By AML
Date: 7 December 1999

goodbye to me

it's not just every night
when I go home, alone in my room
it's every second I am not paying attention
to my work, when I am driving, 
when I am sitting in class, or trying to fall asleep
I know in my heart that you have moved on
you moved on long before you had the guts to tell me to
so why do I sut here and think of you?
why not go on with my life like you seem to do?
I don't know.
I want so badly to wake up yesterday
to wake in your arms like every morning for a year
so I can turn to you one last time and kiss you,
hold you quietly close to me
I don't really know if that moment would make a difference to you
but it would have made a difference to me
the last time I saw you I said "Have a good day, I wil call you later"
you said "I will be in my office after 3"
that was the end,
you never said goodbye to me.

AML 7, DEC. 99