By Ashley Skye
Date: 19 December 1999

help me

I can't have you
	not because I don't want you, but because it would be called 
	setting myself up 
			again.  I get so angry with myself for seeing you and wanting to be in your arms ~ for letting myself remember the great times we shared.  Why don't I let myself remember how you made me cry.  Oh WAIT, you still do.  but I cry sometimes when I
	hear something
or		smell something that reminds me of you.
	Why can't I  remember when you took part of my comfortable life away~made all of those good times sad memories.  Instead I remember the smell of your skin and the way you made me feel.  The things you said to me about how life without me hasn't been as good.  Those things are what I wanted to hear. 
	maybe you knew that and that's the only reason you said them. Instead of missing you, I should forget you.  Sometimes I do.  I still think about other people and I still like other people, but no one knows me
				or makes me feel
					as comfortable as you.
 Help me to either love you again or forget you, but don't hurt me.