By cwilkinson_85@hotmsil.com
Date: 6 September 1999

Final Words

Months of unending pain,
not ready to say God-bye forever.
praying you'll never realize it's completely over.
Hanging on to your every last word,
falling apart at any given moment.
Miserably I sit here wondering when you are going to break my heart again,
hoping I'll be ready for it with all the experience I've had.
I dry my tears but I can't move on,
just waiting for you to say its completely over,
I'm sorry!  I'm not strong enough to make that decision,
if we've lost what we once had ,
it's not going to be my fault.
I will not live with any regrets.

You want to see what the world offers you,
I already know , You are my world in it's entirety!
Your the reason I exist, the reason I can keep living.
You pump the blood that flows to my heart.

I can only wait for you to be with someone else,
and leave me to drown in my on tears.
I'm not afraid,  because I feel it's already happened,
you are only keeping it within because you know you've already hurt me so much.
So why am I still waitng for you,
when you have no intensions on waiting for me,
because I guess I'm waiting on the truth,
the one I think I'm ready to hear,
and say a final Good_bye,
when I realize you have said your last "I Love You",
the last one you actually meant anyway.