By christa
Date: 18 January 2000

Brent

Dear Brent,
	I'm so confused right now.  You just can't like Jesse.  She's not right for
you, can't you see that?  Don't you know that i'm who you need. And i need you.
Stacey said she would support this, you and me. I could have gotten so close, but 
then i found out about Jesse.  I want to be with you and if you like Jesse, well
it ruins everything.  Why, why do you like her?  What does she have?  She gives
you attention, i see that, but i give you everything i can.  Every spare sec.
i'm thinking of you.  Isn't that enough?  Do i have to show you more how i feel?
How can i now that i know you like Jesse?  You can't like her, no.  I don't know
what to do now.  I could handle Becca, she ment nothing, i could see that. 
ut now i don't know about Jesse. She'll spoil you.  She'll turn you into
this sex craved drunk.  I need you so much.  What can i do?  How should i act. 
I wish i could just say everything i'm thinkng.  I tried to call you, but i
couldn't, i couldn't dial the last #.  It hurts me, and it makes me feel so
weak. I adore you, i admire you, i'd give you everything if only it would
make you so happy. I just don't know where to start.  I wish i could give this
letter to you.  I wish you would just find it.  Then i couldn't hid it anymore, 
how i feel for you.  How i just want you so much, how your face is the last thing 
i think of before i fall asleep, and the only person in my dreams, your who i think
of in the morning, your why i feel beautiful, your why i... why i'm who i am. And
your who i want to be with, so much, just so much. So much Brent.  If you were
 with anyone else, it would, i just can't even say.  You'd break a part of me.
I'd give you so much, anything you wanted, that's how i feel.  Why can't you see.
I'm so scared that you would find out, that you would just not want to see me, that you 
wouldn't feel how i do and so we couldn't even see eachother.  What can i do?
Be more interested?  Be sweeter, be nicer, be closer?  I'll try.  I'll try for you.
I'll change, i promise.  Just to be with you. Just to feel your arms around me.  I'd do anything.

		christa