* The Blender Board


From: SwtLiz
Date: 1 January 2000

Today is the Eve of a new Millennium
A new century to unfold into the horizon
New inventions will follow as life changes surround us
A new page into the journey of life will begin
As past century before us and the century's yet to come
Ones search for inner happiness remains the same

"Souls yearning to feel complete"

Love quest for "True love." is passed down from generation to generation
Love is the meaning of life...

Without love what do u have?

My wish for the millennium:

"For inner peace and happiness among all gods creatures."

Happy Y2k to the blender
Thank you for letting me open myself among what I like to call friends and family...

And to the keeper of the blender
" Kirk " Thanks for having a site that touches so many souls

with love always
SwtLiz


From: smiling deevaa
Date: 1 January 2000

well what an amazing few days we've had.... I've seen TV pictures of everyone around the world dancing, and hugging and kissing as midnight rings out around the world... if only the news was full of so much joy and laughter all year around.

Kiribati moved the date line so they'd be the first count down to 2000, but still only got the jump over NZ by 15mins.
We are now home to the first married couple of the millennium, and the first baby born, and a whole raft of other firsts....the whole country joined together that night.. it was AN AMAZING feeling.

I hope that everyone had the sense of unity as we did here in NZ.

take care of your hearts.

dee


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 1 January 2000

Last month there was a lot of discussion about "My Angel". I guess it's time (or past time, I don't always keep up with the goings on the board the way I should-) for me to weigh in. My feeling is that it is rather off-topic for the site. The site as it stands is not about love per se, but romantic love. Yes, the situation that led to having to make that decision might have been romance related, but this poem was a few steps removed from that. It does come across as being a bit of an "issue" poem, even if it's feelings are heartfelt.


From: Holly Henderson
Date: 2 January 2000

I think your poems are really quite sick, to mak efun of love as if it is just a toy. Love is the most important thing in this world, and maybe if you learned how to love you would feel the same way. So a bit of advice; go out and fall in love some day if anyone is loving enough to fall in love with such a cold-hearted person.


From: jgleve@webtv.net
Date: 2 January 2000

Let me speak to those that wish to berate me for not appreciating certain writings here...
First of all...this is not a R rated site....correct?
So children may access this...correct?
I do not care if someone wishes to write a complete pornographic script. I do care about having the option to view it.....by clicking the title.....that is all we see...I do not have a choice...so perhaps those of you that insist on defaming women by using trash words in your poems, indicate on your description that is may be offensive to some.....
You cannot defend the use of trashy slang words in discussing sexuality....if you insist on doing so..then you are not a poet of intellect, but only a person who cannot find love and beauty in the creations of God....
so design a website on the local porn sites.....
MY OPINION


From: Calypso
Date: 2 January 2000

Artdog,

Begrudging Release - you really moved me. And you're right, the energy in your piece, flows into the energy of the new year. Good things - we all wish for those. The universality of this work is what is really strong.

And happy New Year to all the blenderites! I so enjoy reading everyone's poetry and prose here. The blender - A little loving oasis, it is.


From: SwtLiz yahoo.com
Date: 2 January 2000


Writing about thoughts is all I know..
I neither am a Poet or a philosopher.. Maybe I am just a dreamer....
The only thing I know is how to express my feelings into writing.. Sometimes it makes sense and other times I sometimes wonder about what I just wrote.
Thoughts live within us and setting them free is only half the battle ...
I feel If your brave enough to put those upon paper or in this case, this site.. Who are others to pass judgement... IF you walk away loving it.. Great.. If you walk away thinking.. Does this woman have a clue? oh well... All that matters in life is love for one another..Which form of love depends on how you feel about that person.. God made us each different and gave us specials talents to make "us" who we are...

The keeper of the blender is just that.. "The Keeper"
It is up to him what stays and goes..

I for one have not followed the rules here.. .. "Romance-Related topics" ( not everyone that has come into my life has touched me in a romantic way...)
Liz


From: Artdog
Date: 2 January 2000

Thanks Calypso, glad you liked it. I know that it is weak poetically, but I wanted to say it anyway.


From: Artdog
Date: 2 January 2000

Bubs!!


From: chantalici@aol.com
Date: 2 January 2000

Jgleve---or whatever you fancy yourself---

If you cannot distinguish between this site and cyber smut, god pity you.

I might add that decent parents do not allow small children unlimited, or unmonitored access to the web....my opinion...


From: deevaa
Date: 2 January 2000

guess what.

I miss GUPPPPPPPPPPPY.

come back from your holiday boy!

dee


From: MaggieforMargaret
Date: 2 January 2000

Can someone fill me in? WHAT work is jgleve referring to that has her so offended? I want to read it, by GOD.


From: MaggieforMargaret
Date: 2 January 2000

I just read "CyberCynicism". I am sorry the author of those thoughts is so bitter about the cyber world as it relates to love and relationships. Some of us are not lucky enough to find our soul mate in our own back yard. I was raised in the South, where attitudes toward women and their sexuality can be as repressive as the summer heat south of the Mason-Dixon Line. While I am not saying that this is the case for ALL southern men, that has been my experience thus far. So I am a magnolia blossom in search of a Yankee...and guess what? I found one in cyberspace. Thank god for BelleSouth, AOL, email, instant messages, and United Airways.

Take care all.


From: deevaa deevaa@paradise.net.nz
Date: 2 January 2000

MaggieforMargaret --
jgleve seems to have rubbed several of us at the blender up the wrong way from the start, for a number of reasons...

1st - complaining that Kirk hadn't put the comments button in a prominant place (you'd think that at the bottom of EVERY page bar one would be plenty huh?)

2nd - commenting on the 'porn' submitted here.. yet not naming a specific piece that he/she is offended by.

and 3rdly... not having a single nice thing to say about ANYTHING.

I'm probally one of the people who submitted work that offended jgleve, but I don't feel the need to appologise.
I live and love with romance in my life and if romance is a part of my sexuality, and jgleve doesn't like that... TOUGH... if Kirk doesn't like that, then I am SURE that he'd do what he feels is nessicary ... (ie remove works from the page, which I've seen him do before).

Chantel.... yeah what you said... and also what my babe Gala said to me via email... some of which I'd love to quote, but I don't wanna rain on her parade in case she'd like to do it herself...

take care of your hearts,

dee


From: deevaa (again)
Date: 2 January 2000

opps... gotta remember the spell check!!

sorry chantal... I'll try and get it right next time.


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 3 January 2000

Oh what a night! Late December back in '99!!!

I can only hope that each of you had the type of new year I had, what an amazing weekend! A-Maz-ING!

I am on the very edge of change, peering into the abyss of love, and praying he's not too shy to offer me those wings he showed me...dear lord, I'm making no sense.

The last place I want to be is work today!


From: Riggs
Date: 3 January 2000

Hey Misti, that peel thing was pretty damn cool.
I love that sort of disjointed stuff. It's all so strangely familiar to me. Don't know why.


From: Lynn ...
Date: 3 January 2000

I've been reading the comments over the last few days and I have ONE comment to make:

There is an amazing little feature on the internet that allows you to back out of offensive sites ... it's called the "back<--" key. If you push it, you'll exit from the site that disturbes you and you never have to return again! It's so easy! Why just yesterday I used it when I visited a site that urged me to sign a petition to ban "free speech" on the internet!

I just thought I'd throw this comment out here into the void ... if it hits anyone in "unmentionable places" it was purely unintentional. *grin*

Hugs to all who are hugable ...
~Lynn


Date: 3 January 2000

Dwight,
"When I Need You" should be attributed to Air Supply. It takes true genius to write such cheese.


From: MaggieforMargaret
Date: 3 January 2000

Lynn:

Couldn't have said it better myself!!!!

MaggieforMargaret


Date: 3 January 2000

romancecooking.com


From: Lynn ...
Date: 3 January 2000

MaggieforMargaret:

I have one little item to add to your "thank God for" list. Calling cards. When you're lurking in the shadows with someone from your past, the "calling card" is like a little flying carpet! Aaaaah ... only 45 pin numbers away from heaven! *sigh and a grin*

Huggies!
~Lynn


From: Madison
Date: 3 January 2000

Rudy : ) "Have a nice day" - intriguing, unpretentious. I love the way you put it together. . . "her hair looks wild like Einstien's" - great visual. If that's a poem based on life, maybe it could accidentally drop into her paper sack one morning? She just might be jello, too.


From: jimmy thedjking1@aol.com
Date: 3 January 2000

I want to ask a girl out who I really like through a poem and I was wondering if you had any like that.
I would really appreaciate if you sent me a couple.

Thanks
Jimmy


From: Calypso createld@hotmail.com
Date: 4 January 2000

Just a general comment, something I've been "musing" on since the New Year arrived. A feeling of gratitude for everything and everyone one who has touched my life lovingly in the last 2 years - and exhilaration over the surge of joy which I have experienced as a result. My goal for the New Year is to give some of that joy back!


From: Rudy
Date: 4 January 2000

Madison,
Thank you for the compliment and the idea! :)


From: Tigress
Date: 4 January 2000

I stumbled upon this site by accident last night and I was wowed by the poems, especially the ones by the guppy and shadygirl. I also like the one by Rudy. This is a great site!
I was wondering if someone could help me out. There's this old song that I can't get out of my head and I want to buy the CD but I don't know the artist or the title. My favorite part of the song goes,"I locked you out, you cut a hole in the wall/I found you sleeping next to me/I thought I was alone! You're driving me crazy! When are you coming home?"
Thanks!


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 4 January 2000

Tigress...
the song in question is called 'Laid'...kinda appropriate due to the fact it is the featured song in the movie 'American Pie'. };>
Speaking of songs, I'm trying to find out who did that catchy tune "Runaway" in the '80's...it has bits about a chameleon, lying in the sun who is 'all things to everyone'. Anybody old like me and remember that one? :P
-Starr
PS, to those who might care, I think I fixed my wee issue with Brett. *relieved sigh* All Better!
Kevin...much thanx. Tell your son that your mystery g/f says hi. *giggle*


From: deevaa deevaa@paradise.net.nz
Date: 4 January 2000

<wiggles in from her work desk>

ShadyGirl.. if there is not a tell deevaa ALL email in my email box TODAY I'm gonna call you in the middle of the nightl!!! (and you don't want THAT!)

I'm concerned your Christmas card is not there yet...all the other ones I posted have arrived. hmmmmmm.......

I watched the TV coverage of NYC when the ball dropped, and imagined I could see you there in the crowd.... the one resolution I've made is that I want to celebrate Christmas and New Years in the the winter... somewhere big... NYC, Paris, London, one day... <grin>

My big news for January 2000, is that some of my poetry has been accepted for a New Zealand writers website, (thanks kev for your suggestions, for batch 2!)
I submitted 3 of the 5 of mine that've made front cover here, (thanks Kirk for giving me the confidence in what I write)... and all three where accepted.

When my poetry is up, I'll post the URL.

Take care of your hearts!

dee

(back to work after 2 weeks off!? cruel punishment!)



From: Misti
Date: 5 January 2000

So much for my "cyber siesta." Aw, hell. I can't stay away. I'm like one of the regulars on "Cheers." Everyone knows my name here. All that is lacking is the beer and pretzels.
I guess my week absence was basically a ploy to see if anyone would miss me. I know deep down inside that this site would fall apart without my "pornographic" submissions. HA!!!
***Shadygirl, I got your letter yesterday!!! You've got great timing- I really needed a laugh. I'm going to send you a reply and some clippings, even though I don't have much going on in my drab little world. I'm thinking about selling my truck and moving to Seattle. I'll keep you posted!


From: Rechelle M Matthews YWCAOakland@IGC.ORG
Date: 5 January 2000

what do you think about my little poems anyone can respond.


From: Dawn
Date: 5 January 2000

"YOU" By Rick Woods Is totally breathtaking. I was searching for a poem to give to my ex-fiancee. We have been broken up for some time now. He said that I had to do some changing, so this was perfect. I could never stray from him, for he has my heart. Always...


From: paul wilson evrpaul@yahoo.com
Date: 5 January 2000

Like kirk (the blender keeper) i have made the transition to boxer shorts, so now at the ripe? old age of 46 i,m much more comfortable in my own skin and what is next to it. Thanks for the work you do in maintaining this site. Regards paul


Date: 6 January 2000

"When I need you"....I think that's Leo Sayer...point being, credit where credit is due.


From: Beth (bethanykaye@hotmail.com)
Date: 6 January 2000

Bubs!
as always, i loved reading your stuff... and i hope you have no need for writing broken heart poems this year! but don't stop writing altogether! that would be a terrible loss. i had no idea that so many people i know posted here! Tok and Caly both have wonderful stuff posted! i finally started writing again, so maybe i will have more to post! (and some are even in the active voice tok!)


From: Misti
Date: 6 January 2000

Last night I got my first taste of Pierce Brosnan when I watched "The Thomas Crown Affair." I'm sure he's married but maybe he needs a nanny or a housekeeper. "Do you want to dance or do you want to dance?" Dear God. I'm still drooling!
When I was in the fourth grade I had a mad crush on Ricky Schroeder. I would imagine that there was a video camera in the classroom and Ricky was watching me, so I tried to live up to a certain standard aesthetically and scholastically. Now I'm going to try to live up to Mr. Brosnan's standards, or what I imagine them to be. Who knows, maybe we'll be the next Bogie and Bacall. I was asked to be in a movie once, it could happen! So it wasn't a big studio production and they weren't going to be able to pay me anything! I just need to get an agent, that's what I need to do.


From: Forest Adams (jhardylbg@hotmail.com)
Date: 6 January 2000

Hey guppy--
Your poetry is great! I especially liked "shush". It was what I have wanted to say so simply in a poem. You are blessed with true poetic prowess. Keep On truckin'! (That means keep writing more poems)

To all who have submitted works--

I Truly can say that I Love you all...This web site has changed my entire perspective on poetry & its many aspects.
Please check out some of my works... and I don't mean ot sound desperate either. Just a little feedback would help.Thanks!:-)

To Kirk--
You are the man for creating this concept. The "new-matic" veiwer is great! I have not stopped visting this site since I found it using a poetry search. Thanks to you.


