By erin
Date: 19 December 1999

emotions, still pent up

...
     I was mad at you when I found out you were still sleeping with Elise when you decide to kiss me.  See, you knew what was going on and I had no fucking idea.  And when Leigh told me about you and Elise she made me promise not to tell you i knew so that's why I was ignoring you.
     
     But I realized it's hard to ignore someone who doesn't talk to you anyways.
     
     Then when Thomas told me I couldn't hang out with him one night because you would be there and you "didn't want me there" I just decided not to even bother anymore.
     
     But that was a while ago and I really Don't Care anymore.  But I don't know how to act around you.
     
     That's all.

           Erin

P.S. Reading this over it occurs to me that this letter seems to forgive you for everything and that's not really what I meant.
     
     I'll be nice to you and stuff but we're NOT friends because I don't really Want to be friends with you.  I can barely even Look at you.
     
     I just hope you don't fuck Elise over b/c she really deserves Much better than you.  But I, for one, am not going to say that to her...
     
     One day you'll realize that you doon't rule the world and that not everything can be your way.  When your world comes tumbling down around you I hope you still have some people around who care and will pick you back up.
     
     I will reiterate this though:  If you ever wonder why we're not friends anymore it's b/c You Ruined It.