By sarah iristakeroot@aol.com this is more just a way to get something out, not really a poem i guess....
Date: 25 May 2000
energy drain
i can't find the energy
to give you
anymore
or the words
or the touches
i see your face fall and i
can't do anything anymore
to retrieve its smile
and i feel helpless!
i want to be held too!
but i can't hold you and feel
obligated to make you happy
i can't make your feet you
want to walk ahead and do what they
have to do
and when that bedroom door closes
i feel nothing but dread now
and the feeling that i'm still
in there alone
for all those hours i tried to call
you and talk to you
and then you come over unannounced
later at night
i don't have the energy anymore
i barely have enough for
myself it seems these days
i just can't do it....
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