By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 18 October 1999

Melancholy Musings

Will I ever be powerfully feminine enough to cause a man to drown inside
my mysticism. Will a man ever love me strongly enough to embrace my
weaknesses and worship my strengths. I wonder about these things as I cry
because life isn't enough for me. I loved Chase. I loved Russell. And
the only love I've ever known is unrequited.
   But I have family. And God. And my books and my looks (?) and this pen.
   
   MIRROR ENEMY
   ONE SHOT
   COULD NEVER
   BE ENOUGH
   I HATE IT
   WHEN I
   HATE MYSELF