By Ali...windy357@aol.com
Date: 8 November 2000
choking on logic
"Can I ask you a favor?"
I said to no one in particular
Just out loud
As I sometimes do
"Somebody tell me, how this happened."
And no one answered
Because no one really knew
I doubt that even you know
Or that you'd be willing to share
Whatever pathetic explanation
That you dug up
And I almost refuse to beleive
What each and every sign
Points to
What everyone is saying
Without speaking at all
They say that you never loved me
Not even a little
Now how could that be true?
That is such an awefull thing
To even say
To even think
After all the love I gave you
After all the love we shared
That simply couldn't be true
You loved me...
You did love me, didn't you?
Of course you did
You had to have
It's what you said
It's what you whispered
But all the evidence
That I chose to ignore
For such a long while, now
Is just too logical to ignore
Any longer
Oh, dear, it's come to this now
Logic...
Never used that card before
In the game of love
There's a first time for everything
I suppose...
But in matters of the heart
Logic seems an instant death
To love
Because love defies logic
Even as logic defies love
Now, though, I am forced
To change my tune
ANd sing a humbler one
One of a blinding, searing melody
One whose notes deafen me
Cripple me
I know what happened
Admitting it, I guess
Is the first step
(step to where, I'm not sure)
I didn't really like the answer
So, I just kept asking the question...
"What happened?"
What happened?
You left
Went back from whence you came
Except you didn't go alone, this time
You left with her
The oblivious one, by your side
The one to whom
You belong
I guess I only borrowed you
For a little while
Only...only I wonder
Does she know?
Does she know of me?
Or is she really as clueless
As she appears?
I know it really doesn't matter
You've wasted enough of my time
And it looks good on paper
Forgetting you
Getting over you
Facing the one big fact
I ignored
The one with the face
The one with your name
The one you chose over me
An overdone story, I know
Why, then, did I play the part?
There are too man reasons
To ever really list
And I'm sure I hate you
I'm positive I do
Or is that another
Hand-crafted
Well-made
Peice of logic
That I can't seem
To choke down?
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