By The Guppy
Date: 19 August 1999

reluctant

she took a bite-sized piece of me
along with her on that six am
shouting at me as that passenger took leave
and made a mockery of my discontent
and all in all, i took it well
at least i think i did
graciously greeted the bottom of the well
and kept my face well hid

it wasn't as if she had gotten tired
or even taken up resent for me
it was more like she had walked the wire
and wrapped that feeling in a present to me
i've gained a lot of nerve, but she had more
i still remember the sigh before the storm
it was enough with all the slamming doors
but, the locking made my failure take it's form

i didn't see it when i was walking at her side
a simple sister contemplating suicide
i just had my problems and my pen
and all the feelings just seemed to flow again

i couldn't see her
because of wetness clinging to my eyes
i'll never be her
i'm thankful that i realize
that worse things have happened to much better men
but, all these feelings are just seeming to flow again