From: Misti
Date: 6 January 2000

Forest,
First of all, I love you, too! I have read your poems and I think they are heartfelt and sincere. But to write truly exceptional poetry (like the Guppy) you must be an avid reader, first and foremost. And avoid cliches like the plague. Cliches are the number one killer of poetry. Not that I have any authority at all 'cause a lot of my poems truly suck, but I feel that you should write from your gut. Write like you're in a boxing ring or a hot tub. Write like you want to kick someone's ass or seduce them like they have never been seduced before. Poetry should never be polite or politically correct or placid. Poetry should kick some serious ass.
Keep writing!!!!


From: Jessie Ott (butterflie@sad50.k12.me.us
Date: 6 January 2000

I think that you should put the writers name. Because if someone is lokking up names of poems written by a certain person they don't know who wrote the poems if they came to this site. This site is useless to most people.


Date: 6 January 2000

Misti, shut up already.


From: jgleve@webtv.net
Date: 7 January 2000

Good Luck Jessie.......getting a response w/out getting
attacked...maybe this site should be for "war" poems instead of "love"....
To those that insist on my leaving if I do not like some of the poems here....there are numerous poems that I have enjoyed!.....but for those that insist on defending trashy words that have been used in some of the poetry, then you are either a man disguised as a woman or you have little self worth ...NO women enjoys seeing her body parts analogized as a feline......in written works....If she enjoys it...then I question her respect for women in general.....You do not need to attack me...I have not mentioned any names....for the person that asked me which poem I was referring to....I suggest that you read them all and you will find the answer to your own question....I am not leaving because of what a few of you write...I just think you need to put a rating beside your poem.....If you can discuss men and women's sexuality in a way that is hardcore, then perhaps we can also write poems about race wars, violence, etc.....since pornography is not about love....it is abuse against either sex......I am certain that there is one person here.....or are all of you ONE?
that would agree...........you do not need to attack if you are not doing this type of "creative expression".
Don't write something you would not want Jesus to read...or your kids.....think about that.


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 7 January 2000

Jessie- I don't understand your complaint. Where exactly are you hoping to see the writers name?

Jgleve, please stop playing the victim. We know you disagree with some of the content here but frankly that's not your decision. People jumped on your case a bit too much for saying that it was hard to figure out how to submit- I thought you had a point, the current arrangement still reflects how *all* submissions and comments used to have to be sent by e-mail- but people have been pretty nice in asking you to preach a bit less.

Expect a new blender this weekend, hopefully Saturday. I would say last month there were a number of off-topic submissions that probably won't make it to Heart on Sleeve corner. What really bugs me are poems that come across as "issue" poems, ones that never move beyond the simplistic moral message they're trying to impart.


From: MaggieforMargaret
Date: 7 January 2000

To: JGleve

OK...I did read all of them and found nothing offensive in any of them. I am 36 and have two daughters. I am educated (got a graduate degree while being a single mother AND working full time), liberal and well-read. Some of the best literary workds out there are erotic in nature. D.H. Lawrence is a good example. Anis Nin is another. I am VERY comfortable with every aspect of sexuality, male and female. I love my physical self as well as my spritual and inner self. I analogize things all the time, sexual and nonsexual. We all do. Analogies are like rationalizations. We all do it without realizing we have done it. Does that mean that I don't respect women? No, it does not. It simply means that I, along with many others, chose to view the world a little differently than you. I write erotic short stories as well as poetry. As of yet, I have not submitted any to a publisher. But I am thinking about it. So if you go to the bookstore or the library and you see my name on the binder of a book, don't buy it or check it out. You WILL be offended. It is your choice. BTW, all that bitterness, while it may keep you warm now, will burn you up eventually.

MaggieForMargaret

To all of the others out there, keeps the keyboards going. Freedom of expression is one of the most liberating feelings in the world. Use your words for catharsis, liberation, or to simply say "I love you", but USE THEM. It is part of your freedom.


From: SwtLiz@yahoo.com
Date: 7 January 2000

By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 6 January 2000
Musings 1/6/00

So true So true... by the way , how is the play-write or book coming along?.. Been looking foward to the next scene..

KEvin... where have you been? Have not see much of your writings lately... Miss them..
take care and Enjoy

Liz


From: kevin urenda (kluless70@hotmail.com)
Date: 7 January 2000

(weighing in on the WORDY subject)

It seems to me that this issue is all about perspective. Jesus Christ never instructed anyone to have a closed mind, but rather to remain pure of heart and spirit. Sure, Lust is one of the "seven deadlies," but so is Pride, the source of self-righteousness. And besides, it is sometimes easy to forget that even highly educated people can have closed minds (I am related to a few of them)... All that is required is a willful ignorance of the perspectives of others.

As a purely intellectual question, there seems to be some confusion about the difference between pornography and eroticism. Being descriptive of what is natural, i.e., the human body, is not necessarily pornographic, whether such descriptions ascribe animal attributes to the body or not. Even four letter words in the context of such descriptions does not make such descriptions defacto "porno."

Pornography is what makes women (and men) the OBJECTS of lust, thereby depersonalizing them and even in extreme cases dehumanizing them. I would agree that pornography has nothing to do with romance, and little to do with love. Eroticism, on the other hand, does. Desire and sex, frankly, are definitely elemental of love, and so cannot be disconnected from it. Even the Bible, as some people conveniently forget, does not make such a disconnect (ever heard of the Song of Solomon?).

So what is the point? If eroticism offends, do not subject yourself to it. Yes, I will concede that people submitting their work here might try a little harder to 'rate' their work in that regard. However, they ought not be bludgeoned verbally for failing to do so. Just as some people refuse to have televisions in their homes, one can also refuse to taint themselves with what they personally deem to be impure. It is as simple as that.

-k

P.S.- Kirk's point is well-taken... I personally have always taken pains to consider whether what I am submitting is even peripherally related to romance. My test is a broad one, but the subject should ALWAYS be about LOVE if it is to be found here.


From: Misti
Date: 7 January 2000

To the Anonymous Dork Who Told Me to Shut Up-
Please don't add fuel to my fire in such a dry season!!! I will never shut up 'til I'm dead and you don't know where I live so you can't kill me. So sorry, darlin'- I've got a bit of a goddess complex ...so looks like you are S.O.L.
(sh** outta luck)


Date: 7 January 2000

Misti, why don't you go back to sleep?


From: Misti
Date: 7 January 2000

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...Oh, no! I'm being attacked by a faceless stranger in my home away from home! I must be dreaming!!!!!!


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 7 January 2000

Misti - hey girl, glad you got my mail...I actually have another your way...just have to get it in the mail...making up for all those reply-less months in the last millennium...:-) (Sorry to say I'm happy to see the siesta was short lived...:-)

Dee - oh girl...I will e u. You have no idea how upside down my world is (or right side up?) ahhh...reminds me of a fave Dave song...;-) Sorry I did not see that message 'til just now. I got ur e-ed pics though...ur curly q boy gets more adorable in every one...

Kev - oh wise one...:-) My Buddha on the Mountain Top... I owe u an e, a twist has been added to the mix, u will never believe...I am living the most pathetic "Dawson's Creek" soap opera, I am just waiting for a mysterious stranger to appear in my life claiming to be my long lost twin from my real family in Zimbabwe who wants me back to reclaim the throne of our village...or some s@#t! like that.

On that odd note...


From: Misti
Date: 7 January 2000

Liz,
Thank you. I've written a couple of new scenes but I can't submit them until I find them. There are literally stacks of notebooks and books and magazines in my apartment- my life is chaos right now! Hell, it always is.
Shadygirl,
Thank you for giving me reason to check my mail! I've written you a reply but I haven't put it in the mail yet.
Kevin,
I hope "The Novel" is on its way! Can't hardly wait.


Date: 7 January 2000

Snip some threatening of a blender regular


From: deevaa
Date: 7 January 2000

Jgleve and Jessie, it is possible to make constructive critism without saying things like "This site is useless to most people." Maybe you should try it? The response might be slightly more favourable.
(just a thought)

dee


From: Lynn ...
Date: 7 January 2000

EXCUSE me ... but I think the nameless, faceless person just stepped WAY over the line. Are comments like that REALLY necessary?

~Lynn


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 7 January 2000

Quick poll, tyranny of the majority:
should comments like nameless faceless be removed from the board? I really don't know what level of threat they might represent.

Let me know and I'll act.


From: mEg
Date: 8 January 2000

I don't comment often. I have read the blender for a VERY LONG TIME.....recently, I have submitted from time to time (without checking my spelling thoroughly- YIKES!)....

BUT, after checking in tonight, and seeing the last few posts...I'd definitely say take action. There are acceptable behaviors.... the line has been crossed. Yes, we COULD all kill someone... but WOULD we....

No, most of us wouldn't. And we sure as shooting would not threaten someone in that manner --- even with the anonimity of the net.

Why put that fear in the minds of a group of people that have been brought together by the freedom of having their musings on love... and loving shared???

Sharing your writing is a risk. We all risk when we write a poem and post it... when we write a comment on the board. We trust that the peers of the Blender are in keeping with that same spirit that brought us all here in the first place. Trusting and believing in something you cannnot see -- or touch. Isn't that, in a way, what love is? And though I cannot see MVR or Guppy... or Nameless & Faceless, I know you are there, real... because you trust enough to post a poem or a comment without fear.

I've noticed, of recent, some attitudes expressed that do not fit with the general aura I always find in the comments from Blender faithful. As opposed to supportive and familial... some comments have almost been provoking. I support provocation when it spurs enlightenment.... and mutual "stretching of the gray matter" so to speak. However, provocation for provocation's sake does not (in my very humble opinion) contribute any valuable benefits.

I like the spirit and spunk and just kick-buttness (I mean that in the best possible way) that comes through in MVR's poetry and in her posts. ANd while not all of us may feel comfortable with enthusiasm and spunk and people who grab life ..... that doesn't mean we have the right to try and diminish that spark in another. Words like shut-up.... and threats... no matter how empty are a waste of your time for those with that "fire".

We just rise to the challenge paste a *SEG* on our faces... and will piss you off even more.

SO I suggest we "the collective" delete "nameless & faceless's" posts... before MVR really rises to the challenge.

One Humble Opinion, mEg


From: Razor94@yahoo.com
Date: 8 January 2000

Like an insatiable hunger
I get those hunger pangs
the ones I have no control of
when I hear your name

That affair that we had, love
was all that kept me alive
but more than anything else, love
I hated living the lie

you don't know what you did to me
you can't I never told, but I'd love to show
you don't know what it meant to me
there's no way to explain, but I'll never be the same

Baby, we had our moment
for one short span of time
and that insatiable hunger
briefly was satisfied

so I carry this hunger
and stolen time deep inside
and relive precious memories
vividly in my mind


From: kevin urenda
Date: 8 January 2000

Here here, mEg!

My vote, Kirk: Nuke 'em...


From: the guppy
Date: 8 January 2000

me=not quite dead yet...i am however fighting some awful sickness consisting of bacterial infection on top of viral infection...guess a few of the y2k bugs had me in their sites or something...grrrrrrr...anyway, my poetic juices are filled with antibiotics right now...and i'm sure nobody wants to read about my mucus...sooooooo...that's my excuse for not writing lately...ha...i'll get to cranking out stuff again as soon as i'm feeling better

i'm a little ticked off right now, soooo, i'm going to speak my mind...

on the subject of freedom of expression through art/offensive wording in poetry/whatever...i read the comments about that whole argument...my take is that people should not take themselves so damn seriously...just lighten up...and it seems kinda hypocritical to bring up god or jesus or whomever in an argument based on political or sociological correctness...some people find godtalk offensive too you know...

as for the threats...i just wrote my soon to be first top 40 hit dedicated to the moron who's tossing threats at misti...it's called "grow the hell up, dear dear idiot"...the message of the song is pretty much the same as the title implies...listen for it on your fav fm station...

anyway...i'm out...take care people

gup


From: mEg
Date: 8 January 2000

Guppy - hope ya get to feeling better.
We all look forward to your new musings via poety in 2000.


Fan #247,977,817 :)
mEg


From: Artdog
Date: 8 January 2000

Ahhh, a little bright spot for me this morning that I want to share with the blender. I have had two poems accepted for print publication. I want to thank all of you and Kirk, I don't think I would have submitted had it not been for the encouragement I have gotten here. Thanks to all of you.


From: Misti
Date: 8 January 2000

I am laughing my ass off right now. It blows my mind that my silly posts on the board have resulted in so much drama! I'm still thinking the anonymous person is my ex, but whoever he or she is, I am not fearing for my life and I am not going to be stifled and I am going to keep throwing my colors out there onto the canvas 'cause I want to share my exuberance and ebullience and fire with the good people of the Board- Guppy and mEg and Liz and Kevin and Dee and Shadygirl and all the countless others I have invited to this site because they rock da Casbah.
************************************************************


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 8 January 2000

The January digest is here, a week late but making good time... I would say that the new expect date is until a week or two into the month, but if I said that it would just start slipping later and later.

I was just wondering-- how did you all originally find out about this place?


From: galadrial60
Date: 8 January 2000

Oh boy!

First, thank you Kirk---I enjoyed writing Querida---it was like dancing the samba with words...I am honored that you liked it as well.

Second, there's a place called Beirut where terrorists are quite comfortable. I suggest you direct them there, particularly when they suggest violence.

Free speech is wonderful---but does not permit us to shout "Fire" in a crowded theater. Someone might get hurt---which supercedes anyone's right to be an ass.

I love the Blender---and the Blenderites are the very best people on the earth. Love to Dee---my regards and respect to Kev and Guppy. Hang tight brothers and sisters, the Blender will endure!

Gala---dancing


From: mEg
Date: 8 January 2000

Pre-Pizza Dinner Greetings, Kirk & all:

Hmmmm ..... let's go back in time....the Blender...I think it was when doing searches for poetry sites back in 1998 or maybe even 1997? I think, if memory serves, the URL used to be different (it wasn't www.loveblender.com) when I first started reading material.

That was the same night I found the complete Leaves of Grass on-line.... a loooooooong time ago. I do remember that those two *findings* happened during the same night...

Speaking of Leaves of Grass, I have that link around somewhere! (I guess 4 copies hardback and 2 soft aren't enough).

Also, just a mEg, recommendation, if there's anyone who likes sensual and unusual poetry from the female perspective, give Anne Sexton a good read.I highly recommend her Collected Poems. (Softback at B&N and under...mm I think $18?). If you prefer the romantic/sex/love/lust type of stuff, I can give you some titles to start with to get a taste of her stuff (though she's in every modern lit class I guess now-a-days).

