By me
Date: 6 April 2000
trip 2 DREAMLAND
The First Trip to Dreamland by STAR
As my heart races
And my breath becomes shorter and quicker
My mind begins to wander
It wanders on an endless journey
While my body endures the waves rushing over it as if I am on a magical rollercoaster ride
My palms begin to sweat
And my teeth start clenching because the constraints of my mouth feel too small to keep them apart
Now comes immense heat pouring over my body like steam in a sauna
Oh God what is happening to me?
I am saturated through and through by my own sweat billowing out of my pores
The music suddenly becomes louder
And it is so clear to me that I feel like I am one with the beat
My mind returns now and I wonder if I should be frightened by all these things I have never felt
And almost as a reply to my mind’s skepticism a rush of pure bliss and euphoria rolls over my body and soul
And I am at peace with all I know
I open my eyes to see a sea of smiling faces and open arms
I know at this moment that I am safe
All I feel now is happiness and love
I again free my mind to continue on its journey
Now my mind racing at speeds faster than light in all directions I have nothing left but my body and the feelings rushing through it
I feel like so much is coursing through my veins that it is trying to escape through my skin
Every inch of my outer shell is tingling
And I have an uncontrollable desire to touch someone and be touched by them
Oh God please don’t let this end!
I suddenly let go of everything and my body is free of all control
I am moving and dancing and being taken away by the beautiful music that I have joined myself with
My thoughts race back to me now and hit me like a trainwreck
I think that everything I see and feel is the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced and it is almost as if I am experiencing everything again as a newborn child for the first time
Oh God can it be real?
Can all these things be true and what I am feeling be reality and not a dream?
I suddenly realize that that’s where I am
I am a child in a perfect dreamland where all is good and everything that I touch and that touches me goes deeper than just the surface can feel
Emotions and feelings course through me deep into my soul
I have reached a perfect state of happiness and peace where I can let go of insecurity and become my true self
Where every touch from another person goes straight through my body to the absolute core of my being
I have found a place where I am safe and happy and loved
I have found ecstasy.
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