By Ali....windy357@aol.com
Date: 8 November 2000
Face That You Wore
So, finally, I found the truth
Tucked away
Hidden
Stuck carelessly between
All those lies
You told me
ANd all the dellusions
I created
And it brought me
Down
Sent me crashing
Into tragedy
Falling from heights so high
Heights that I reached
From your drug-like presence
Could I have another hit, please?
Because I think that reality
May be the end of me
And I miss that euphoric feeling
That you gave me
Even if it was
Only a temporary fix
Because all things are temporary
Or so I've been told
But I always believed in forever
Silly me
I guess that I'm a fool
Because I still want to hide
From the truth
Banish reality
Close my eyes
Turn my face away
And believe in you
Despite the absence of reason
But this time
I think that it's over
For good
I can't let you
Shatter me
Because these peices of myself
Are so very hard
To re-arrange and put together
And I don't think
I have the strength
To endure another hurricane
Another storm that's only passing through
To see the lightning flash
Brillantly, brightly
Then dissapear
ANd to be left
With only a chilling, drenching rain
And even if I wanted to risk again
Overcoming the tempst that you are
That really isn't an option
Now
Because my addiction has been denied me
And I can't hide from the truth
I can't banish reality
I can't close my eyes
I can't turn my face away
Because the truth is holding me
In his firm, iron grasp
Forcing me to stare him
Directly in the eye
And even though I may flinch
He holds me tight
As if to persuade me to accept
The horrible realization
That he offers
That you were never
Who I thought you were
And that sweet face
That you wore
Was only one
Among many
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