Enough pontificating... on to dinner!

mEG


From: Lynn ...
Date: 8 January 2000

Kirk:

EXCELLENT choices this month! ... nice job as usual!

My vote for nameless/faceless: toss em'.

As Ever,
~Lynn
PS: Misti - you're amazing! Wish I had your gumption ... I admire you GREATLY!


From: deevaa
Date: 8 January 2000

I personally don't think the nameless/faceless comments are REAL threats... but then, they aren't aimed at me... if they where that might be a different story. My vote is ask the girl they are aimed at.

Way to go frontpagers!

And Kirk I found the site through a page that suggests links according to your star sign, and if I remember right it was my birthday that they suggested this site, one of the VERY few I even went too. Shady, Isolde and Kev welcomed me with email and well... the rest is as they say.....

deevaa


From: Rennie Lorca
Date: 8 January 2000

Dear ArtDog,

Mega-Congratulations to you on all your works! Please keep writing ... I am proud of you .... Rennie


From: Artdog
Date: 8 January 2000

I came to this site when Rennie told Toklas and Toklas told me. Thanks Rennie, glad to see you back.


From: Artdog
Date: 8 January 2000

and of course, thanks to you Toklas- as well as Calypso, and Bethanykaye (71), who are great, encouraging women.


From: Kimbers
Date: 9 January 2000

First, to our fearless leader....
Your site has been a delightful escape for me since late 1997. I discovered it quite by accident, when looking for a
Christmas gift for my brother (yep..you guessed it..a margarita maker). I posted a few times as katgrs then, but have mainly been happy to simply read and dream. I thank you for the gift of beauty.

To everyone here...
I have followed your work and your conversations. What a joy it is to float amongst kindred spirits. I thank you as well.

To Misti, who suffers slings and arrows from cowardly anonymity...(well, I doubt Misti suffers from anything unless she damn well wants to <grin>)...
Ignore......far too many here are glad your New Year's Resolution was short-lived. :)

Finally....to those who find themselves inclined towards negative criticizm..a few short points:
1)Before you launch a Crusade...pay closer attention to the object of your scorn. These pages are not flammable. No matter how heated your argument, you cannot burn this book.
2) There are pieces on these pages I won't let my children read. Then again, I don't let them drive my car, drink bourbon or play the stock market. I prevent them from doing these things by restricting their access to that I find unsuitable. It's very simple, give it a whirl.
3) This is a poetry site dedicated to romance and love. The people who share glimpses of their lives here are not interested in forcing their opinions or bending others to their will. They merely share themselves by creating mixes of words that make you feel. Sometimes a harsh emotion requires harsh wording. The choice to experience their offerings is yours and it doesn't cost you a thing. Love, in every conceivable modality, is what we all seek. It is the strongest of emotions and isn't always pretty or safe. Throughout history, poetry and literature has reflected that simple truth. Cupid shot arrows, he didn't tap anyone gently on the shoulder with rose-scented feathers.


Whew! I hadn't meant to be so windy. Thank you all. Best wishes for the New Year,
Kimbers


From: Crystevin
Date: 9 January 2000

wow, what a riot going on in here..*grins*
I am a total FREE SPEECH ADVOCATE when you have a point.

Faceless/nameless is just being harrassing, i'm with kev,
nuke him.

Crystevin

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From: SwtLiz@yahoo.com
Date: 9 January 2000

By Amanda, uopflutist@hotmail.com
Date: 9 January 2000
Your Gallery


Very nice submission :)
Liz


From: Kirk
Date: 9 January 2000

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From: Crystevin
Date: 10 January 2000

Kirk-my old memory fails me sometimes, but i am fairly certain i was linked to Blender from a YAHOO "cool sites" list that was emailed to me a long time ago.

-Crystevin


From: andrea...... dardar22@yahoo.com
Date: 10 January 2000

ummm well....this guy Dwight who "wrote" when i need love.... well thats a song...i believe by leo sayer or REO speedwagon, cant remember...so my comments are to him...if you want to write poetry...try not using lyrics to songs and then try to pass it off as if you wrote it....thats the lamest thing and not to mention ILLEGAL...you can get sued if the the "right" person saw that, or in your case it'd be the wrong person cause you'd be BUSTED!!! WHAT A LOSER YOU ARE DWIGHT!!!!!


From: word wench----
Date: 10 January 2000

Kirk----

I fubared my submission---the line that reads with a second "nurture" should actually read "nourish"...

forgive me---unseemly haste as I charged out the door for work....


From: Jenna Holland (poetic_angel@gurlmail.com)
Date: 10 January 2000

I just wanted to congratulate those that made the font page; I was quite surprised to see myself on there!

And to Kirk-
I found this page back towards the end of 97 or the beginning of 98 (can't quite remember.) That was when it was still part of alienbill.com I found it through one of the search engines, looking for a place with love poetry, and the title caught my eye.
Goodness, I feel like such a youngin' (mostly in part that I am one) when I first came to this site I was only 11 or 12 years old! And boy has it grown to be one precious prize!

Just my 2 cents
-Jenna-


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 10 January 2000

Misti...
I've tryed both calling & mailing you. No response. Are you no longer talking to me? *worried expression* BTW sorry that un named looser was flaming you...guess real life is scary to them. Live out loud! Viva Misti!
-Starr


From: deevaa
Date: 11 January 2000

deevaa = sick sick girl... I've got tonsillitus... and Doc seems to think its a sign of glandular fever. I hope not... but I do feel better now that I've eaten something today... two bowls of icecream.. I've been in bed all day and I still feel exhusted... I'm off work til next Monday... <groan>



From: misti
Date: 11 January 2000

Starr,
Girl, of course I'm still talking to you!! I'll talk to anyone who calls me 'cause no one ever does. 'Cept for my family and this idiotic woman who keeps callin' for Dr. Copeland. I finally had to cuss her out the other night and disconnect my phone. Have you tried callin' after midnight? I don't know why I'm not getting your e-mail! At LONG LAST I'm getting my OWN computer next weekend...so we can do the ICQ thing! I am way psyched!!!


From: Misti (the Girl Who Just Won't Shut Her Mouth)
Date: 11 January 2000

I am going to revise Scene 12 when I have time. Derek should have been drinking a Dos Equis, not a Pina Colada. And I want to end the scene with him saying,"Well, hell. Let's go find a playground."


From: Misti (Blender Hog)
Date: 11 January 2000

I found this site when I was attending Schreiner College in Kerrville, Texas the fall of '97. I guess I found it by accident when I was doing one of my random searches for poetry. I remember the first time I ever submitted a poem I e-mailed it to Kirk 'cause I didn't know what the hell I was doing. And I was hoping to impress him 'cause I liked his pictures and the site in general. Now ya'll can't get rid of me! Ha!


From: Beth (bethanykaye@hotmail.com)
Date: 11 January 2000

Ahhh doggy I am so thrilled for you!!!!!!! Congrats and you definitely deserve it! never forget that! And thanks to you for telling me about this site!


From: kevin urenda
Date: 11 January 2000

The muse dropped by for a short visit, there will be poems posted here soon...

As for my first visit to the Blender, that would have to coincide roughly with my re-awakening to a poetic life in the first days of August 1998. I began to write poetry again, and also awaken to the possibilities of interactivity on the Web, after over two years of just soaking things in like a sponge... I stumbled across this site through a link from some forgotten other site, and have yet to find an oasis such as this (well, it USUALLY is) anywhere on the Web. I submitted my first two poems on 5 August 1998, one of which was actually selected to the Blender front page in September... That is my story and I am sticking to it...

-k

A short post-script on/to MVR - hon, a Blender without Misti is like the night without DARK...


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 11 January 2000

Misti...
So glad you're not mad! I have _so much to tell you! Geez, the world is a confusing, yet fun place! I'll try to call tonight...'round midnight.
Kevin...
your advice has made the big pay off. Brett is now being the best _friend_ a girl could have. :) You rule supreme, and I owe you my eternal thanx.
Benderites In General...
I will be moving to a new apt. in Mass. I am having a house party. Anyone who mails me personally will gladly be invited to stop by. We're doing a pavilion & winter BBQ. Yay house mates!
Luv & Other Goodwill
-Starr


From: deevaa
Date: 11 January 2000

Seeing as everyone is sticking up for Misti, and the nameless/faceless one is dying in a gutter somewhere, I'd like to comment on the fact he did have a very good point.

Although the NAMED members of the blender community are very close knit the fact remains still that the blender board is an OPEN forum, anyone has access to the information posted here.

Misti, sweetie I know you've mentioned on the board that you are lacking in the common sense department but posting your name, address and phone number might not of been the smartest of things. We don't know who is reading in on our comments.

Just something thats been on my mind and I've been waiting for someone else to comment on! (deevaa = chicken girl)

been up for 20mins now... and its time for bed again.

Take care of your hearts

dee


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 11 January 2000

On the hand, deevaa, there are a ton of online white pages / people finders that would have a decent chance of finding you even if you only posted your name, maybe even only an e-mail address.


From: deevaa
Date: 12 January 2000

your right of course Kirk, but there is nothing like making things easy for oddballs huh?


From: Deb
Date: 12 January 2000

guppy; attempt and razor, both excellent!!!! Thank you.


From: gala
Date: 12 January 2000

Hey Guppy,

Have to agree heartily with DeB on "Razor"---nice form---tight feel.

Hey Dee---

How's our favorite sickie?
Also agree---try to be circumspect about personal info on web---too many creeps out there....feel better girl.

Hang in there Kirk---we're all behind the Keeper!


From: Debra
Date: 12 January 2000

Kevin; in a blanket, dry, once upon, Superb as always.


From: Jen Fantmn1597@aol.com
Date: 12 January 2000

Hey! I leave for a while and I come back and there are so many new people! That is great though. I read some of the new things and they are really good. I wrote a few that I might submit soon. Keep up all the good work!


From: Misti
Date: 12 January 2000

Kevin,
An appropriate analogy, dude. No pressure or anything, but everyday when I check my mail I am hoping to find a big, fat letter from YOU!!!
Deeva,
I agree with the point you made. I should have e-mailed my mailing address and phone number to a select few. I have to really rein myself in sometimes. My inner child just goes ballistic on me. Ice cream! Ice cream! Are we there yet?
**I be bouncin' off the walls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Date: 12 January 2000


Date: 12 January 2000

I just eant to say that there are some doggs out there. I know because I have went through that experience .
But there are some good men out here because iI have found mines and his name is Tony.


Date: 12 January 2000

I think all men are dogs because they are going to leave some one as cute as me they are crazy


Date: 12 January 2000

I think all men are dogs because they are going to leave some one as cute as me they are crazy


Date: 12 January 2000

I think all men are dogs because they are going to leave some one as cute as me they are crazy


From: sick deevaa
Date: 12 January 2000

thanks !!!... email me all the gossip to make my dull days brighter

MY favourite blender babe is sick too... gupp.... good to see you submitting doing better that this chick.. hope you feel 100% real soon handsome.

Kev... ohhhhhhh NICE new subs... ditto what everyone else has said. (only with a (((hug))) snuck in for good messure)

back to bed. <sigh>

take care of your hearts.

dee


From: deevaa = ditz sometimes
Date: 12 January 2000

thanks where too Gala the dancing goddess of my inbox.


From: the guppy
Date: 13 January 2000

i'd like to take this time to shout out a giant "huh?????"...

what was that????...i guess i'm referring to the latest anonymous comments...

hmmmmmmm...you know...maybe guys wouldn't leave ya if ya didn't call all of them dogs...just a thought...

sorry, barbed tongue...infections blamed...me=out

later people, take care,
gup


From: MaggieforMargaret
Date: 13 January 2000

Women can be dogs, too. WAAAAAAYYY back in 1983, my best friend slept with my husband...if that is not the behavior of dogs, I don't know what is. Needless to say, they are no longer my best friend and husband, respectively.

I am glad the controversy seems to be over. Even though I put my two cents in, it was not a great way to start the new century.

Great issue this month. Congrats to all who made the front page.

I stumbled on this site by accident, like I do most things in my life. Funny how the best things seem to just fall into my lap sometimes. It makes life VERY interesting.

Be sweet, everyone.

MaggieforMargaret


From: Misti
Date: 13 January 2000

LIBRA MEN ROCK!!! Paul, if you're reading this- I'm gonna be really, really embarrassed!!!!!


From: julz
Date: 13 January 2000

Maybe someone can offer some advice. I just want to write. I don't have a degree in journalism. I don't even have a "portfolio" per se to show. I just want to write...poetry, short stories, creative writing, whatever. But I need a challenge. Anyone know of a place (aside from this site where I do post submissions)where I could start?
Please leave a comment on this site if you have anything to offer. Thanks


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 13 January 2000

Hey everyone, long time no talk!

All you sick people!! No coughing or sneezing in the Blender, got it?? Where's the Lysol and Purell? Heehee...

I am happy to say that for the first time in YEARS I am not dying of the flu after New Year's...which is probably due to following all the little rules from school...alternative medicine, I'm telling y'all, stuff really works!!!...anyone in the NY area, I'll be your doctor, just gimme another 3 years or so to finish. Heehee...:-)

Misti - letter #2 is on its way, complete with pics of my big dimpled baby man...god help me. :-) I'm completely retarded for him.

Kev - thanks for the e...:-) still wiating for that 'real-life, in-my-hands" letter...

Well everyone...it is snowing here...:-) Grey skies, slushy roads, muddy grass, and a wind chill of 20-30 below that I will be walking through Manhattan in tonight, because I lost my brains somewhere with my heart.

Gup - e me...k? When ya get the chance...

Dee - aw, extra-sick girl...feeling any better, hun? Maybe it was your 'more than exciting' first week of the year...hehe...thanks for that phone call, BTW, you crack me up!

Alright, time to get back to work, I've avoided my desk enough...(especially since I'm calling in sick tomorrow to go to Philly again...:-) bad me...*naughty grin*


From: Misti
Date: 13 January 2000

oops a daisy- i just accidentally submitted the same poem twice. sorry for the waste of space...
*shadygirl- can't wait to get letter #2 so that i can laugh about your current state of mental retardation! ha! i think i might be currently almost completely retarded in love myself, but really- it's too soon to tell! i mailed you a letter and clippings today...


