By sarah jilk  dragonfleyes@msn.com
Date: 21 September 1999

sell it

i almost just did it
picking up that phone and dialing
reaching out
but then i slammed it down
BANG
can't do it
you said that i "was unintentionally evil"
and i said, "it wasn't love"
i was always and ever your only one
you were one of my many
but i said you weren't a number
you never were mr x
just plain mr x
you had that swagger when you
came by me
that cheezy way of dancing
that made me want to turn red
with embarassment
but we never did fit
your arms in mine
me in yours....it never fit
our disjointed limbs sticking 
into each others sides hurting each other
maybe it was a foreshadowing
saying, "hey, you two suck together"
instead we went ahead foolishly
denying my family
denying my friends
denying myself
denying my life
you wanted me to leave your life
you said that i was your ONLY motivation
your only reason for living in this life
what was your reason before?
before me, could you just of wandered
so aimlessly?
you said you could be independant
but you had to show me, over there
i asked if i could write you, if i could
just drop a line and just wonder about you
and you said no.......
that i would be hurting you to much, and
you wouldn't even read it.....
i asked you, what should i do with the ring???
and you said..........
just sell it.