By KtG
Date: 25 June 2000
The irrelevant inanimate
It's burning,
It's eroding away,
Laugh at the acidity,
Understated aridity,
You took maggots to your bosom,
If it's clouded,
It's your clarity,
The records are melting,
Fading away,
We shattered our attachment,
Blue into grey,
Ice was frozen and frozen again,
By your warmth,
That carcass remaining,
Decaying,
Destroyed by your mirth,
If I was your mooncalf,
Then you were my Duce,
The runes were against us,
But you hid the truth,
The surreptitious devout,
Always speaking,
With a forked tongue,
Nothing seems,
Quite so obscure,
As what occurred between us,
A trance you overlord,
Which leaves me lifeless.
© KtG 1998
I wrote in this format to prove to myself I could play with words and rhyme at the same time as getting out my anger. When really I just wanted to scream "BASTARD" over and over at the top of my lungs. It's dedicated to a guy who takes the phrase "lets be friends" and not only makes a mockery of it but also then goes about trying to belittle and undermine your daily life and very existence. Seeming to actually glean pleasure from your pain. All the while pretending that he's doing it because you are a bad person or something, pretending that he never cared. He obviously couldn't have loved you because you are just so crap. The kind of bloke who shits all over your happy memories even though you thought it was going to be okay as a friendship. Even though you weren't bitter or clingy when it ended. Just because he's to immature to admit he hurts. Sorry, do I sound bitter now? I should.
I know it isn't a particularly great one, because if it was you'd be able to see all this already and I wouldn't feel I had to explain. As it is it's all too complicated to explain. At the time I saw him as calculatingly hateful and spiteful, which he was. He has apologised more recently but we don't talk anymore. Nothing about him makes total sense.
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