By Ali...windy357@aol.com
Date: 31 October 2000
The Youthfull Ancient
People always say
That there's something strange about me
They cannot quite put their finger
On the peice that's out of place
Everyone sees me
When I glide into a room
All eyes turn to devour
This dark haired, raven beauty
With my lips painted the deepest red
Hair, seductively tousled
Usually I'm draped in some skin-tight black leather
And tonight is no exception
I'm older than I look
But, you'd never guess
I'm stronger than I seem
So, you don't want to test me
Things are always the same
And I thought tonight was no exception
Then I saw him
Dressed in jeans and a plain white shirt
His black hair firmly in place
His blue eyes blazing hell
This was a wild one
And I could almost taste him...
He had stopped his conversation
With some pretty little girl
To gaze at me with hunger
Not unlike what I felt
But, somehow, not the same
I simply smiled at him
And gave him a look that said
"Come here, if you dare..."
And this man walked over
With such a confident gate
It made me laugh, a little
Because he simply didn't know
He had no idea what he was getting himself into
He was bold, I'll give him that
He tried to play it cool
But, ah, he couldn't resist me
And soon he was mine
As all the ones before him
So, in that smokey room
He placed one hand upon my cheek
And in a guesture, that I would guess to be
Unlike him
He leaned slowly over
And softly kissed my lips
And I could feel his heart pounding
When his lips met mine
And as he wrapped my arms about me
His guestures struck me as strange
He didn't seem the tender type
Yet, his kisses were so sweet
I expected something different from him
I was intrigued by this contradiction
From this man
Who seemed so rough
I almost didn't know what to do
Because I found I liked him
A crucial mistake, some would say
If you are, what I am
So, I pulled away from him
When I could stand it no longer
He looked at me
He didn't understand
And why would he?
I told him I was sorry
That I really had to go
He wanted to know
If he had done something wrong
I shook my head
And told him no
He wanted to know why I was leaving
When we had just started to have fun
I smiled sadly
Because he would never understand
His tender kisses touched the weakness
That for so long I had beaten down
And hidden
I looked into his eyes
And I felt a loss of power
A power I was accustomed to
I'm no good for you
I told him
And I got up to leave
He tried to grab my arm
But, I pushed him back to his seat
And my surprising strengh
Was enough shock to keep him there
I told him I was sorry
And then I walked out the door
Without another word
But, as I left
I felt his eyes on me
And I shuddered as I walked
I was a little angry with myself
For letting that man get to me
Like he did
Like he does, now
As I think back, of him
I suppose that I did the right thing
But, now I still hunger
For that which I need
Physical pain overcomes me at times
Because, you see, I'm still hungry
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