By Erin   CrAzYOvErU4EvEr@yahoo.com
Date: 22 October 2000

I Said

“I Said”
I said he was immature and that he needed to grow up.
He said Fuck you bitch we’ll never be friends.
I said whatever.

It’s hard to forget you but according to you I have to, but I don’t want to.  I don’t want to forget about the fun that we had, I don’t want to forget the experiences we had.  As I can tell you don’t care anymore.  You could care less if I still liked you.

I said I miss you.
He said that maybe I still would’ve liked you if you didn’t talk to me for a while.
I said you’re a dick I hate you.

But I still like you.  I can’t forget you, but I need to.  I don’t want to sulk over someone I can’t have.  But I do.  You’ll never understand how I feel; you’ll never get it, not today tomorrow or in a million years.  You’ll never go through the pain and sorrow I went through.

I said I’m sorry for what I have done.
He said go to hell bitch I hate you.  We are through.
I said I’m sorry please forgive me.

I don’t know what else to say.  It’s hard top find the right words to say to someone.  You try to make up for all the mistakes you have made, but maybe I have made too many mistakes to be forgiven.

I said why couldn’t we be together.
He said your crazy.
I said I’m guilty, but I’m guilty of being crazy over you.

I miss him so much and it would mean the world to me if he forgave me.  It would mean so much for him to say “I forgive you,” but he never will.  I miss the phone calls we would have.  I miss the deep conversations we would have.

I said why couldn’t we be friends.
He said you’re annoying and you don’t know how to shut the hell up.
I said I’m sorry.

It made me sad that there was no more us.  It was just you and me two totally different people with nothing in common.  We came from two totally different backgrounds, maybe we weren’t meant to be together.

I said you’re right maybe we weren’t supposed to be, but I will always love you.  Goodbye.
He said Goodbye.
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