By AML <hello739@msn.com>
Date: 22 December 1999

Still Bitter

I am still so angry that you left
you gave up, you walked away...
I don't care if you got scared,
you wimped out, you threw in the towel...
It was not me.
Fear is no excuse you pathetic liar
why don't you own up to your insecurities
tell me the truth, you could not handle committment
you freaked out and ran like hell
away from all you have ever wanted in life
you ran from security and warmth
you ran from love and tenderness
you ran from someone who actually tried to understand
and love you for who you are
things got to hard for you, I was something you could not control
you could not change me, or mold me into what you needed 
to feel safe? 
You gave up, not me. 
And I am still bitter as hell
I can taste the anger and betrayal in the back of my throat
I tried to swallow it but it keeps rising everytime I think of you
Well, I am not going to do that anymore.
I have resigned to vomit you completely from inside of me and 
flush you down the toilet along with all the feelings you gave me
that beat down my confidence
I deserve to be loved and by God I gave you no reason to be afraid
of me.
I loved you and you gave up on us. 
And I hope I wont always be bitter.

~aml~ Dec. 22, 99