By kevin urenda, kluless70@hotmail.com
Date: 28 January 2000

not my life

you are not my life
we all have our own paths to cross
our own crosses to bear
and I wish that I had not
spent so long keeping you 
from crossing into 
the deepest part of me
yet I did discover that 
it is never too late
never too much of anything
for someone who is worth everything
though I know that in making up for all
that lost time
all those lost opportunities
I still trip over my own stupidity
unreasonable expectation that 
you had not acclimated yourself 
to the me I had become
just when I was becoming the me 
I was supposed to have been all along
but I will stop at nothing
in being the man you deserve
the lover I should have been
in every moment you needed 
even the me that you always accepted
as incredibly flawed as I was
as I still am
and I am living a dream because
I cannot believe my good fortune 
in having found and somehow
kept the love of my life

01.28.00