By Zero #1
Date: 2 November 2000

So I Sit, Awake, Afraid, and Totally Alone for Yet Another Solitary Night

Whispering winds
haunt me in the night
I have so much trouble sleeping,,those eyes outside of my window.
The bags under my eyes -- a product of all these sleepless nights.
All those bad dreams,,,I'm far to afraid to sleep anymore.
      so I sit
        awake
        afraid
      and totally alone
for another solitary night
       and pray
     as I listen to the creatures slink around my room
talking to each other,  I can't understand a word they say
 my mind, spinning tales of it's own in this eerie darkness
only gives power to them as they close in on me.
 
Every night they get closer.
They have now repeatedly for 19 years.
 
Night after night, they get a few inches nearer
one step
then another
day after day, night after night,
of me hiding myself and warding myself
from everything I know they want to do to me
  so I sit
    awake
     afraid
   and totally alone
for another solitary night
  and pray
that God will deliver me from all of this that I see
that no one else can
This, that no one else will believe me
   So I pray he takes this away from me
 I want to see no more
Even when I close my eyes
Their bodies, covered with shadows and shaded by darkness
are still visible to me
   and when I can understand what they're doing
   I never have the courage to do anything about it
  so I sit
    awake
     afraid
   and totally alone
for another solitary night
   and pray.