By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 18 October 1999

Job Corps Journal

Bought some Monarchs and a purple lighter. Read poetry with Kris and Coveeta
and Paulette and Carol. Endured odd flirtations with Matt- I growled at him
and he said, "You're a very strange girl." Eric was stoned- it was HILARIOUS.
Kristy and Macy made me feel like shit. A lotta people do that, actually.
  So 2-nite I lit my lilac candle and peaced out in the bathroom. Chanted, 
used talismans (my crucifix necklace, compact mirror, Matt and Wendy's wedding
invitation, poem from Taz, black lace bra, broken choker and Vanilla Fields
cologne).
  I prayed and used my imagination. Created some magic, I believe. We shall
see.
   I'm trying like mad to improve myself. Really I AM.