By mojave (mojave7299@yahoo.com)
Date: 15 March 2000

i dream again of a complicated Goddess

i dream again 
of a complicated Goddess
dream i'm talking with You
and wake to the same rain
the same room
the same vague pain
and there is
no pill for this
(so the songs on the radio were right)
no exit not final
no relief in this life

(this is not lust
this is not infatuation
this is not simple
attraction
this is complicated
like You
and as hard to define as longing
for a place
never visited
and starvation
when there is no longer any hunger)

nothing to do now
(be kind)
but smoke too many cigarettes
(be cruel)
and await exhaustion
(be something)
which will come
like mercy
or judgement
from an otherwise indifferent
god