By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 21 October 1999

His Drunken Affirmations of Love

This morning I dreamed about Chase. I was at Meme's and he called me.
Then I was with him in London. He told me that he was engaged to a 
Canadian girl named Melissa- I thought he was joking until he tried to
call her.
  I started bawling and he held me.
Sometimes I think of Chase as cheap gasoline to my Jaguar or fast food
to my cognac. Other times I think of him as high octane to my Oldsmobile
or caviar to my Coca-Cola. My perception of him fluctuates constantly.
   I know we won't wind up together. We're too ambivalent about each other.
He says he loves me when he's drunk.
   I want a guy like the one in my dream. He wanted me and ME ALONE.
And he was sober!!!!