By SwtLiz Yahoo.com
Date: 11 December 1999

"What about me "

~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~>~You ask me "WHY DON'T I LOVE YOU"~<~<~<~<~<~<~<~<~<~<~<~<~<~
My dear,

Life has brought us ups and downs... And I still held on to our love
I forgave and learned to over look.. And I still held on to our love
I except you  for your being........ And I still held on to our love
I gave you my love without Question. And I still held on to our love
My warmth even during the dark hours.And I still held on to our love
Pain over took my body with wet eyes.And I still held on to our love
My dreams faded..... my desires gone And I still held on to our love
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Holding onto our love is what I thought loving someone unconditional WAS
                         ~BUT~BUT~BUT~BUT~BUT~BUT~
Through our son, I learned the meaning behind "Unconditional Love"
 Life As I had known, had felt, Was not a life at all about two worlds coming
  together trying to be one strong unit.

Remember what you said, "WHO IS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF ME"
 Our love can be describe in one word, "Me as in "YOU"
  I did everything for you and Expected little in return
   And then once Our son came into this world life began to change.
    My attention was directed toward our new born child.
     Giving him the comforts of my arms and the warmth of my heart.

~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?~?

My thoughts came to my own needs:
 "I need to feel love NOT as in an OBJECT"
  "I am not A Doll that one can dress up and show off here is my wife"
    "Now smile that smile of yours." :)

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I would of gave you the stars in the sky.
      The music within the song

                           ~BUT~BUT~BUT~BUT~BUT~BUT~

I gave and gave until my love ran dry and all I could do was sit.
And ask "how do I still hang on to our love?

No smile upon my face
No tears came
No heart beat
 

"Just one thought"

How do I still hang on to our love??????????????????????????????????????????
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I know and pray in the times yet to come you will understand ..

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

 And see I didn't give up on our love but maybe our love was more about

                     "WHO IS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF ME"