By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 18 October 1999

**JOSH**

Yesterday Josh called for the third time. He left a message on the machine 
telling us to meet him and his friends at Inferno at ten o'clock. So we did
and now I'm completely BLISSED OUT. Way fuckin' out!!! I got Josh and Heather
got the guy we went to IHOP with last time. 
    He seemed shy at first but then he pulled me to him and we danced real
close and kissed on the dance floor. Bought me a Shiner Bock. Then we all
went to the Roxy. Josh got me a Jack & Coke. Heather and her guy played pool
and I made out with Josh at the table. HARD-CORE!!!
    Then we walked to Shane's car and he drove me and Josh to my truck. Shane
and Heather went to Embassy Suites and Josh took me to his room at the
Clarion. We got on the bed and I told him I was on the rag. He didn't say
anything so I suggested we watch TV. He asked me if I'd like to just hang
out for awhile.
    He kissed me more than any other guy I've ever been with. He was so 
sweet and tender with me. He was the first guy I've ever known in 25 years
on this earth who caressed my face. We would take breaks from kissing and
just stare into each other's eyes. He asked me a lot of questions, which was
nice. He asked my favorite hard liquor (whiskey), color (blue), book
(Slaughterhouse Five) TV show ("The Real World"), etc. I told him about
Jay and he said, "What a dick." He told me that he was born in Oregon. It 
rains there a lot. He was SO SWEET. I'm glad we almost had sex but didn't.
 I told him that my legs were cold and covered them up. He was so gentle
and considerate. He's only 19 but he is the classiest guy I've ever met.
His birthday is April 6.
   Then his army buddy came in and got in the other bed. I fell asleep with
his arms around me from behind. I woke up and felt gross and decided to
leave. He didn't hear me go. It was 5:00 a.m. I drove home and bathed
and brushed my teeth. Oh- he also asked me my heritage. I said,"Cherokee
Irish Scottish Swiss." I told him that "Flash Gordon" is my favorite
movie and he chuckled and said,"That's a great movie." GOD, I hope he calls! I love this guy!!! He is too awesome. He told me about his favorite book and 
went into detail. It was too cute! God, I hope he's not hurt that I left w/o
saying good-bye! He HAS to know that I crave him! I'm just full of idiosyncrasies.
  What's so cool is that last Friday night we were both at Bob Popular's
at the same time and didnt' even see each other! What's also cool is that
yesterday I submitted a poem about him to the Blender. I made the front
page of the October digest with front line, my poem about MCC.
    Josh reminds me of Chase but he's a hundred times sweeter. Bliss! Joy! 
LOVE!!!