From: deevaa
Date: 13 January 2000

Shady, Girl... welcome re the phone call... the good news is I forgot TOTALLY why I'd call when you answered and that was about the contents of the Chrissy card lost enroute to your house... when I am abit more 'with it' health wise I'll e you I am aware deevaa owes the shady one.

<blah>

dee


From: the guppy
Date: 13 January 2000

"brandy, you're a fine girl...what a good wife you would be..."

misti, you just freaked me out bigtime...i just learned that song on guitar today...yikes...

gup


From: Calypso
Date: 14 January 2000

Doggie,

So very happy for you, congratulations. This is just the beginning....

Lypso


From: Misti
Date: 14 January 2000

Guppy,
That is too weird! I'm not spying on you, really! LOL!!


From: Misti
Date: 14 January 2000

Kimbers,
I just read your June Cleaver poem and I just wanted to tell you,"ROCK ON!!!!!!"
Liberated Man,
I feel like I've just had acid thrown in my face, so I guess you must be doin' somethin' right. Your poems drips truth.


From: Brena Le
Date: 14 January 2000

I messed up and submitted the same thing 3 times. The 3rd one is actually the corrected version. Im not used to this particular Board. I have never submitted anything to be published on the web in my life.

Sorry for the inconvenience.

~B~


From: Artdog
Date: 15 January 2000

hmmm, regarding a few recent message posts- the Cowboy Junkies remake of "I'm so lonesome I could cry" is one of my favorite songs, Rainer Maria Rilke may be my favorite poet, and Larry McMurtrey's "The Last Picture Show" in one of my favorite books... common interests...


From: deevaa
Date: 15 January 2000

I know I've told you face to face... but so that it is in stone... (and just cause I love ya)

calliope.... rocks.. LOVE it, the beat is awesome (said JUST like only Shady can!)

<wiggles on out>

take care of your heart babe

dee


From: mike
Date: 15 January 2000

ATTENTION DAVE WILLSON just becouse you take sentences from other poems and put them together to make one doesnt make you the aurthor of it!!!


right people?


From: michael hall
Date: 15 January 2000

I just want to know what people think about,

"my" life with a promise. poem


thanx


From: angela-baron@mindspring.com
Date: 15 January 2000

I have a personal web page for my wedding and would love to put the antimated "blendar of Love" on it. May I? If so who should I credit?


From: Toklas
Date: 15 January 2000

Happy New Year All!

Congrats to all the Front page pics! I have been very busy and off doing visual art and therefore have not yet caught up on all the works here yet.

Artdog: warm congrats to you on your publication! I have watched your writing grow with great delight!
Also, I saw your finished picture on your site--it is spectacular!

Rennie, so glad you are back! And with such a lovely verse as "Stepping Stones." And the verse is so like you--the path to warmth, friendship, positive mentorship and intimacy all cleared so that we can find our way to you!
Kirk, I came to the blender because of knowing Rennie and being so struck by her writing.

I will comment on the submissions here as soon as I have caught up on my reading, but do want to say welcome to Bethie! So nice to see your work here Bethie! This is a wonderful sight full of talented, caring folks! You are a great addition!

Misti, I am so sorry that someone came here and said such harsh things to you--I enjoy your writings and wish that any one who would disturb the peace here would disappear.

take care all!
Tok


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 15 January 2000

I e-mailed angela-baron to say that they were free to use the Blender for a page such about such a happy thing. As a general note, I do usually request people ask for permission, which is almost always granted, but don't really care if I get "proper credit" for the contribution. (It's just a silly Blendr animation after all)


From: JUST~ME YOURTHIGH@AOL.COM
Date: 15 January 2000

ECHOLOCATION~SENSORY DEPRIVATION
HUMMMMM VERY WELL DONE I MAY SAY~SMILES AT YOU
JUST~ME


From: GABRIEL HANEY (WHITETIGER@ROMANTIC.CO.UK)
Date: 15 January 2000

"TAYLOR"

I LIKE A GIRL NAME TAYLOR
SHE IS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRLS I KNOW
I THINK HER SMILE IS BETTER THAN A HOT FUDGE SUNDAE
I THINK SHE IS AS BEAUTIFULAND AS STUNNING AS PEAGUS AS IT FLIES THROUGH THE CLOUDS AND PRETTY AS A UNICORN PLAYING IN THE FIELD AND AS BREATHTAKING AS A SUNSET OVER THE HORIZEN.
BY: GABRIEL HANEY (GABE)


Date: 16 January 2000

these were all so amazing. i really liked all the emotion and everything was so beautiful. now whenever i feel like adding some beauty to my day or inspiration i can just look up your site and relive it all. thank you.


From: Hilda
Date: 17 January 2000

I thought this site was to be about romantic love. Am I wrong? It just seems that there are alot of "scenes" from a play that someone has written very nicely, but they aren't about romance, I mean you would have to follow them for a long time before they started becoming romantic, now they are just stories that take up a lot of space. And they are everywhere. KIRK?


From: Misti
Date: 17 January 2000

Artdog,
On Saturday night, I went to Archer City (which is where Larry McMurtry lives)to cover Larry's son James's performance at the new dinner theater for the paper. I loved James's performance- he played the guitar and sang original songs- but the highlight of my evening was when Larry McMurtry walked through the door. I was too chicken to approach him but my brother got him to autograph my copy of *The Last Picture Show.* HOWEVER, he had him sign "To Dustin" so now he has to buy me a new copy! Have you read any of his other books? *Moving On* is my fave.
Hilda,
I assume you were referring to the scenes I have submitted for my screenplay. ONCE AGAIN, if Kirk doesn't deem my submissions fit for the Blender, he'll take care of biz so don't you be worryin' your pretty lil head. 'Kay? Go read a Danielle Steele book or something.


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 17 January 2000

Hilda:
Every single screenplay submisson this month have had a pretty distinct romantic element. Also, it's an interesting experiment in form; it's refreshing not to have a hulking monolith of the same poetic form.

Misti:
If anything, I think the least appropriate stuff you've been posting is some of the old diary journal stuff. Obviously some of it is ontopic (and frontpage-pickable) but there is a fair chunk of it that is interesting-but-not-really-apropos (some of the army days stuff comes to mind.) I'm still pretty far from starting to exercise editorial author-i-tay, especially given the quality of the body of work you've given to the site, but please do a double check for relationship related content when you're deciding what to post.


From: Misti
Date: 17 January 2000

Kirk,
Since you quoted "South Park" and since you basically rock, I guess I'm going to have to be obedient! Okay, okay. No more shameless displays of my manic ego. I'll be good from here on out and only submit stuff that curls toes and warms hearts.
:)Misti, Certifiable Chica Loca


From: Kimbers
Date: 17 January 2000

Misti,
Cadillac Jack is a particularly good one of McMurtry's. He's just brilliant. Also, he's very romantic, albeit in a very sort of aging bar-fly, dusty dirt road, Don William's ballad-y sort of way. :)

The thematically correct,
Kimbers ;)


From: Debra654@aol.com
Date: 17 January 2000

Kevin; SECOND SKIN hit so close to home, it made me cry.
There must be something in the water or the alignment of the planets or this Y2K karma. I just want to love and be loved in return. Is that too much to ask?


From: Misti
Date: 17 January 2000

Kimbers,
I read *Cadillac Jack* a few years ago. It wasn't one of my favorites. But even on a bad day, McMurtry's a better writer than this cowgirl will ever be! What I like the best about McMurtry's novels is his realistic rendering of women, especially strong Texan women. Reminds me of myself and my sister and mom and grandma and great-grandmother, ad nauseum. I think it's cool how he makes the men so bemused by the women, like they just can't figure 'em out!
The Emma Horton character in *Terms of Endearment*(she's also featured in other McMurtry novels)is loosely based on Brenda Cowan, my mom's best friend from high school. Brenda died of leukemia in the early '80s. I've got one note from McMurtry's sister and two notes from the Man Himself. I'm still trying to work up the courage to barrel into one of his bookstores in Archer City and take him to the Dairy Queen for lunch.


From: deevaa deevaa@paradise.net.nz
Date: 17 January 2000

ohhh I've meet this guy, and I think I've got trouble on my hands... we are BOTH scared.

Gala, girl.... no email??? whats with that? hmmm? Leave those men alone and email me.

Kev, 'Second Skin' and <mutter mutter> the other one ... about the tip of the tounge or tip of the pen, useless tools.... sorry deevaa can't recall the name... but they are both speak to me... you email me too. (deevaa = bossy girl)


Echolocation, 'Magic Carpet' and 'Sensory Deprivation' ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... I esp. liked Magic, sweet with that sting on the end.

take care of your hearts

<wiggles out>

dee


From: galadrial60
Date: 17 January 2000



Look out World, Deevaa's back!

With a giggle in her talk, and wiggle in her walk....

Hope you're feeling better Wench!

(Yes, I called you wench. Tough!)


Gala

(Going crazy stateside)


From: martha jesusladt70@hotmail.com
Date: 17 January 2000


thank-you one and all for the beauty of the heart and soul put to words.

it is a real place of rest. after facing the rigors of savage encounters with just life its self.

these words are a cool soothing balm to refresh, and arm one with beauty for a new day.


From: Artdog
Date: 18 January 2000

Nope, Misti, "The Last Picture Show" is the only one I have read ( I read it 3 times- does that count?) But, my favorite writer is another Texan- Rick Bass. He is the most influential writer I have read, and is the main reason why I do write. If you can get your hands on a copy of "Platte River", I highly recommend it. ( A quick wave to Rennie)


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 18 January 2000

Hey now...oh dear. What a few days it has been!

Misti - I sent out your letter today...so be looking for it, pics included, with me looking oh-so-DRUNK on new years, Irish rosy cheeks and all, but my guy looking hot as ever.

Dee - hope your feelings better, and thank you for remembering the card...:-)

Well, remember how I said last Thursday that I was going to manhattan that night in the freezing cold weather? Well, I did...wanna hear another part of the story? I parked in a wrong spot and MY CAR GOT TOWED at 330am!!!! So me, Todd, and my two girl friends had to walk to Time Square to the NYPD in freezing cold weather, to find out it would be $205 to get my car back. We then took a cab to the 'area' of the impound place, since both the cop and the cab driver didn't know exactly where it was, and we ended up walking around for another hour, lost. We finally got my car back around 6am, along with very wind burned faces and my friend got a little frost bit on her hands, and we got home at 6:30. I was supposed to be in work by 8 (shyeah, right) and me and Todd were supposed to go to Philly. Neither happened, we slept the day away, and actually most of the weekend. But, up until that point, the night had been incredible, and I now have a rather amusing story to tell. :-)

Another amusing story, for those of you who know my little Todd situation, I drove him back to school yesterday, after two weeks of total confusion over New Year's Eve. I never said anything, wuss that I am, so on the 3 hour drive home, my friend who came with me slept, and I listened to Dave. I walked in the door and with in 5 minutes he called me! I STILL DIDN"T SAY ANYTHING!!! So, aftre a half hour chat, we hung up, and I wrote him an email. Hahahahaha...I totally deserve the WUSS OF THE YEAR award, but regardless, it's out there as we speak in web-limbo. And then, as if some psycholoigical torture was warranted, he called me again around 1am last night, and I had to actually ask him if he got his email yet. Which he hadn't...

So, now it is just the waiting game, and I have never been so eager to get to school so I could get everything else off my mind!

Alrighty y'all...I think a little work out would do me, my mind (and my thighs) a little good...:-)

La la la la laaaa...


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 18 January 2000

Hey there Blenderites! I am well, and hale, and head over heels in love! Yes, I know, I know I was just a month ago bemoaning my romantic woes, but as love is strange...so is my love life. *grin* I'll be submitting, en masse, my poems for my new love.
Misti...
I lost your #! Argh! I'm so bad with that sort of thing...can you mail me with it again? Please?
Luv,
Starr


From: the guppy
Date: 18 January 2000

jgleve...liked your "A-mends" submission...it's one of those that i can relate to...and then once i realize i can relate to it, i also realize that i hate being able to relate to it...i'm not sure if that makes any sense at all...ha...soooooooo, i'll leave it at that...i liked it

take care,
gup


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From: deevaa
Date: 18 January 2000

Shady - you better KNOW I want copies of those photos too. <grin>

I was trying to explain to guppy how you say awesome... you say it in a way NO one else I've ever heard does and I LIKE it... he thinks I'm nuts, but I told him to phone you just to get you to say it. <giggle> and again.. he thought I was nuts!!

Thats a GREAT story!! hehe...sorry about your car though, $220!!???! mannnnn.... thats worse than those parking buildings in the city!

Second card on its way next week Wednesday... may even include some Christmas pics of TK.

dee


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 18 January 2000

Hahahaha...oh my good lordy!

I am sorry I offended so many people by not sending out pics! I opened my email and there sat emails from you all saying "Where are my pics?" Hahahaha...so please excuse my silliness, and I will e you all back with a pic or two.

Dee - don't you go giving out my number to strange men!!! Although I don't think The Guppy is really Jaws, yet definitely strange (and I truly mean that as the highest of compliments :-)

Guppy - contrary to Dee's insistance, I promise my New Yawka/LawnG Islanda accent is not THAT thick, but I suppose it is rather evident in the word AWESOME...so happy to amuse :-)

Those of you who wrote, check ur inbox's...

I still haven't heard from Todd...torture torture torture...I should have poetry sprouting out my ears right now...but I'm bone dry...drained...I'll keep you updated...:-)


From: jgleve@webtv.net
Date: 18 January 2000

Someone please email me to let me know why....When I loaded this page I got an error message stating that the page was too big to be shown....I have never had that happen here before and the list was longer than the one that is current...I am just wondering if it is a server problem or a site problem..thanks
J


From: jgleve@webtv.net
Date: 18 January 2000

Someone please email me to let me know why....When I loaded
this page I got an error message stating that the page was
too big to be shown....I have never had that happen here
before and the list was longer than the one that is
current...I am just wondering if it is a server problem or
a site problem..thanks
J

Let me add:..the submissions page was the one where this occurred...


From: jgleve@webtv.net
Date: 18 January 2000

sorry about that posting 2x...I hit the back button to add the below comment...everything is ok now..

