By lilyBell@hotmail.com
Date: 7 November 2000
How do you know it's love?
How do you know It's love not lust.
Lately I have questions that I can't seem to answer.
when do you know it's love that your in and not just lust?
I have loved this man for a long time. He has been the one that has captured my
heart which others have failed to do.
I am a woman who gives her all to make the man that she holds dear, " happy".
But as I sit here tonight I am unhappy.
I have needs that just are not being met.
Could this be a sign that there is someone else?
Could this be a love that is one sided?
Could this all be just my scared heart talking?
Afraid of getting hurt all over again.... I question myself..
and ponder on his actions..
His actions toward me lately have been unloving.
He tells me he wants to be with me yet I feel something is wrong.
He is late when he says he will be here for me. When I ask him why he was late, he says the same thang.. I fell a sleep.
He is a man that seems to be doing many thangs at once and has many thangs on his mind.
Most times I am okie with the multi-tasking thang
but there are times when I wish he would just pay attention to little old "me"
He use to leave me little msgs letting me know he was thinking of me.
He use to write me emails ( A long time ago) a few that touched my soul..
Romantic I thought, as he would share himself with me.
No other man has made me feel this way before yet how come I am unhappy?
Maybe I am asking to much from him now.
Maybe I should walk away, cool thangs off with my heart
until he can give me the attention I
crave.
Clue^less and help^less
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