By Riggs
Date: 17 August 1999

Confusion

Guarded look, cautious eyes.
Smile...wide...happy to see me?
Shove, giggle...Joking?
Why do you fawn on me then ignore me.
Don't you know how that feels?
Do you even know you're doing it?
Do you have a clue?
Can't you see how much it fucking hurts?
Is this what "mixed signals" means
Isn't that just shite for married couples?

Laugh...Head on my shoulder.
Hold me real tight.
Is that so I feel twice as much nothing when you let go?
Do you do it intentionally?
Provoke my jealousy?
Why?
Or are you just talking?
Christ I can't tell.
As if my judgement were clear anyway.

Love? Never
Infatuation? Definitely.
Do you feel it?
I can't tell.
Your body says yes...then no.
Jesus why do you do this to me?
Or is it happening to you too?