired by real life events...why shouldn't people talk about what inspires them?...

gup

if we ALL wrote as MANY and as LENGTHY 'diaries' of our personal lives, Kirk would be shelling out more cash for space and WE would be scrolling for hours to view comments on poetry it seems very unfair of other readers and of Kirk for so few to HOG the board!

i was born in a log cabin many years ago i was circumbcised by an angry goose at the age of two i almost died of a penis infection because we was so poor that we could not afford any salve my dog had to lick the wound for three days the dog got sick too my mammy ran off with a bootlegger down the road i think i was his bastard but he never would tell my daddy died of a broken heart or it could have been a bad batch of liquer that my other daddy give him i always suspected that man of murdering my poor old daddy this is why i can not love nobody i am scared of fathering a bastard like myself or being murdered while im drunk and i think all women are a piece of ass like my mammy maybe thats cause i am a scorpian the stars say i am in planet pluto hell i thought all along i was on earth i wish i could fine me somebody to love on here i am a hot looker and will f**k yor brains out i also need to say i am suffering from scitzofrnia and think i have already done this but since i am not sure i will post agian i love peotry and if you write with lots of F words it is sure to be GREAT here dont want no rimes or sweet melodies to darken the mood i am glad i have this arena to join i seem to fit so well here and i think i will even write me a poem about this broad who broke my heart cause sh caught me kissing a meter maid i only done it to keep from getting a ticket saved the dumb broad some money but she behaved like a complete and utter bitch and up and left me then there was this time when i was four that i caught my folks having sex cept my mammies feet were upside down on the headboard and i thought my mammy was going to suffocate under them covers i have always been haunted by that image maybe you guys here at the blender can help me get over my fear of women geese and bootleggers i have had a terrible childhood that has left me with numerous scars so i will tell more agin soon

I whole heartedly agree with the gupster, and CB...
The blender board is meant to be a SAFE place for poets to express themselves and make themselves heard, some times you've just got to express yourself, and sometimes in your life you need to express yourself more than others.
A reader, although expressing a point of view has taken away the safety of the board as a place to express openly, there maybe a point in your life, reader that you need a forum to express something, and you may just find that if you kill the community spirit here there won't be a place for you to do it.
Be careful with your annoymous posts... sometimes they wound.

take care of your hearts.

dee

Dear Reader
~~~SEE NOW DONT YOU FEEL BETTER~~~~~~~~~~~~~
and we all will try and understand your life too!!!!!
try writing to express yourself more offten you seem to be pent up some there
~smile just me ~~oh a have great night!!!!

reader...your point was made...i hope you don't make it a mission to mock everybody here...

don't get me wrong...you can mock me if you want...i'm fine with it...rip into me all you want...

later,
gup

Hello all...YES, I am reporting in *smile* and I am soo far behind I am ashamed...I will stay up late tonight and just read. The blender has always been a comfortable and friendly place to share and exchange experiences and ideas and I hope it can remain that way. I see alot of newcomers on the submission page as well as alot of my ole favorites which I need not name *WINK* I will kick back now and read...

Angel

Tonya,
I broke down and sent Brian an e-mail! I told him that I
was going to send you a picture of him and he hasn't e-mailed me back so I guess he doesn't mind! Too bad if he does. I'm going to mail you a picture of him standing shirtless on a balcony in Jamaica with the palm trees behind him. If you're impressed, I'll send you his e-mail address.
I'll also send you Halloween pictures! Yay!!! Be sure and show them to Jeff! :)
Kevin, Angel and Shadygirl-
I'll send you cards and pictures next week!
Everyone/Anyone-
Have a safe and happy and poetically inspiring All Hallow's Eve!!!
Love,
Misti

I'm sooooo sleepy....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

From bottom up...I fear I won't catch up!

Dee~"I flow deep", short, seductive

Riggs~"Broken Rose", very graphic and sooo touching...

The Guppy~"Suckled",'it was the night your perfum pounced',LOVED IT!!!

Ronit~"Ode to Craig", nice use of rhyme.

Misti~"lesson#22",WOW , what a lesson!

And I thought for some stupid reason that if I started from top and read down to the bottom, I might get done faster *SMILE* so,.......

The Guppy~"Tailwind", I think I may have already commented on this one...but damn its good.

Madison~"Summer Lair", extremely well written and descriptive

Can I go to bed now? lol
Goodnight Blender friends...

Angel

misti --
how's the reading going ??
i figured you might have forgotten, so here's
my info again. : )
he's 8/2/77 i'm 4/11/78
i appreciate it whenever you have time !
thanks
star69

misti -
ha! im sure he figured the email was a crazy spuuing forth your anger..so he didnt read it. ha
jeff or tim? ha i got pictures of both....
kisses
tonya

guppy- nice nice.....

Angel,
Thank you! I'll send you a card this week.
Star69,
Okay, chica. I'll get right on it. I'll let you know what I find.
Tonya,
You are probably right! I hope he read it, though. 'Cause I'm pathetic like that. HA! Tim, Jeff, whoever. I'm interviewing male order grooms. I went on bridesmaid errands with my sister and her friends in Austin yesterday and I got to see Kari model her bridal gown and I almost lost it! Yeah, right- nice day for a "White Wedding"!!!!
Polly Esther's was CRAZED!!!!!!!
**misti**

I just did the I.Q. test @ www.iqtest.com and it said I'm a genius... LOL... whatever.
(my score was 133, over 130 is genius)

dee

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