By Nikki
Date: 26 June 2000

For What It's Worth

For what it's worth...
   it wasn't supposed 
   to be a "Dear John" letter.
   Perhaps a more understanding
   hand should have written
   the emotions I was trying to say.
For what it's worth...
   it wasn't supposed
   to be me running
   away from you.
   Perhaps a more understanding
   mind would have
   quelled the seemingly
   insurmountable
   fears I conjure there.
For what it's worth...
   you made me want
   to hold on a whole
   lot longer than
   anyone else ever did.
   Perhaps a more understanding
   heart would have been
   better able to accept
   your love.
For what it's worth...
   saying goodbye forever
   was the last thing
   on my mind.
   Perhaps you've taught
   my soul to be more understanding, though,
   because I'm actually letting you go.
For what it's worth...
   but then, how much
   are words you'll never
   read really worth anyway?

NL 06/25/00