By erin.
Date: 4 October 2000

blueblueblue

You said my name and I jolted awake
my eyes still closed
you thought I was still caught up in the wunderworld of REM
  my subconscious painting pictures for me
Instead I was imagining you
  standing taller than you actually are
  your arms crossed over your chest
  and blue blue blue everywhere behind your head
standing in a field of non-pretentious dandelions
  taller than they should be
rays of light accentuating the glowing blueness
  that surrounds you
You don't talk but I feel what you are telling me
Telling me about the intensity of the sun on your body
  I notice how it seems to form a halo
I imagine you smiling the way you smile at something that
  is only funny to you
Your eyes are closed to protect your delicate
  blue blue blue irises from the blazing sun
Your chin is up, angling your head
  towards the warmth
and your neck, exposed, looks pale and vulnerable.

The world tilts and I envision myself off to the side
smaller
my face is turned towards the ground
Swirls of dust from the parched earth beneath my feet
  dance in the air
  and get in my eyes
causing futile tears to fall slowly downward
The sunlight does not grace my prescence
mysterious shadows cast from ghosts
  hide me well

I can see you in the distance
I don't question my prescence in the greyness
yet I wonder where the dandelions and the
  blue blue blue sky end
I feel sluggish and cannot move to find out
I hear you inside my head
louder than ever before

I open my eyes
reality blinds me
I apologize.

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