By Isabella Svenska
Date: 30 October 2000
An Angry Ranting
I don't think I will ever understand why
I don't think you will either
You must have some pattern developed by now
hurt the ones that love you
Why you want to do this I will never understand
You find a challenge to obsess about
and work to overcome every obstacle
Once the obstacle has been removed - you lose interest
and ultimately devastate the person that you work so hard to win over
The crumbling is a slow and decaying process
but it always starts with dishonesty
I'm sad you are destined for a lonely, vacant and selfish life
I'm willing to bet you did the same exact thing with your relationships
in the past
I don't think you know who you are anymore
Afterall, you play so many roles you've got to lose track
but ultimately you're a salesman
A liar who attributes every deception to victory
Why would you use me as a pawn in your cute little game called life?
Well, I hope you feel victorious -- you were able to deceive me
penetrate my walls and conquer my guarded heart
Congratulations!
What did you gain?
Some waitress skank who you wanted to take to bed eight years ago
Yeah, she's a real trophy
Do you actually think she discriminates when it comes to fucking?
You single-handedly destroyed a relationship
with deception and selfishness
You must be proud
Unfortunately, you hurt me
Someone who genuinely cared for you
Why?
To satisfy some selfish desire you had -- eight years ago
Again, congratulations
Maybe it was the way you were raised
The way your parents still choose to mop up every obstacle that comes
your way
You know that if you ever need money to get out of a jam -- your parents will
take care of it
They loved you too much
and as a result they created
a self-centered, selfish, narcisistic, 28 year old toddler
You were never taught to take responsibility for your own actions
Your morals are non-exisistent
I've never met someone like you -- who thinks the world owes him something
Someone who is into so much self-gratification that he would do anything
hurt anyone and use anyone to get his own way
It's unfortunate really
I don't feel this will penetrate you in the least
The only gratification that I have is that I've told you how it is
A complete tragedy
Someday, when you look back on all of your actions
You will feel remorse
Maybe not
All I know is you hurt me and I was a person who would have never lied to you
or deceive you or hurt you like you did me.
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