By lanna
Date: 2 April 2000

Maybe...

I bought the ticket
and in 14 days
you will meet me
at the airport.
And we will spend
the next ten days
in each other's company.
In our minds
we will tear down
everything we built
each other up to be
replacing those images
with everything we
will see each other to be.
And I will spend
those ten days
storing as many memories
as my heart, soul, and mind
can hold.
And when it's over
you'll take me to the airport
and maybe I'll cry
and maybe you'll say something sweet, reassuring
and maybe we'll kiss one last time.
But I'll get on the plane 
and come home.
In the end
you'll have to make a decision.
And whether you know it or not
it will be very important.

   You have to choose 
       ME or HER.

(Because I won't share.
You taught me that I
deserve more.  I deserve better.)

And if you choose her
we'll still be friends.
But if you choose me
   Maybe I can heal your heart.
   Maybe you can sleep without demons.
   Maybe you will understand
      what it is that drives me.

Maybe you will love me too.


(PS.....sorry it's so long.)  4/1/00