Guppy,
thanks for that comment...I really enjoy your poems too and can relate to those...they are dignified and very touching..I appreciate reading that!
guess you understand that poem..A Mends?...I am not a poet, do not even call myself a poetry writer...just thoughts ...from experiences that haunt me...
again...thanks!!
J


From: Gigi Saggirl2020@yahoo.com
Date: 18 January 2000

How do deal w/ a broken heart?

Somebody email me back please


From: MaggieforMargaret
Date: 19 January 2000

To GiGi....who wants to know how to deal with a broken heart....you don't...it deals with you.


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 19 January 2000

GROUP HUG!!!!(with me in the middle :-)

(I'm feeling a little cold, he still hasn't called)
Ouch.


From: <giggling deevaa>
Date: 19 January 2000

<ring ring>
"hello"
"Is that Shady?"
"Yes it is, who is this?"
"oh, its guppy here, can you say Awesome for me?"
"Oarrr-sume"
"hehe, ok thanks."
<click>


((((((((((SHADY))))))))))

fingers X'ed for you girl!


From: Misti
Date: 19 January 2000

Starr,
I just e-mailed you my # and a short but sweet update on my life. Hope to hear from ya one of these twilights.
Daryl,
If you're reading this, I just sent you the e-mail I promised. Call me tonight, Big Boy. :)
Shadygirl,
I received your letter yesterday but I still haven't had time to read it, I've just skimmed. Loved the pictures. You're nicer than I am- I would've elbowed Little Miss Ex Thang outta the picture!! Ha!


From: galadrial60
Date: 19 January 2000

Dee---

Have you slipped your crackers girl?

e me............Gala


From: puzzled deevaa
Date: 19 January 2000

and the definition of "slipped my crackers" is .... ????


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 19 January 2000

Dee!!! I do not say ORR-sum...haha...you make me sound like some back woods hick! Not that I have anything against back woods hicks...*avoiding eye contact with anyone on the board who may fall under this category* :-)

Misti - you got that letter already?? Wow...yeah, his ex...she's a real character...what do I care if they are still friends...actually, I think it is a really good sign if a guy is good friends with his ex's...not that I'd let that ho alone in a room with him...(ahem...did I just say that?)

Heehee...I'm in a weird mood. I've just spent 9 straight hours discussing the Anatomy and Phys of blood vessels in our wee bodies...and I can now take pulses in places I didn't even knew had them...hehe...

Well...the latest on the never ending Todd saga, oh dear, I am so pathetic. He left two messages on my machine while I was on my little blood vessel exploration, and I left one back on his when I got home. Woohoo...progress...I guess.

I am not in the slightest bit tired, but I have to get up in 7 hours...so I might as well go lay down, try to get yawn-y, and attempt to catch a few Z's...nightie night.


From: deevaa
Date: 19 January 2000

and I don't say "beek" but you seem to think sooooo!!!!


From: galadrial60
Date: 20 January 2000

slipped your crackers---suggestive of a few bricks shy a load---but since I only respect crazy people---you're aces with me!


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 20 January 2000

Dee - thanks for the flowers :-)...and yes, you do say Beek...:-)

Alrighty everyone...the moment we've all been waiting for...I talked to him last night...did anyone hear my heart break?? Because i think I literally saw my chest sink in when he told me I read him wrong. Our friendship is fine...from his POV and I am trying so hard not to distance myself from him, because all I want to do right now is curl up in bed and not wake up for a month or two. I literally have not slept, so I'm probably a bit more dramatic right now than I would be otherwise. But, I'm at work...and I haven't been here in about a week, so I have plenty to keep my mind off of things...not sure what will happen when he calls tonight to tell me about his day, and then we'll hang up and I'll be left with this ringing that only the residue of his voice can leave behind, not to mention another sleepless night.

Ugh...


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 20 January 2000

Gigi...
I'll gladly chat with you 'bout that broken heart of yours...I've had more than my fair share. I'll mail ASAP
Misti...
read your mail, chica! I gave you my updates too. So much new stuff...love abounds...but wierdly!
Guppy...
I don't know you...you don't know me...but if you don't call the folk you have promised to...I'll think about tickling you mercilessly really hard! *impish grin*
Kevin...
more good stuff on the Brett as friend only front. Also a new b/f! So happy! *wiggles toes in delight* How goes it with you, hon?
Luv n' stuff,
Starr


From: Calypso
Date: 20 January 2000

Artdog....Calla lilies swimming in crystal..lovely image.


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 20 January 2000

Guppy...
btw, outside of thinin' you need a good ticklin', I should also take the opportunity to say that your poetry speaks volumes to my soul...that is precious rare, and I thank you for it. I read nightly bedroom saga recently, and it sang to me. Thank you...and should we ever meet, I owe you big hugs for the gift of it.
-Starr


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 20 January 2000

Kev - you are amazing...thank you for that card so much...(I could kill you for making me nearly cry at my desk, but...:-) you are absolutely right.

I feel so guilty that you wrote me something like that. I have a friend whose mother just found out she has cancer, and only 6 months to live. I have a friend who may not be able to continue his education due to money problems. I have a friend who has been having chest pains and passing out, recently. And here I am in my own little small small small world, fretting over lost love like I will never be given another chance. Like I lost his friendship and love along with the hope of more.

Well, I just saw an email in my inbox from Him...

Words are such funny things...aren't they? So much balances on them, these featureless textureless little lip-and-tongue-formed floating breaths...nothing and everything, can carress and wound...that is so incredible.

Thank you again sweetie...it means everything.


From: Misti <mnemosyne26@hotmail.com>
Date: 20 January 2000

Shadygirl,
I read your letter last night and cried good tears. I think your relationship with Todd is developing at a beautiful pace. I would love to have that kind of thing with a guy. It seems like I'm always rushing headlong into relationships and ruining things with my neurotic need for instant gratification.
...something kinda off the subject and astrology related (sorry)- it seems like there has always been a plethora of Sagittarius people in my life. I was just thinking about this last night because my favorite poet is a Sagittarius (and he knows who he is!!!) and you're a Sagittarius and there are TONS of Sagittarians in my family and Julie Kate is a Sagittarius and this guy I'm talking to is a Sagittarius. And my cousin Wendy, who was my best friend throughout my childhood, is a Sagittarius. She's in ICU right now because of drug abuse, and she just turned 27 last month.
Anyway, thanks for the letter and pictures, girl. I'm so happy for ya.


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 20 January 2000

Misti - hey sugar...read my most recent Board postings for the update...not good.

I have alot of Sags in my life too...I'm always drawn to them...especially Sag men...I always have a long term deep friendship with Sag men, although never real good relationship material. (I'm basing this on only 4 Sag men, but...:-) There are definitely patterns when it comes to people's signs and my relationships with them that I've noticed.

Lunar eclipse tonight, not that we'd notice...with this crazy blizzard. Would you believe, in the midst of a storm, the plows are on strike and all the main roads are shut down!!???!! God help those morons if someone gets killed on icy roads over salary increases.


From: julie
Date: 20 January 2000

I think we all need to give a word of encouragement to kevin. Put a smile on that face, Kev! Gosh, we're used to you being the sunshine around here. How many times can you guys think of when Kevin was there to offer his words of wisdom. Well, I think it's our turn. What do ya say?


From: Jenn rainbow_gal69@yahoo.com
Date: 20 January 2000

Her Crying eyes

Look at her, look into her eyes.
What do you see?
Happiness,love,joy.
Look deeper,that's just her disguise.
Look gor the agany,the pain,the anger,
her broken heart.
Do you see her tears?
If you do these tears were made by you.
Made by you're disloyalty,by the way you
throw her around-toss her like a broken toy.
Why do you hurt her the way you do?


From: Toni
Date: 21 January 2000

The True genious of poetry, especially regarding love--Shakespeare!!! what else need I say?


From: Feelix Preza(heroe55@netzero.net
Date: 21 January 2000

I just want to grow old with you....


From: Felix Preza(heroe55@netzero.net
Date: 21 January 2000

When i see curling next to me.
laying by my side.
I pray to God that let me
Grow old with you.
I pray that one day,my soul
and yours became one as we
grow old...

Every day i live with you ,
i dream i only,i only dream
to grow old with you..


I could it say so many things
but i just want to say i "love you soul"
I love you more as we
grow old.......


From: kevin urenda
Date: 21 January 2000

julie-

I am okay... Mostly... But thanks for your heartfelt concern, it means far more than you can imagine.

Shady-

Hugs, doll...
'Return to Sender' breaks my heart...

-k


Date: 21 January 2000

Kate~

I was reading over some of last months submissions. Where did "Write me in" come from? I like it, but does it have a "beginning"?


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 21 January 2000

Kev - sweetie, thank you :-) Things are going, I'm getting by, and tonight a big group of us are going out to a bar and I intend to purposely go much crazier than I normally would...a little rebellion and alcohol to help forget...not to mention tons of single guys whose names are not Todd. (yet they will somehow remind me of him over and over as the night goes on.)

I got an email from him today, and in it he writes "I found a cozy little spot in my day for you" meaning he has set up specific times between his classes and college life to write, email and call me.

A cozy little spot...*sigh* that hurt.

Oh wells...off to discover the average friday night of a 23 year old. :-)


From: deevaa
Date: 21 January 2000

shady, girl... ohhhh (((hugs))) 'return to sender' breaks my heart! I'm so sorry that the inspriation has returned to you in this manner! I'm thinking of you! - and girl... get wild and crazy, but not TOO wild and crazy ok? just don't do anything well... you know.

If I can do anything... you know where I am at.

Kev, and you know I never stop being here for you!

Take care of your hearts!

dee


From: Mr. Free Opinion
Date: 22 January 2000

ShadyGIRL - grow up and get over it. he's stringing you along and your letting him. stop your wining and face reality. and keep it to yourself, while you are at it.


From: dee
Date: 22 January 2000

these poems are so sweet and very good


From: deevaa
Date: 22 January 2000

ummm... Mr. Free Opinion....let me see if I can be real polite... shut the #@*&($ up.

<smile>

deevaa


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 22 January 2000

Hey all...:)

Hahaha...so, now I get some anonymous stabs too, eh? Oh geez...hahaha...well, Mr., I appreciate your Free Opinion, and please BE offended when I don't take it to heart. :)

Dee - thanks for the #$%@&!!!'s...:-) (I hope TK wasn't around to hear that)

Kev - Buddha-man, got your letter today...u just love to make me cry, dontcha? Thank u, I'll be sending u a reply as soon as i can.

Hey Misti - where u at chica lady?

Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y NIGHT! (sorry to resort of a song from Bay City Rollers...hahaha...but the scene from 'So I Married an Ax Murderer' just popped in my head. :-) "Head...pants... now!")


From: deevaa
Date: 22 January 2000

Shady, ohhh "shut the #@*&($ up" is kiwi speak for "have a nice day now"....

<wink>

dee


From: amanda ejbjdw698@cs.com
Date: 23 January 2000

In a moment of silence
there is a moment of truth.
In that moment of truth
there are words of wisdom.
In every word of wisdom
there is a passion for love.
In every passion for love
there is an aching soul.
In every aching soul
there a world of wonder.
In every world of wonder
there is a spark of hope.
In every spark of hope
there will always be you and me.

For the love of my life, my Marine in North Carolina.
Ronnie, I Love You Always. Amanda


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 23 January 2000

*yawn* I slept so much this weekend, catching up, and somehow I am still tired...geesh.

I think I was just bored...I really need a weekend job, but I'm not sure if I really want to be one of 'those' people who only work...although the moola is a major incentive. But, could u picture ME a waitress? I'd be dropping food in everyone's laps...since I'm just sooo full of grace. :-)

"Full of grace, full of grace" haha...anyone see 'Pecker'?

OK, I think I've quoted enough movies this weekend...

Dee - Psycho is sitting on top of my monitor right now, watching my fingers move across the keyboard like he's ready to tear them off...dontcha miss him? Hahaha...;-) Little whiskered freak...


From: mamiloac4u@aol.com
Date: 24 January 2000

all ihave to k is how do iput my pomes cause i wnat to write them in here tell me please


From: Misti
Date: 24 January 2000

Shadygirl,
You think you've got it bad. God, girl. How would you like to live in a crappy low rent apartment in a pasture in a sorry excuse of a town that has nothing more to offer than high school football games, Pizza Hut, Sonic, Taco Mayo and a couple of dollar stores? Consider this: I finally got sooo desperate for "companionship" that I posted an ad at Yahoo Personals. One of the guys who responded to my ad seemed like a real winner. We talked on the phone for a week, he gave me his 1-800 # at work, begged me to send him e-mail, told me I was "imaginative" and "interesting" (words of love- ha!)and the night of the eclipse when I told him I was disappointed 'cause the moon wasn't blood red he said,"Want me to paint it red for you? I'd do it." God help me, I melted. I am deeply ashamed to admit it, but I guess I was starved for some kind of something.
So Friday night we had this hot date. He drove all the way to my humble abode in B.F.E. from Red Oak (it was almost a two hour drive)and brought me two kinder eggs from Germany and showed me a picture of his two little girls. Hell, I'll just send ya a letter. It's gonna be a long one!
I'm sorry to hear about Todd. Some men don't know a goddess when they see one. Some men wouldn't know a good thing if it bit 'em on the ass.
God help me, I'm becoming as bitter and cynical as a
twice divorced middleaged WASP. <Sigh>
~a pouting, scowling Misti


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 24 January 2000

I've been thinking of a cosmetic change to the site...
http://www.pifmagazine.com has it set up so that when you come to the top of the site, you land right on the new content. Now, they have a wider variety of content than the Blender, but still I find the idea kind of appealing, to bring someone right to the current Digest. Of course, this would make people even more anxious about the idea of being a frontpage pick. Of course, the layout of the issues would have to change, with links to all the stuff the Blender regulars rely on for a daily fix present, as well as some "archive" pages for the links to pass issues as well as the "permanent collection" (One thing is I'd like to de-emphasize the "permanent collection"... I really don't have firm permission to post most of it, and given the sketchiness of the amount of "review", I feel it might ve stretching the principles of "fair use".)

Anyway, this change would really show both new and regular users what the heart and soul of the site currently is. On the other hand, it makes some parts of the site a little more odd. What do you all think? (This would go hand in hand with some other changes, like seperate toplevel links for comments vs. new submissions, as well as FINALLY getting to make the submission content formatted the same way comments are formatted.)


