By the guppy
Date: 15 December 1999

loving and loathing

i can tell by the way you're leering 
that my words are really searing you today
she's not my lover, and you don't have to
embarass yourself this way
you'd better go now
your man is showing off for your attention
don't smile at me, i know you're pretty
but, i'm simply not that dumb
you had your chance
you were the one i chose to dance with
the hand i wanted just to hold my heart
you made your moves
you deceived me just to prove
that we are much better off apart

i feel your tears bouncing off my leather jacket
and i'm sorry that they're aimed my way
i know that if the role was reversed
you wouldn't even want to deal with the possibility of them leaving stains
you are afraid that you scarred me
well, you did
you don't want to hear it now
you didn't then
the truth just might be that in your search for the perfect lover
you screwed over your very best friend

so, good luck
you'll need it someday
don't worry about me, baby, you should be used to that by now anyway
don't you ever
don't you say it
if you ever had loved me, it wouldn't have been so fucking easy
for you to betray it
just go away
good luck
goodbye