By Cosette
Date: 23 August 1999

Remote Control

i swear i tried not to call you again
instead, i pressed so hard on my remote control
just to get rid of these itchy fingers

but can u blame me 
when i see my popcorn so pale? this pillow being too soft?

i lifted the handset
i wish i could lift my pride as well
it seemed like you are just there beside your machine closing your ears
waiting for my heart to stop ringing like hell

and now 
i wanted to tell you about my pillow
but that would mean another coin
when your voice sounded like a signal for a few seconds left

so instead i said im okay
besides you can't see my tears from there

what a fool of me to actually believe 
that the dampness of my mouthpiece 
could wet your ears

i should have watched the TV's instead
and offer my heart for a midnight show
have it controlled by the pride of my fingers
so you can watch it sign-off