Date: 24 January 2000

Hi. I just found this site last week and I've submitted a few of my poetic attempts just for fun. I have found the other submissions very interesting, too. I would almost bet, however, that most of the submissions are very depressing about lost loves and hearts broken.

I have not had a perfectly easy life and have had my heart broken numerous times in the past, but I can tell you that the way to life-long true love and happiness is more difficult and takes more self-improvement than most are


From: Angela dlarson@inconnect.com
Date: 24 January 2000

Hi. I just found this site last week and I've submitted a few of my poetic attempts just for fun. I have found the other submissions very interesting, too. I would almost bet, however, that most of the submissions are very depressing about lost loves and hearts broken.

I have not had a perfectly easy life and have had my heart broken numerous times in the past, but I can tell you that the way to life-long true love and happiness is more difficult and takes more self-improvement than most are willing to give. I can tell you that I was made fun of for my intense values and the temptation to give in just to be socially accepted was very luring. Lonliness for me was the most difficult thing I have ever endured as a youth. Nonetheless, I have never been to a bar, never touched alcoholic beverages and I have never had pre-marital sex. I wanted a life with one man whose dedication was equal to mine. I was 24 when I found one, which I thought was old at the time. This man had identical morals to mine and was saving himself for his mate as well. We have been married 8 years and have 4 children. I can't tell you how worth it the effort has been. Of course we argue and have minor disagreements as any married couple (isn't that normal?), but we never question each other's loyalty. Now many of my old "friends" who used to chide me in college are now divorced (some several times) and dealing with harsh and miserable reality.

I wish I could share this happiness I feel with all the sad hearts out there. I think if I were to give any advice it would be to search for love with a completely unselfish mind. Then also think of all the qualities you hope to find in a mate and change yourself to have all those qualities. I can promise you that a relationship that isn't initially based on sex will turn out to be much sweeter (I am finding that sex in marriage improves so much with time) and much more permanent.

I wish true happiness to all.

Angela


From: Misti
Date: 24 January 2000

You will find an obvious Lewis Carroll influence in my latest submission.


From: Misti
Date: 24 January 2000

Angela,
Thanks for sharing your comments. After last Friday night, I've decided that I will no longer consume alcoholic beverages on a first date. After consuming half of a mixed drink that came in a fishbowl (came with a little toy alligator, which was cute), a Corona, a shot of Jose Cuervo, and three pitchers of Shiner Bock, I was absolutely worthless. Sure, I gave a smashing rendition of "Mack the Knife" in a karaoke bar and won friends and influenced people, but none of that adds up to much when your phone stops ringing all of a sudden and you realize that something was lost. Something that could have been lasting and meaningful and poetic.
Like the song says,"I am my own worst enemy." If I truly want to journey toward the real, I must take braver steps. Or something like that. Bye.


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 24 January 2000

Guppy...
i was reading your recent submissins. they are quite beautiful. i was wondering if we could chat some time & talk shop. i icq & yahoo chat (loststar77). also my mail box is always open. misti says you are a benevolent spirit & i would love to talk.

Misti...
sorry our chat got interupted. i felt like such a jerk for having to go & that you would think i was just getting rid of you. torin was fine...tiny bump on his forehead. more crying for attention than anything. ;)

Kevin...
i lost your mail address somehow. ergh! i'm a dork. i was going to send you virtual flowers & say hi that way, but now i get to show off my true twit-ness and say hi @}--- @}---- @}---- @}----

Blenderites...
the house party is still on...w/ a reading the day before.
Luv,
Starr


From: CHRIS
Date: 24 January 2000

YOUR ARE VERY WRONG. BRIEFS ARE MUCH MORE COMFORTABLE AND
LOOK BETTER THAN BOXERS. BOXERS ARE LIKE WEARING SHORTS
UNDER YOUR CLOTHES. I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO SEE WHAT WOULD
HAPPEN IF MOST ACTIVE MEN STARTED WEARING BOXERS WHEN THEY
WORKED OUT OR PLAYED SPORTS. IT HURTS JUST TO THINK ABOUT
IT. AND PLEASE STOP ASSUMING EVERYONE IS UNDER THIRTY.
WHEN I GREW UP(IN THE 70'S) OUR FATHERS WORE BOXERS AND
WE WORE BRIEFS TO BE DIFFERENT THAN OUR FATHERS. FINALLY,
BRIEFS COME IN ALL STYLES AND COLORS, SO "TIGHTY WHITEY",
DOESN'T HAVE TO APPLY. STYLES COME AND GO, I'M HOPING
BOXERS GO OUT OF STYLE REAL SOON.


From: Misti
Date: 24 January 2000

Starr,
I wasn't at all offended. I was just kinda alarmed when you said that Torin fell out of his crib. Glad to hear that he wasn't damaged! :)
Chris,
You wacko, to each his own.
Kevin,
Are we still friends?


Date: 24 January 2000

Kevin:

"this number" and "untitled 1" got me, but each in different ways. "untitled 1" makes me homesick for those moments when you're "first falling in love" ... it reminded me of that & I've been puddled up every since.

Your work ... *sigh* ... I look forward to it.
~Lynn


From: deevaa (deevaa@paradise.net.nz)
Date: 24 January 2000

Shady... I miss that damn cat, I miss you, I miss your cute as.... something real damn cute friend Laura, and her ability to communicate with everyone and anyone on the street, and her 'only in America' finger-nails... I miss telling everyone that I do NOT say 'beek' and being pulled aside to find out exactly where NZ is... I miss your kitchen table the things that go on around it, I miss getting stuck in traffic and getting lost on the LIE, I miss Rent, BMW bar, that crazy chick Renee, and sleeping on your couch.

<grin> I've gotta visit again some time.

If I ever get there again...guppy the bumski better fear not being able to make it to my hotel room... and Kev I'll add you into my list...and my friend who was meant to meet me in Newark better not have his flights changed and.... and damn...

Dr Shady - My throat is playing up again.. NOT a happy girl... I've just come back from the doctors, he's taken a throat swab and put me back on the antibiotics... <mutter mutter> I had to get a prescription of condoms <wicked grin> just in case Mr Non-commitment comes down this week, I've been trying to coerce him into it, he's putting up some resistance but I believe my charm will overwhelm him soon.

Misti - Mr Non Commitment is a Virgo, deevaa is a Libra... every single one of the few women he has had in his life so far and two of the men have been Libra and left handed, I'm just Libra...
Libra and Virgo = not a good pairing yeah? <sigh> what ever it is we are in, is just fine with me, but Misti... tell me what the stars have to say.

I've just had a text message from Mr NC saying he is 99% sure he'll be here on Monday... <grin> I might take Tuesday off work....

Take care of your hearts

dee


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 24 January 2000

Chris:
You do have some points. I stand by my article, but it's nice to get a different opinion. S'funny that my idea that wearing something other than your dad's style underwear is an important step. Though to really be heard well, don't use the cap locks key so much...

Everyone else:
No comments on my reorg idea?


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 24 January 2000

Hey all...

Misti - me? Goddess? Haha...girl you go on...but thanks. :-)

Dee - hahaha...ReeRee, not Renee, you silly thing. I totally forgot about Laura being 'Oh so friendly' with all those people at the BMW...oh dear, I meet more people with her due to her friendliness. :-) I'm so happy you have so many great memories from your trip. But the next trip is MY turn! :-)

I tell you, I would love to pack a bag tonight and just drive away for a few months, I have always entertained this idea as a means of escaping my daily thoughts, but, the need to run has not been quite this strong in a long while. I would love to drive zig zag across the country and visit each of you. Well, when I win lotto. :-)

Things are alot harder than I thought they'd be. I've been out of this whole emotional game for so long, I somehow convinced myself I could rush all the pain into one or two days and then start feeling better. Ah, so naive...

Uhp, I just heard 'Beek' come in...haha...:-)

Night night!


From: deevaa
Date: 24 January 2000

Misti - I musta missed 'My Sagittarian Clown' in my reading this morning... liked it alot.


From: dee (again)
Date: 24 January 2000

man... I thought ReeRee and typed Renee... I have no idea why!!!

Say heya to Beek! (argh I DO NOT say that!)


From: kevin urenda
Date: 25 January 2000

Kirk!
PIF is graphically appealing (albeit very BUSY, I have a personal preference for the elegance of simplicity), and a reworking of the Love Blender along ANY lines would no doubt be a vast undertaking... Getting that formatting right is bound to cause some growth pains... But I don't mind change too terribly much, my vote is DO IT!

Lynn-
Thanks for your kindness. You have no idea what it means to know that I can actually touch with my words...

Dee-
Love ya, hon, thank you for being YOU!

Misti-
Of course we are still buds!

Starr-
I'll re-e you that address...

Chris-
I am rather partial to my whitie tighties too (no coloured drawers in my drawers), but I say wear and let wear! Seems funny that my son's generation is wedded to those funny looking boxers (and man could I tell some funny anecdotes on THAT) in subconscious rebellion against us!

LASTLY, and never EVER least...
Shady my dear dear friend~~
You are one amazing woman, and those of us who know you all know this. Those who don't... Can do what Dee said...
Hang in there because the best is yet to come.

Tune in next time for poetic commentary and further discourse. T-t-that's all, folks!

-k


From: Galadrial
Date: 25 January 2000

Hey Kirk,

Okay---if you're asking for opinions---as a soul who's appeared in Blender under several "incarnations" I selfishly enjoy the archive---with it I can track not only my own poetic development, but those of favorites---like Ms. Dee, The ever eloquent Mr. Urenda, Calypso, The Guppy, The Vampire, and of course Shadygirl.

Are you cutting the archive of heart songs, of front pages picks? Perhaps I was java deprive and missed your point. If so, mea culpa---As a poetry junkie, and hopeless romantic I applaud you earnestly, whatever your choice. Thanks again for a place of quiet contemplation, where I can always count on one poem or other to make me go "AHHHHHHHhhh!"


From: the guppy
Date: 25 January 2000

math...grrrrrrrrr...i'm pretty much blaming that for my shortage of submissions lately...doing my best to figure out how to write poetry in binary...ha...guess i could just assign number values to each letter and go from there...how romantic...anyway...while one side of my brain is smoking, the other is dormant...sooooo...lack of subs...that's my excuse and i'm sticking to it

some good stuff from the rest of you though...i'll comment more later

starr...sure, would be cool to icq...i'll look you up when i get a bit more time...thanks for the compliments btw

kirk...i also say "go for it" regarding the proposed renovation...sounds like a good idea

the rest of you blenderfolk...hope all is well...take care of yourselves,
gup


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 25 January 2000

Kev - aaaww...sugar you are the best! I sent out a little letter to you today, real mail..real me, real paper, real ink, just the way you like it...:-) I can't thank you enough for all of your extra support...

Dee - sweetie, I'll admit (through a muffled mumble and gritted teeth) that I MAY say Or-sum, if you admit you say Beek. Hahaha...:-)

Galadrial - me? a fave? Wow! Thank you! Always nice to hear, even in the midst of my recent FLAT work...:-)

Gup - I hear ya on that brain smoking thing...I love regular Anatomy and Phys, but Oriental Anatomy and Phys is so OUT THERE that I'm going crazy trying to remember what season and color and scent and element and emotion and sound goes with every organ...it's really bizarre...but on some 'out there' level it all ends up making sense...so, its burning me out, but in a good way...I've never been so excited to learn, me = SUCH a nerd :-) (but, happily...hehe)

Well everyone...NY, along with most of you east coasters, is now covered in a blanket of thick white...which means no school today, no work, and me home, in my PJ's, working on that baby blanket for my buddy's daughter, and listening to tons of CD's...:-) (huge grin) aaaaaaaahhh...:-)


From: Misti
Date: 25 January 2000

Kirk,
I'm not sure what you're talking about but I trust your expertise so just go with it.
Kevin,
You found me! If anybody else wants to read my cheesy personal ad, just go to Yahoo and click on personals.
Deevaa,
John Lennon was a Libra and Cynthia was a Virgo. She couldn't keep up with him so he left her for Yoko Ono, an Aquarian like me. We can keep up with anyone. Ha! Really, though, you may enjoy Mr. Non Commitment in the boudoir or on the terrace or on the beach or in the garden tub or in the shower or on the pool table or whatever, but it will never be a true meeting of the minds because as a rockin' Venusian Goddess you will leave the poor guy in the dust. So realy, it's a good thing that he's not wanting to commit because in the long run the outlook is pretty dismal. Have your fun with the guy, but I suggest you hold out for an Archer (Sagittarius), Twin (Gemini) or Water Bearer (Aquarius). And thank you for complimenting me on my newest poem!
Shadygirl,
Embrace your goddess self! I'm yearning for a road trip, too. I envy the hell outta Richard Simmons. That man can just pick up and go anytime he wants to. Ha!


From: Misti
Date: 25 January 2000

Gosh darn it! I misspelled "really."


From: Macra
Date: 25 January 2000

If we count 1 B.C. as 0 A.D., as per your brilliant plan, what do we call 2 B.C.? Do we have to roll back the entire calendar by a year just so you and not the "tiresome pedants" can be right?

Tell me, on what day did 2000 begin? January 1? Or did you "count" December 31, 1999 as January 0? Or better yet, November 30 as 0/0/00?

Years are in counting numbers (1, 2, 3...), just like the days of the months, and (when we express them numerically) months. There doesn't need to be a year zero any more than an encyclopedia needs a volume zero, or a race needs a zeroth place.

And don't give me that "there should be a year zero, but they just didn't have zeroes then" jazz. They may not have had zeroes when they formulated the A.D. calendar, but the Arabs did when they formulated theirs, which has no year zero. And the French did when they formulated their Revolutionary calendar in the late 18th century, and they didn't have a year zero, either.

Why is this so difficult to understand? I agree that 2000, as the rollover point on the temporal odometer, makes a better celebration point than 2001. But denying or re-writing fact to make it the millennium is just stone stupid.


From: Calypso
Date: 25 January 2000

To Galadriel....thank you, that was a lovely compliment...


