By me  me@as-if.com
Date: 28 November 2000

His eyes

His eyes

His dark eyes, almost black
With the longest lashes ever
Ever so sweet
I remember his eyes in the dark, looking at me
I didn’t see his face anymore, only the black eyes
Piercing in me
I almost forgot what it looked like
And sometimes I’d even see a diamond, a light, a star, a twinkle
I would see beyond
Other times his eyes didn’t have any emotion, dead, black, hard, dark
Only black eyes looking at me with no feelings whatsoever
Or the times when he wouldn’t even look at me
I would only see his lashes to the ground
And when he kissed with eyes open
I remember them looking around, behind me, next to me
Like a nerves Chihuahua
It made me laugh
Or when we would kiss and he would look at me
He would look at me in a way
I loved it
When he looked at me with passion and love
That’s the one thing I think I’ll never forget, ever
His eyes piercing in me, the twinkle in them
He has a smile in his eyes, He looks so caring
Those were the times that convinced me that he loved me
The way he looked at me
There were times when we would look at each other at exactly the same time
And then just lock
For I don’t know how long
But I would just forget everything and everyone around me
And only see the black eyes
That’s when they always looked sad, saying sorry for the all times he made me cry
I also thought that sometimes I would see guilt or regret in them
Or something that was so shy, he would look, but from behind his lashes
Like a shy little child that was all alone
I would be there for him, if he would only let me
Now these days
I never see him anymore
So I don’t see his eyes in the dark, or while kissing me
I don’t speak to him, so I don’t see the playful or sometimes serious eyes looking at me
And worst of all, the thing that really gets me
Is that we never, ever look at each other at the same time anymore
As if it was meant to be
We don’t lock anymore
And if I do look in his eyes
I just don’t see anything
I know it’s all over and done
Because of the way his eyes look at me
His eyes, so nice
So beautiful are now looking at her
Not at me
I’m just happy that I saw beyond and further in his eyes
I’m just grateful that he gave me that look
That I know how is looks like
I’m just glad that I got a change to look in his eyes and be in that black hole and falling
I’m falling, falling in love
Because that’s what happened 
I fell in love with him and his eyes