By Michael (quietly)
Date: 31 May 2000
Once friends
Once I was lonely and awkward
one I was quiet and afraid
afraid of people
afraid of life
Once a friend chose me
Once a friend saw something in me worth knowing
something no one else but I know
Once a friend picked me up
Once a friend called me out
Once a friend gave me music
Once a friend talked to me when I was lonely
Which was everyday
Once a friend talked to me when she was lonely
Which was everyday
Once a friend told me her secrets
Once a friend listened to mine
Once a friend was there when I needed her
Once a friend needed me
Once a friend heard me tell her I loved her
Once a friend told me she loved me
Once a friend heard me tell her I wanted her
Once a friend told me she did not want me
Somewhat friends
Somewhat friends that still talked when lonely
which was everyday
he told her still wanted her
she told him she did not
Somewhat friends that still told secrets
Somewhat friends that read each other poerty
he read her good poetry
hurt poetry
loving poetry
tried to sing his dear friend
his bestest friend
to sleep
he was unrequited
he used guilt
he used hurt
he used everything he could
he still wanted her
she did not want him
he was suffocating her with "love"
she did not want it
Bitter friends
Bitter friends that still talked when lonely
which was everyday
Bitter friends that loved each other
equal
but not the same
equal
but not the way people
that love each other
that want to live with each other
the rest of their lives
not that way
bitter friends that hurt each other
which was everyday
Bitter friends that still talked when lonely
which was everyday
One day he decided to leave
he was so bittersweet
they were so bittersweet
One day she went on vacation
One day he wrote a nasty letter
One day she came back
one day she decided to try
One day he said he was leaving
One day they tried to stop hurting each other
one day they tried
two nights they danced
three nights they loved
loved like people that want each other
loving friends
loving friends that still talked when lonely
which was everyday
loving friends that hurt each other
which was everyday
she read him good poetry
hurt poetry
mean poetry
damaging poetry
one day he decided to try harder
some weeks of hell
some weeks of hurt
some weeks of suffocation
some weeks of abandonment
some uninvited
almost unwanted
awkward
painful weeks
awkward friends that talked when they were lonely
which was everyday
awkward friends that hurt each other
which was everyday
he was a guilt laying
blame giving
careless
beautiful
saccarine saying
angrily loving
bittersweet person
she was a nervous
beautiful
careful
slowly loving
but loving
person
a person that knew this was not right
a person that knew it was not meant to be
a person that loved him
a person that loved herself
a person that knew it had to end
the hurt
the blame
the guilt
the awkwardness
the hell
She told him she didn't want to try anymore
she told him it wasn't meant to be
she told him he had to go away
away
two people that still loved each other
two people that still talked
not always when they we lonely
not always everyday
he decided to hang up
we was a guilt laying
blame laying
mean
rejected
feeling unrequited
person
she didn't want to hang up
she was a nervous
unused to loving
but still loving
careful
person
she didn't want to be alone
she hated to be alone
he didn't want to leave her alone
he hated to be unrequited
he left
she called
she left
he called
he begged
she called
he blew her off
he still loves her
she doesn't love him
two people that don't talk to each other when lonely
Once a friend was happy that his friend was getting married
Once a friend thought he saw a ghost
a ghost telling him he wasn't unrequited
Once a friend thought it wasn't meant to be
a ghost telling him he wasn't unrequited
Once a friend thought he might try
a ghost telling him he wasn't unrequited
Once a friend thought he would tell her
but to tell her he had to tell the world
he told her he still loved her
he told her he was different
he told her he knew now how it's supposed to be
two people that love each other
two people with something in common
two people that don't hurt each other
two people that don't hurt each other everyday
two people that talk when they are lonely
which is everyday
two people that support each other when they need it
which is everyday
a ghost telling him he wasn't unrequited
once a friend thought he would try
once a friend thought he would lay ground rules
once a friend thought he could have his greatest dream
a ghost telling him he wasn't unrequited
but its just a ghost
a ghost inside his head
a friendship that is dead
a love
a love that is dead
a friend that is unrequited
but doesn't care
he still loves her
she doesn't love him
two people that don't talk to each other when lonely
still a friend was happy that his friend was getting married
still a friend that is unrequited
now a friend that knows
it's only love after all
still a friend was happy that his friend was getting married
two people that don't talk to each other when lonely
now a friend that understands
they should only be friends
still a friend was happy that his friend was getting married
now a friend that knows
this was not right
it was not meant to be
she loved him
she loves herself now
he loves himself now
he knows it must end
she knows it must end
the hurt
the blame
the guilt
the awkwardness
the hell
it's only love after all
not true love
not anymore
if it ever was
love dies
friends deal
true friends
deal
it's only love after all
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