By Liz Vala Swtliz@yahoo.com
Date: 17 October 1999

Loving you

Our friendship I had missed but yet feeling scared to feel...
I felt close to you. sharing my thoughts.. my desirers..my dreams..my self.
I felt our friendship become closer.. feeling more of a lover to you...
Wanting you to know the real me...
Giving you a face with whom you had been calling to each night.... 
I wanted to share my mind.. body. with you.. explore what love i had to give.. 
Hoping only that you wanted me... 
Each night spending more time... wanting more.. finding my self needing more... Minutes cross into hours.
Wishing time would stand still so I could explore you..... 
Wishing to know your dreams.. desirers..... goals... 
Feeling of peace with each sound of melody that lingers in the air....
Hearing the beat yet feeling the words deep within... Wanting to cry .. 
Wondering if the words of sound is your thoughts....
Or was I just wishing to much.... wanting to much... 
Wishing I could see your face.. and gaze deep into your eyes..... 
Searching to find answers...  my eyes are deep of blue like the ocean waters...
Giving you a passage way into my heart.. my soul.. my being.... 
Am I foolish to feel this for a man I have not yet seen...... 
Am I foolish for wanting to be..yet not knowing..
If the man I have falling in Love with is true.......
Wondering maybe this all is just a game..
Loving you makes me go crazy... 
Feeling like a child wanting a toy but yet not able to reach it... 
Searching and waiting.. and wishing...