By same
Date: 14 February 2000

Crying Time

Today a lifetime of tears fell

Declared that was quite enough
My portion was now used up
And then a new wave would begin
Pouring out uncontrollably
Showing no mercy for my heartache
No relief in sight for my sorrow

Gathered myself to be strong
The old pep talk about moving on
New lessons learned help us grow
Things will be brighter, tomorrow
Then he’d flash through my mind
And the floodgates crashed open

Willing myself to be brave
Forcing my body out of bed
Stepping over my heart on the floor
Knowing I should pick it up
Dust it off, return it to my chest
Awaiting new breath to revive it

Ignoring the logic of reason
Shunning the act of bravery
Denying the call for strength
Promising to move on soon
Wanting to wallow in pity
Longing to scream in despair

Needing this crying time


December 27, 1999