By terry
Date: 29 September 2000

Dancing Naked in the Rain

     I came in late tonight babe. And although you are sleeping soundly, I need to tell you something. I've always heard that angels whisper into our ears at night when God has a message for the heart. One that needs to be heard in the soul much more than in the ears and head. And since you call me your angel, then maybe it is appropriate that you are asleep for this. Somehow it feels right. So before I begin, I'll undress and get in beside you, up close. I see you left a candle burning. Vanilla. Now why does it not surprise me you would be burning my favorite. *Sigh* God I love you.
     Ok. This is better. Much better. You have the sweetest half-smile on your face. Does that mean you are dreaming something only half good? Babe, I realized today that I had to tell you my secret. It's been weighing heavily on my mind. At first I hadn't a clue if I could even do it. But you've already noticed, I know. The last few days you said I looked distant, distracted. Why, last Saturday you even thought I looked sad...remember? At the time I laughed real quick. Called you crazy. But even then you knew. Because you know me. Know me better than I know myself I guess.
     Well babe,  you were right.  Something has been resting uneasy in my spirit. And it's time I spoke the words out loud. As much for myself as for you. So here goes. You don't know it, but last week......at our monthly planning breakfast the Blood Mobile was at the office. And yes, I  donated. I thought nothing of it at all. Just NOP ya know? Normal Operating Parameters, lol. But babe? Nothing was normal this time. The Red Cross lady called early this week. She  gave me some news. Not very good news.........you see.........well, (damn there's no easy way to say this).........there is a problem. With my blood. Something with a name longer than my poor tongue......lol. But the bottom line is......God this is hard. And my tears are not sad ones, please know that.
     Babe, they say I have less than a year left. So I wanted to let you know what I intend to do. This is important to me, and I want to say the words while I have the courage, okay?
     I will awaken every morning with a smile. Just for you. And I will kiss you with every ounce of love and tenderness that fills my heart. And don't even think about excuses! Morning breath? Ha! Even your morning kiss tastes sweeter than any mountain spring that ever existed. From now on I intend to drown there. Relish every drop!  
     And next, I will refuse to get out of bed until I hear you laugh. I would prefer that giggle that makes ME laugh. But I'm not greedy. Any laugh will do.
     And sunrises? From now on we will set the alarm at least three days a week. I intend to watch you watch the sunrise.  See every colour reflected in your eyes......compare every shade and hue to the rainbow of your soul. I intend to make mother nature jealous when I describe you to her. Maybe she'll get angry at me and make it rain. In which case we will get naked and dance. Let the rain wash our souls as one under the morning star.
     And Oh, I almost forgot! French....I intend to tell you how much I love you at least twice a day in French.....lol.  I know, I know. You don't even speak the language. Don't matter. I remember that night you got three sheets to the wind. And do you remember saying that the singer in that smokey little bistro was sexy as hell.....just because he sang french love songs? I do.......so from now on Je parle Francais, mon amour!........lol
     God I love you so very much.    And..........uh oh........What's that love?  Naw, it was just me. Thinking out loud again. But since you're awake, I think I see a kiss I might have lost right there on your lips....mind if I retrieve it? Well good, and have I said lately that when you laugh that way I get turned on? Well come with me to the porch. I see the sun is about to rise. I'll tell you all about it then.......
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