By Ashley Skye
Date: 23 May 2000
Falling backwards
I've been pulled into a trap
and loved it while it lasted.
Got hurt
my heart ached with bruises.
Sat motionless for hours
thinking, deciding how to end it
and stay strong.
It was over
before I figured it out.
It was done for me.
I stood tall
blaming it all on everyone but me.
It helped
what can I say?
Now the mistakes were realized
It wasn't my fault after all
and apologies are pushing me down
pulling bme back into a trap.
Guilt and sympathy make me think
when I don't want to.
I want to stay free
but I can't.
I'm too weak
I don't want to be alone.
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