From: kevin urenda
Date: 25 January 2000

This Calendar business/millenial partytime has always struck me as much ado about nothing. After all, the inventors of the Julian Calendar thought of years as starting from the founding of Rome (which was mythical anyway, and besides, Romulus didn't even knew what the hell a calendar WAS), and it wasn't until the year "522" or so that the notion of "B.C." as a way of enumerating years came to pass. And, if you went to bed on the night of Thursday, October 4, 1582 you would have awakened after only one night's sleep on Friday, October 15, 1582. But only in Spain, Italy, Portugal and Poland. Not only that, but the Gregorian calendar wasn't adopted here in the Colonies, er, States until 1752! So what is the big deal? If you are Jewish or Islamic, it isn't even the 25th day of the first month of the year!

But with all that, guess what? TODAY is STILL Today! No matter what you name or how you number it.
So... SEIZE IT!!!

-k


From: kevin urenda (oops)
Date: 25 January 2000

Oh, and a post-script...

Galadriel-
Even though I have always thought of my late Grandfather as the quintessential Mr. Urenda (that was Grandma's
'pet' name for him), thank you so very much for that wonderful compliment...

-k


From: Forest Adams(jhardylbg@hotmail.com)
Date: 25 January 2000

Dear Fellow Blenderites,

I wish to have you red my poetry, because I need feedback.
I would also like to sincerely thank the "Kirkster" for the novel idea of this web site.

Misti--- How's it been going for you these days? I think that you are pretty cool. Not to mention that your poems are
awesome. Feel free to critique my stuff anytime, please.

Everyone---*read my newest poem, and tell me what you think of it. Your thoughts and perhaps, guidance, are much apreciated. Thanks! :-)*

Much Love to All,
Forest Adams;-)


From: Galadrial (who prefers Galadriel, but it was taken!)
Date: 25 January 2000

Hello Kevin---

Since we have never introduced ourselves, the "Mister" seemed polite. You delighted me with the correct Tolkien spelling of my nom de plume---as your amazing ability to mix meter and message has also delighted me. You have heart, talent, and smarts...so there!



Gala


From: (nihon_@hotmail.com)
Date: 25 January 2000

The poem called, "A simple dream" is an extordinary piece of poetry. The author is incrediblly talented. And I hope her simple dream one day is no longer a dream. The passion behind her work is tremendous. And I hope the man, who awakens her sees the beauty in her writing.


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 25 January 2000

Macra:
No year "moves" in my scheme. 1 BC is still 1 BC (as well as being counted as 0 AD); 2 BC is still 2 BC. No date or record changes. (Not that it matters, given the innacuracy of the counting in the first place.)

Your second paragraph raises an interesting point, but months get reset on their own accord, with that wacky 30/31 day thing, so this kind of counting is unnecesary.

Someone suggested an ok compromise: Jan 1 2001 is "the third millennium". Jan 1 2000 was "the third millennium (observed)" I guess it all depends on how observant you are.


From: deevaa girl
Date: 25 January 2000

Kirk, I am all for change, however I really like the layout of the site already - especially the frames on the new subs, change it if you really wanna - but if you don't, thats also cool with me!!

Kev - for being ME?? wow, I can be me every single day.. thats an easy thing to do!!

Gala - aawwwwwww... me a favourite?? Sheesh I am honoured!! You named me in a list with three of MY favourites, shady, gup and Dear old uncle Kev <cheeky grin> and coming from you.. queen of all things wench, I sure must be doing something right!

Shady - I'll NEVER admit it.. never never never... (but NOW I can pretend YOU just did! hehe!!)

Misti - I did get a slightly more positive report when I checked at astrology.net - but thanks.


From: swtliz@yahoo.com
Date: 26 January 2000

Next To Oxygen And Water
By tenderspoet.


SpeechLess


From: Starr star_e@keltia.zzn.com
Date: 26 January 2000

Kevin...
i hope you liked 'charlotte'. it was so cute that i couldn't help but send her to you! anyroad...i also sent you a big 'ole pen and ink affair. i hope you don't mind 'hard copy'...i prefer it actually. the touching of a page that someone cared enough to inscribe solely for me always makes me feel so good.

Misti...
ergh! the whole b/f business is insane! i'm close to just handin' in the towel! but all is well in torin land...he almost stood up by himself last night!

Guppy...
i call 'em like i see 'em. i realise you were probably saying thanx to be polite, but none was necesary. my computer is being encompassingly evil, and it'll be damn hard to find me on icq. _please mail me_

Shout out to Blenderites:
hey...
ummmmmmm...
can i grab someone from here to help me write a story that has been running arround in my brain for a real long time? my forte is not for stories, but this one needs to be written.
Luv,
Starr


From: Misti
Date: 26 January 2000

Kevin,
I just received your letter. I now have a permanent smile attached to my glowing face. I have sooo many things to tell you so I guess I'll just have to write you a novel tonight. BTW, I am low-maintenance. Did you ever read that poem by Rudy, the convenience store clerk? That was me writing a poem about myself! Ha!
Forest,
Thanks, man! Life is good right now. I'm poverty stricken, I've received two speeding tickets and a parking ticket in the past month, there's a hole in my bathroom ceiling, I've recently been used by a business major, and Elvis has Left the Building for sure, but I'm so damn illogically happy that I just can't contain myself. I think my cyber life has a lot to do with that. I'm going to read your newest sub and then tell ya what I honestly think!
Deevaa,
Those people at astrology.com are idiots. I'm the expert! Just joking. There are many, many layers to astrology. Not just sun signs. There is also the moon and the other planets and the houses they all fall in. My step-dad is a Virgo. I guess I'm biased. :)
Starr,
Do you video Torin at all? I'm so glad Julie Kate's parents videotaped all her "milestones" for me. What's wrong with your man? Is he being a moody musician or what?


From: Misti
Date: 26 January 2000

Forest,
I just read **Clouds of Thought**...I love the title! Have you read *Song of Solomon*? My opinion is this: I think your newest submission shows improvement. I like the structure. There are some nice lines in there, some nice thoughts. I know most people won't agree with me on this, but I tend to think that the best poems are poems that howl at the moon. I like poems by gay and minority poets the best. I like rambling poems, frantic poems, ebullient poems, caustic poems, poems that laugh at hypocrisy and pretense. I like poems that take my breath away. In order to do that, they have to surprise me. Have you ever read *Howl*?


From: Starr
Date: 26 January 2000

Misti...
ergh! have ever heard the song 'have you got cheeting on your mind?'? i am justifyably worried. what to do? no proof. ergh!
i don't have a video cam to tape torin...
i would love to though...
grumpily yours,
Starr


From: Misti
Date: 26 January 2000

Starr,
Who sings that song? I've heard ALL the cheating songs, honey, and that sounds familiar! E-mail me at mnemosyne26@hotmail.com!!!!!!!!!!!! BTW, is your birthday in late June or July? Still no word from whatshisface. Am I worried? Heeeelllll no. If my life ever starts making sense and reading like a Harlequin romance, THAT's when I'll be worried!
Your Ebullient Gal Pal,
Misti


From: Jenn (wardenchick@yahoo.com)
Date: 26 January 2000

Hello to everyone, it's been much too long.

and Kevin,
Yes, of course I'm still reading! I never stopped. This place is like home. I've been a silent blenderite for quite some time, but I actually have a few to submit now.

Off to work *sigh*. Does it EVER end??

Jenn


From: Madison
Date: 26 January 2000

s'this it?

- Gary Puckett and the Union Gap -

(Madi grabs the mic and jumps up on the stage)

Woman, ohhhh wooh-oh-oh-man, have you got cheating on your mind, on your mind?

Something's wrong between us that your laughter cannot hide
And you're afraid to let your eyes meet mine....And lately when I love you, I know you're not satisfied ~

Woman, oh woman, have you now cheating on your mind, on your mind...


From: chris
Date: 26 January 2000

somebody just added in To His Coy Mistress in the sonnet/poem page and said he wrote it. That would be plagurism; To His Coy Mistress was written by William Shakespere not some idiot who placed it in your peom section


From: kevin urenda
Date: 26 January 2000

Madi-
dead on, w/ G.P. and the Union Gap. That song ("Woman, Woman") went as high as #4 on the Billboard charts way back in 1967(!)...
Sing it!

-k


From: Misti
Date: 27 January 2000

Finally, some SNOW!!!! This morning I looked out my bedroom window and saw a winter wonderland outside. I've been spending my morning taking pictures of the snow and ice for the paper. This is news breakin' stuff in Texas, now. We get two inches of snow and the whole town shuts down. Too funny!


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 27 January 2000

Chris: what title did they post "To His Coy Mistress" under? And it wasn't Shakespeare, it was my Andrew Marvell, and actually it's also on the "poems and sonnets" link on the front page.


Date: 27 January 2000

Forest Adams~

You wanted comments on your submissions?
The only thing I can say is that if someone were to write that about me, I would just melt!
"Clouds of Thought" is beautiful


From: Misti <mnemosyne26@hotmail.com>
Date: 27 January 2000

I have recently conducted a little experiment at Yahoo. I posted two bogus ads and a genuine ad to see what kind of responses I would get. As a blonde business major named Tiffany, I average about ten responses a day. The ad I placed as "Tiffany" was very short and bland and inane.
Then there's "Kathryn" (I posted a poem as Kathryn yesterday, as a matter of fact)the redhead who prefers not to tell what she does for a living. Kathryn gets all kinds of responses from all kinds of men.
Then there's me, Misti Velvet Rainwater (tigress- grrr!), the cynical blackheaded woman in search of Lord Byron. I'm lucky to get four responses a day!
Conclusion: the vast majority of men out there (in Texas, anyway)are looking for illicit chills and thrills with no strings attached. No humor! No intellectual conversations! Just some easy sex, and lots of it.
I'm not giving up hope. I'm stupid like that.


From: Misti
Date: 27 January 2000

erin,
just read *guess who*...APPLAUSE! APPLAUSE! APPLAUSE!
(i likes it lots!)


From: Chris collierdog@hotmail.com
Date: 27 January 2000

well, i was just pokin around the net and went into your page, and practicly fell out of my chair there were so many of those peoms!!! but congrats at collecting and writing em all!

-Lone-Wolf-


From: Dave kaufman19@hotmail.com
Date: 28 January 2000

This is a poem that I have written for my love Misty. I would love to see it here. I will send it along with this comment. Let me know... Thanks, Dave

Oh my Lovely lady
How the day and nights scream your name
They long to hear your speech and feel your touch
and how I cry at night when you are not beside of me

From this day forth I proclaim my love
To the woman that has given to me so much

All I can give
All I can be
Is embodied in the person that stands before me

There will never be another that can touch me as deeply
No one can make feel as complete

My lovely lady, life would be utterly dark without you
The sun would not rise, the moon would show its wonder
The Angels in Heaven would fall

You are my love
You are my life
You are my soul



From: ROBBI WELLS
Date: 28 January 2000

HI I GOT A GIRL FIEND THAT MEANS ALOT TO ME AND I WANT TO SHOW HER I LIKE WHEN POEMS TALK BOUT ETES AND HOW LONG I WANT TO BE WITH HER AND MY MUCH I LOVE HER IM NOT TAKING IT FROM U GUYS I JUST NEED SOME HELP WELL PLEAZZ GET BACK TO ME BYE


From: ROBBI WELLS
Date: 28 January 2000

HI IT IS ME AGAIN I FORGOT TO GIVE U MY EMAIL IT IS ROBBIGHEAD69 AND TRU2THEGAME4L69


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 28 January 2000

Hey Blenderites...:-)

Another Friday upon us...:-)

Misti - I want pics of snowmen, girl! Haahaa...;-) (We have 8" here, I sympathize)

You all will not believe my plans for the evening...check this out. Dee, remember Laura, the chick with the crazy 'only in America' nails? Heehee...well, she met a guy online, a BIG (6'2", 260lbs, football player) black guy who she plans to meet for a movie tonight. He is bringing a friend. Guess who was volunteered to double on this little blind date? Aye Carumba! Hahaha...should be inetesting if nothing else. Although I must admit, I am so tired, I'll be happy if I don't snore during the flick.

I am also waiting to hear from my baby in Philly, who may or may not be coming home this weekend (via my car, no doubt) for good, from school. Which means a last minute road trip tomorrow evening and a lot of silence and sadness on his part. Poor thing...

All these plans unfolding, and here I am nodding off at my desk as we speak...I need more sleep...:-P

Have a good weekend everyone!


Date: 28 January 2000

you guys should have more love poems from the 90's their all right but they are too boring or too long. I thought poems were supposed to be short and beautiful!!!!


From: galadriel
Date: 28 January 2000

Dear Kev---

You do have a way...loved Cathedral....sigh...


From: Calypso
Date: 28 January 2000

To Kevin,

"Cathedral" took my breath away..


From: galadrial60@aol.com
Date: 28 January 2000



To the nameless critic---

Am assuming you cut your teeth on rock videos---and henceforth have the attention span of a gnat. A poem is supposed to be as long as it needs to get the job done...stick to t.v.---you won't hurt yourself that way....


From: Rechelle M Matthews YWCAOakland@MindSpring.com
Date: 28 January 2000

************************************************************
I met this guy name Andre M Johnson about 8 years ago
we became friends the first time we met under strange
circumstances,I new right then that he was my soulmate but we had other things going on in our lifes the few times that we had an encounter with each other I ended up getting pregant with our handsome son Dondre we both went our seprate ways
he was doing things that I did not want to be into no longer
so I started a new relationship with someone else while I was pregant with our son some how I always manage to keep track on what was going on with Andre for the pass 8 years off and on out of those 8 years he has only seen his son maybe once or twice up until about Dec 9th of last year me and my son has been visiting him he wants to get to know his son also we have been talking to each other real strongly for the pass year I'm not in a healthy relationship with the guy I've been with for 8 years and who has been a father to me and Andre's son so moving along to the point I've been in love with Andre for along time now and he has finally open up his eyes and realized that he feels the same way. About 2 weeks ago he asked me to Marry him and I said Yes with my heart, mind, body and soul but still trying to break it off with the guy that I am with I love him but I'm not in love with the other guy I'm in love with Andre. Me and the other guy are having real problems that I care not to even try and make things work I've tired to make it work for 8 years still has not changed and there is just no understanding there so I am going foward with the plans to marry Dre he is the only man that I've ever wanted for along time I tried to give the love that I had for Dre to him did not work before anyone passes judgement Andre is in jail and will be doing 15 years but he loves me and I love him very much and his son loves him also things happen for a reason and it is not going to be easy but we are planning to make it work out for us. Please give me some feed back without hurting my feelings

Thank you!
Rechell M Matthews
soon to Mrs. Johnson


From: Jenna Holland (poetic_angel@gurlmail.com)
Date: 28 January 2000

Amanda- "Useless Seduction" I've been there before! Infact It sounds just like me, with the Led Zepplin and the leg shaving... Well written!

