By lanna
Date: 27 March 2000

A Muse?...Just A Song...

'Do You Believe In Life After Love?'
I have to.
I refuse to give in to a Love
   that quite possibly wasn't there.
Turn around, laughing hysterically.
Screw that!  You won't beat me!
Hop in my car, my BRAND NEW CAR,
   and cruise across the country.
End of the road, and here I sit.
Enough self-pity.
Another life is waiting for me,
   and in I jump.

'Are You Lonesome Tonight?'
What do you think?
I loathe this glowing screen
   I have turned to for companionship.
Switch it on, one more time,
   hoping for who knows what to happen.
Is this real?
Am I real?
I writhe in agony,
   the weakness of NEEDING someone
   overtaking me.
Hell Yes, I'm lonesome!

'If I Were You, I'd Fall In Love With Me.'
Finally, someone I've connected with.
Listen to the song a million times.
Type the words to send to HIM.
For all I know,
   when I log off, HE forgets all about me.
Can the words of a song really mean so much?
Pick me, Pick me! Could I be more pathetic?

'I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane...'
I know when I'm coming back.
Round trip ticket, baby.
(Guess the words can work.)
A short trip,
   making a dream reality, for a few brief moments.
If HE wants more, HE better show it.
I'm not falling for Love again.
This time, I know what I'm doing.
(How many times have I said that?)

'I Will Survive'
How will it end?
Who knows?  Who cares?
I did it!
I took a chance with my heart.
I loved again.
For a few moments I was loved.
If it doesn't work out,
   there'll be others.
More opportunities to do again what I have learned I CAN do.
I WILL Survive!

3/27