By Cynthia Highsmith-Hooks
Date: 2 September 1999

The First Time

The first time
I gave in, 
I was but a girl.
You were PRETENDING to be a man,
taking advantage of that girl.

You rushed, 
like we were playing a game of beat the clock.
You hurt me,
then left me crying, bleeding and sad.
You asked if it felt good,
but all I felt was pain and disgust.

Was it worth it
for only a five second discharge,
A burst of pleasure known only to you?
YOU DID NOT NEED ME FOR THAT! 

Well, NOW I AM A WOMAN!
And my lover IS a man
in EVERY sense of the word!
I no longer bleed
like the first time with you.
And when I cry, they are tears of joy and ecstacy.

It feels good to be with him,
for we both know and share
the pleasure of our love-
NOT LIKE THAT FIRST TIME... WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!
 
                                     C. Highsmith-Hooks 9/99