Jenn- "Taste Truth" "Grab Bag" "My Side of the Bed" What can I say? Your a great writer. Awesome! Keep em coming!

-Jenna-


From: Silenttears
Date: 28 January 2000

What an extraordinary find this is! Hopeless romantic poets-there are others! (I have the romance down- still working on the poet end. Give me time.) I have throughly enjoyed my time browsing through the ever so provoking submissions. You are all splendid- and I shall visit you often!


From: deevaa
Date: 29 January 2000

to the soon to be Mrs. Johnson .... what kinda comments that wouldn't hurt your feelings would you like? The only one I can think of is... ummm... goodluck?

dee


From: deevaa
Date: 29 January 2000

ohhhh and I think you and your 'dre' should name the next bundle of joy 'pardre'

with much sensitivity

dee


From: JUST~ME
Date: 29 January 2000

~SHY KNIGHT WAS WONDERFUL~SIGH


From: Megan---- Megangel25@yahoo.com
Date: 29 January 2000

Misti---

I am absoulutely captivated by your running screenplay (besides all the rest of your submissions) You have a gift I wish I had. <sigh> Thank you for putting into perfect words some of my truest feelings. ANYWAYS- I am hanging waiting for the next "scene"

Megs


From: Megan---- Megangel25@yahoo.com
Date: 29 January 2000

Ick I spelled absolutely wrong...pet peeve.

Still Megs


From: chantal
Date: 30 January 2000



Forgive me gang---

I am in love with a man who has a substance problem. I wrote Codependents to free myself from some of the pain---if it jars, or offends, Kirk can feel free to pull it...if it stays, I welcome comment.

Hope I haven't been a downer.

She who sings---Chantal


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 30 January 2000

Misti, I just checked out "Brilliant Quote". I had copied down a very similar quote from Dymphna Wilson's "A Different Drummer" a long time ago:

That's the whole point; at least I think that's what Bethrah was saying although it's difficult to accept. I mean, it seems horrible that the most you can do for people you love is to leave them alone.

I had that on my "finger" .plan for a while. I wonder if the person I was thinking of when I put it there ever saw it.


From: Beth (Angel1624@hotmail.com)
Date: 30 January 2000

Hey everyone!
It has been quite a long vacation for me. I think last time i wrote was some time in the summer with a different email address.Anyways, i just sat down and wrote my mind for my latest that i just posted today. I know it's not a work of art or anything, but it eased my mind a little. Anyways, i'd like to get back into the swing of things. Oh, and does anyone know if Jlor is still writing? Things have been going well, but as you can probably tell i'm a bit confused at the moment.


Beth


From: Beth (Angel1624@hotmail.com)
Date: 30 January 2000

Deevaa-
I have something that has come up that i would like to ask you about...could you email me ASAP please?!?!

Beth


From: the guppy
Date: 31 January 2000

my thought on the "poems are supposed to be short..." idea: ha...ha...ha...

haven't read much poetry, have ya?...the idea behind it is pretty much to write what you have to write...say what you have to say...do what you have to do...as for me, i'm just cracking up

later,
gup


From: J_C_D_4@hotmail.com
Date: 31 January 2000

Echolocation-

Great stuff!

Keep up the good work!

-jcd4


From: gala
Date: 31 January 2000

Now Guppy...

Maybe they were badly frightened by a haiku at an early age....



Gala


From: Tommia Burts uamamamia@yahoo.com
Date: 31 January 2000

I read the letter entitled Brent... by Chrtista and it melted my heart because I have a guy in my life named Brandon who that letter absolutely exemplifies our total experience. Even down to the friend who has dated him before. If she reads this I want her to know that someone totally understands how she fells and that one day if she keeps the faith, he will be hers!!!!


From: Shadygirl
Date: 31 January 2000

Gala - haha!!


From: dawn
Date: 31 January 2000

Hey-just wanted to let you guys know I think this sight is great.I've only submitted one poem - but there are sure to be many more. Freedom of speech and emotions gather on these pages-and pull together souls who never speak alone- and now speak nsync.Great job on the sight...thanx alot
dawn michele
westroseprod@altavista.com





From: the guppy
Date: 31 January 2000

ha...gala, you're probably right...i just got done helping a friend dissect "song of myself" by whitman...it's pretty long (and somewhat longwinded in my opinion)...but, it's a window into damn near everything the guy believed...anyway, i just had to reply to the whole shortness comment

and i also have to reply to the issue of zero that i just now noticed from a while back...if we didn't have zero's in our counting system, we couldn't have the year 2000...only three zeros in that...and our whole number system would be screwed up...we could pretty much count up to the number nine and then be stuck...or is zero ok to have, unless it's standing alone?...and it's the same with time...at midnight, it turns to a new day, it begins the first hour, set at 00:00...and incrementing by 1...the base 10 number system requires zero to work...the positional nature of it all...sooooooooooo...i suppose we could all just switch back to roman numerals or something and make life a whole lot simpler for us all...ha...right...i don't even care all that much about when exactly then second millenium began or will begin or whatever...we are dumb humans who have to have a reference point in time...i personally believe that the earth is somewhere around 450,000,000,000 years old anyway...but i realize that it would suck to have to right that out each time you write a check...ha...years are approximate...based on astronomy and benchmarked by the life (maybe) of a religious figure...i'll not split hairs if you don't...ha

and another thing (ha)...romantic poets (from the romantic period) didn't just write about love and romance stuff...it's just a name for the time they wrote...like the dark ages...the sun still came out...

wow...i'm done...bet you're all relieved...ha

gup


From: Misti
Date: 31 January 2000

Megs,
Thanks, chica! It's good to know that Paul isn't the only person interested in my screenplay. Not that his interest isn't sufficient, but it's cool to know that I have a woman fan pullin' for me. I wrote like a demon this weekend and I have several new scenes to submit.
Kirk,
In my case, that Ashleigh Brilliant quote is accurate. I've never been dignified enough to adhere to the advice, but then without my foolishness there wouldn't be as many poems.
Shadygirl,
I just got a precious picture of Julie Kate in the mail. She's wearing a Santa Claus cap and the sweetest smile!
The snow and ice have melted and my wanderlust is kickin' in...


From: the guppy
Date: 31 January 2000

kirk

just want to let you know that i was in no way criticizing the definition of romance as it pertains to the blender...i was just pointing out that romantic often refers to a period in time...and i'm sure you and most of the blenderites know that already...i got in an argument with somebody about that recently, so i just wanted to share it...

later,
gup


From: Tigerstar_64 at luneytunes64@hotmail.com
Date: 31 January 2000

Hi! I'm pretty new to this site submission wise. I submitted a poem last month and a few this month. I just wanted to say that ever since a close friend of mine introduced me to this site, I've just kept wanting to come back. Everyone on this site is very talented, and hopefully you'll be hearing more from me soon!


From: kevin urenda
Date: 31 January 2000

To complete the circle of discussion on this, courtesy of www.m-w.com:

Main Entry: ro·man·tic
Pronunciation: rO-'man-tik, r&-
Function: adjective
Etymology: French romantique, from obsolete romant romance, from Old French romans
Date: 1650
1 : consisting of or resembling a romance
2 : having no basis in fact : IMAGINARY
3 : impractical in conception or plan : VISIONARY
4 a : marked by the imaginative or emotional appeal of what is heroic, adventurous, remote, mysterious, or idealized
b : often capitalized : of, relating to, or having the
characteristics of romanticism
c : of or relating to music of the 19th century characterized by an emphasis on subjective emotional qualities and freedom of form; also
: of or relating to a composer of this music
5 a : having an inclination for romance : responsive to the appeal of what is idealized, heroic, or adventurous
b : marked by expressions of love or affection
c : conducive to or suitable for lovemaking
6 : of, relating to, or constituting the part of the hero especially in a light comedy

It is my impression that the guidelines are that the poetry here is supposed to roughly conform to 5a through c, or at least be tangential from that.
The Guppster was discoursing about 4b and c (I think that the 'Romantic' composers were as verbose as Whitman tended to be poetically, personally). Thanks for that, Gup!
Some people, however, can't get beyond definitions 2 and 3. How sad and empty is THEIR existence??

That's all, still cogitating on the collected works of the last couple weeks...

-k


From: Kirk
Date: 31 January 2000

Kirk,
I know I promised to only submit romance-related stuff that curls toes and warms hearts from here on out, but I really think that I need to submit my screenplay in its entirety. Scene 21 could hardly be categorized as romantic, but the screenplay as a whole is definitely romantic. The end product will be a 100 page plus love story. I didn't realize I'd like it so much, but I've grown attached to the characters and I want to bring it to its fruition. I hope you understand where I'm coming from.


From: Misti
Date: 31 January 2000

Oops, I'm a dork-a-saurus. That last comment was from Misti, not Kirk.


From: Megs
Date: 31 January 2000

Plus...I am kind of attached to Misti's characters too and I would hate to be left dangling when they just decided to "shack up" in the midst of their whirlwind romance...UGH that was unpoetic and did no justice to your story...but I just got back from my American Fiction class and reading Huck Finn leaves me flippant and braindead.



From: Misti
Date: 31 January 2000

Megs,
Thanks again! I LOVE Huck, he's one of my favorites. It enrages me that there are idiots in this nation who have banned *Huckleberry Finn* and *Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret* and countless other awesome books from school libraries. I wouldn't have made it through adolescence without my Judy Blume books, I swear!
I'm going to lose my job anyday now because "Candy Before Bedtime" is my absolute TOP priority!!!


From: Megs
Date: 31 January 2000

Huck was better in fifth grade when we read an excerpt and no one disected it to one end and back. It kills it for me. But a thousand agreements on Judy Blume...read Summer Sisters?


From: Misti
Date: 31 January 2000

No, but I gave it to my sister for her birthday last year and she loved it. My all-time favorite Blume novel is definitely *Tiger Eyes.*
...Yes, dissecting poetry and great literature is the absolute WORST.


From: erin
Date: 31 January 2000

misti--
i am lovin your screenplay (can't wait to see it!!!!!)and the new submissions!

~erin
btw, thanks for the comment on 'guess who' .


From: misti
Date: 31 January 2000

erin,
thanks and you're welcome! i'll probably never sell my script to a studio...i'll probably just get drunk on Beringer when I complete it like I did in '96 when i finally completed my first novel. after i wrote the bit** i tossed it in the dumpster! ha!
:)misti


From: Shadygirl fading_shade@hotmail.com
Date: 31 January 2000

gup - you must eat, sleep and drink numbers hun...woah, that was a mouthful, even for me...

Dork-a-saurus Rex (aka Misti)- Julie Kate? I want to put two and two together, but, I sometimes come up with five (unlike gup I'm sure.:-), so I figured I'd just ask, rather than make assumptions. Is she your daughter?

Megs - I was just going to say something about Summer Sisters...I like Judy Blume's 'adult' books as well. Hell, I just love books, period. That was a good one though. I also read Smart Women a little bit ago, not quite as good, but still a boredom breaker. My fave books of all time though, and I will probably get hung for this, are 3 sets of trilogies...2 sets, The Covenant Chronicles. And the other set is A Wrinkle in Time, etc etc...they are children's books, but I love them anyway. The Covenant Chronicles though..oh...*blushing* I LITERALLY fell in love with the main character. When the 6th book ended, I was so depressed that I couldn't and didn't read another book for about 3 months.

me=incredibly corny and silly little girl, but happily...:-)

Kev - hey sugar, wassappenin'?




From: Megs
Date: 31 January 2000

Shady---

Speaking of great books, have you read "The Divine Confessions of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood" by Rebecca Wells? I just caught it and I looooooooooved so I am hyping it up.
Run do not walk out and buy one. Beautiful writing there.


From: kevin urenda
Date: 31 January 2000

Shady-

Hon, I am one tired dude - needing a break (going to Nevada next week for one)...

Now, for the long-promised commentary (PLEASE bear with me, I have been holding onto some of these for three weeks now)~~

Word Wench-
I liked the undertone of "Denying You." Love is SO impractical and just upsets ALL your plans...

Madi-
"hoarding solitude" is like a negative image of me in a lot of ways (in the photographic/print sense)... I liked that this poem made me think of solitude in the way I used to when I thought I was going to have to get used to being alone...
AND, that was a metaphor for the ages, hon: "ladled with guilt like lumps in douthern gravy..." nice.

MVR-
Chica, you is MUY loca!
within two of the scenes you posted a couple weeks back were some old memories I had not thought of in a LONG time... In Scene 15, that background music "Wishing You Were Here..." OMG, that was one song in my junior year of high school that epitomized the blues. I was hot for one girl who lived 10 hours away, and hotter for another who was right here, but had a boyfriend already. At least her MOM liked me - is there any FAINTER praise??? Hadn't thought of Peggy in a LONG time...
And in Scene 17, Karis' line "I sent my inner child to reform school" just slayed me. Where did you get that one?

Starr-
after reading your "letter to jhimm" all I have to say is I hope it works out the way you want it...

Jenn-
SO GLAD to see your work, hon. I absolutely adored "My side of the bed," but all of your work is of good quality.

Gala-
I loved "Dallying for Dummies." Again that out-of-control feeling always gets me in these works... If you ever do write that book (the one from the last line), count me in for an autographed copy...

Gup-
I have been to those moments you describe in "who, me?" NOT living up to those bad labels is a constant struggle...

one last comment...

Tourmaline-
that title... "Cashing the Reality Check..."
Brilliant. Succinct and fitting poem as well...

that's all folks, gotta run!

-k


From: galadrial@aol.com
Date: 31 January 2000

Ok Kev,

Take that!


Hey Dee, know you're busy, but take a rest Wench! Miss you!


And thank you Guppy. I was slightly abashed by my quick quip---(tiny curtsey)

All right gang---vote for your favorite SHORT poem---the Iliad, or the Oddessy?


Wicked Bad Gala



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