By CHINADOLL
Date: 13 December 1999

PERHAPS

Perhaps I was meant to love you forever
And it is the curse I have taken upon myself
That it was, is and shall always be you in my life
Remembering our past means everything to me
Imagining, wishing and hoping you will be there
Crying myself to sleep I realize you are gone
Keeping you prisoner in this heart I call my own

Perhaps I have been foolish
And all the world is trivial to me
Taking my heart from the shadows of misery
Risking my sanity and what I may become
Immersed in all the warmth of what we had
Caring for nothing at all but you
Knowing I am foolish makes no difference

Perhaps I am afraid to find out you don't love me
Afraid that you would scorn me and reject me
Thinking through the pain of loss and never accepting
Reaching out for you, if you are there
I think that it is now or never
Creeping within me is the fear and cold
Keep me while I weep and then slowly let me go